squeaky
I have always been a bigger girl but very active girl. I swam, played softball, ran track, and anything else I wanted to do. I was about 190 my jumior year in high school. My volleyball coach told me that I had gained way too much weight. This was even after I was still the fastest runner on the team. I was short and muscular.
I started really gaining weight about the time I was 20. My periods started being three times a year and horrible. I went through a string of doctors until I found one that told me what was going on with me. He said I have PCOS. It was a relief to finally figure out at the age of 28 that I wasn't full of it and it wasn't all in my head. I was put on Glucophage that helped regulate my cycles, but did nothing for the anovulation.
I have been through the load of fertility tests, drugs, treatments, etc. I finally found a surgeon that I trust with my life, and decided to do the vertical gastric sleeve. I was way too chicken for the gut rerouting. LOL. Plus, I want to have a baby sometime this century. So, here I am.
Three days post-op and feeling good. I haven't taken any of my pain medicine. The pain ball they used was the bomb! I took that out yesterday at noon. Just hurts like hell to cough real hard. My taste has changed. The sugar free Jello is wayyyyyyyyyyyyy too sweet. I can hardly hack it down.
The only time I was nauseated was from the anesthesia. It took a few days to calm down, but I feel great. Plus, I think I am stubborn as hell. Two hours after surgery I got up to the bathroom. Then about 7 hours after surgery when I got to my room I changed out of that ugly ass gown and into my own cute outfit. I then walked down to the ICU where I worked. I think they all thought I lost my mind. I have showered everyday since surgery. Today I put my makeup on and did my hair. I thought I would be a lot worse off. Maybe that's the secret: think it's going to be dreadful and then it's not that bad.
Right now the struggle is getting the protein and the fluids in. I just don't have a taste for anything. Anything really cold just makes me feel like there's a lump in my throat. My belly is still swollen and that damn orange cleanser they do before surgery is starting to come off. I had Oompa Loompa gut for a few days.
I think a lot of this is going to be attitude. I had a dream that I ate a piece of popcorn and I woke up flipping out! LOL... A lot of this with me is going to be my will of wanting this weight off of my body.
