StevesGal
I was born 9 lbs. 14 oz. - big for a baby in 1963. During my childhood, I was 'average', mostly because back then, you didn't have computers, lots of tv channels, etc. and spent all day running around, biking, playing outside. Even in the winter, I was outside building snowmen, tunneling thru the hill of snow left by the plows (and my mother didn't freak like I do now!), skating.
As I grew into a teenager, school took over, and my physical activities suffered. More time indoors, less time outdoors. More time watching tv, less time being active.
By the time I graduated college, I was over 200 lbs. I lost a bit, got married and thought I had the perfect life. Then my marriage started to crumble, and when I asked my then husband what the problem was, his aswer was "I don't want to hurt your feelings, so I'm not going to answer". But I knew (or at least I thought I did - the problem was HIS not mine, as I discovered later). By the time I left him and got my own apartment, I was well on my way to 250 lbs.
Now it's 15 years later. I've remarried, had 2 kids and have been working nights all that time. And my weight has gone up ... again.
I've tried WW (at least 4 times), Weight Loss Clinic, Sure Slim, etc. I've joined a gym a couple of times, all women gyms so I wouldn't feel uncomfortable, but they only lasted a few months, and life would get in the way and I'd stop going. The problem with going to WL programs is that you can always go back to your old habits -- which I always did.
Now, after years of attempts and failures, I'm ready for that step. I need this surgery to get back on track with my life. I hope it happens soon. My BMI is just under 50, and although I've never had co-morbidities, I can feel this starting to change. Joints hurt, breathing is hard on steps or just walking a block or two. I get so winded when I'm walking outside that I get physically ill trying to catch my breath.
Basically, I'M SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED.
The journey of 1000 miles begins with one small step. This is my first small step. Here's hoping the journey doesn't take long.
EDIT: Well, after several years and weight gain, I'm back. I've gain back over half of what I lost ... I feel absolutely terrible about it but it's done now ... and after trying WW again and failing, I've decided to go back to my beginning and see if a switch surgery is a possibility. If not, then I'll deal with it another way.
EDIT 2: I am in line for a 2-step surgery, where first the RNY is reversed and a regular stomach is recreated, then later a sleeve is done.
