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There have been major change since June 2014.  I had my band removed, it had been making so Ill that I couldn't even hold down water...not good! So it was removed in June, I rested for a little over 8 weeks then revised to VSG on August 27, 2014 so I'm just about 5 days post op (no I haven't weighed myself yet -not my focus right now). I have my follow up with the Dr tomorrow and will get an update then. Can I say that surgery was completely different... The Dr said everything went really well with the surgery but this time I experienced some REAL BAD gas pain (TMI, I know) but it had me wondering if I made the right decision. I am feeling much better now and now it is what it is can't change anything now. I'll check back in, in a few weeks and let you know how I'm doing. :)

Things are much different in terms of my weight loss but in terms of my mind..things haven't changed so easily.  Iv'e been back and forth to the doctor lately.  I thought that once i lost weight everything would fall right into place...it seems that everything is falling out of place...physical ailments, eating habits, and now for the second time this year I've had to have all the fluid taken out of my band, thus letting my stomach repair and starting over yet again.  When will all of this level out and I get to a place of balance? im striving for that and will make that one of my new goals...

After drinking liquids for the past two weeks when do I transition to phase two?? i have been actually experiencing legitimate hunger, not just head hunger and it feels good!! I don't know when the last time I experienced that was...   i think im at a stand still with my weight, i refuse to get on the scale until Wednesday.  My surgery follow up Dr appointment is tomorrow weather permitting.  I wonder what it will be like?  I'm rambling, because I'm a little anxious and cant quite understand why... for the old me this would be the time I would eat, stuff my feelings/emotions etc...

I had the lapband last week Wednesday January 5th, 2011  What a beautiful way to start out my new year.  My experience has not been a bad one, other than the regular surgery issues you might encounter.  I'm recovering slowly and I need to be if I really want to heal properly...i have a tendency to rush myself...im learning balance, something i needed to learn my entire life.  i know that my journey really begins now and here is where the real work starts.  As I read the blogs of others, I see so much about the mind and how I need to be mindful of headhunger as opposed to real hunger.  This has always been my concern and I have shared this wth my therapist.  As I continue this journey, I pray for the strength to live in the moment and know the difference.