Bec M.
My story..... what does a person write that has a "story" so much like so many that are here reading for the very same reasons I have been?
Having been "heavy" since a young person... as a young person I faced most of the same issues as most of you have, humiliation, embarrassment, self esteem issues, and so much more, as a young adult, more of the same. Now that I am getting a bit older and like so many, am finding myself with more serious health issues all the time, continuing to add more and more medications to my daily "intake"... I've come to the realization that as a previous pastor used to teach... "until the pain of remaining the same exceeds the pain of change we will most likely remain the same." I'm finding some truth in this statement as I find myself more willing to do "what ever it takes" to find "healthy~ness" if you will. I have been blessed thus far in my life not to have had any serious life threatening episodes... but also knowing what the odds are... I'm heading straight for some of those very things if I do not make some serious changes in my "habits"... and again, like so many of you I have yo-yo'd around for many years with weight loss attempts.
After much study, talking, reading, researching and so forth, I have decided WLS to be my best chance to see positive, life changing results when it comes to weight and overall health. That brings me to this point as I write today, hoping and praying that this will be the answer that I need to see many many more years of "life"... seeing my two wonderful girls (ages 21 and 23) successes and yes failures in life and maybe if I'm blessed even more than I am now... a few grandbabies to boot!
I have been pursuing WLS for over a year now... but am finally seeing some positive happenings in obtaining the goal of surgery. I could write a true "novel" about the horrors of, unreturned phone calls, mislaid promises, unsuccessful insurance inquiries, pre and post denial. I am ever so happy when I hear that others have not had to go thru what I have. As I write... I am in the process of seeing a dietician tomorrow and then the surgeons office will resubmit my request for surgery all over again as if it was the first time. A year later. A lawyer recently told me certainly not to make my decision as to if this surgery "was meant to be" on an insurance company's denial... so here I am.
A little about me as just a regular ole person... I married at the age of 18 and had two beautiful girls at the age of 19 and 21. They are my "mostest" & "bestest" accomplishment! As they are away at college, the oldest one working on her Masters in History and the younger, double majoring in Communications and Public Relations, my husband and I find ourselves in the ranks of the "empty nesters".....not where I like to be! That leaves us with little Tito, our "half pint" (Terrier Chihuahua mix) third child, only he prances around here like he is the family patriarch!
I love flowers, gardening, crafts, water activities and cooking of coarse!
A personal goal when I finally lose this extra "self"I have so constantly carried around with me for all these years? To fly across the lake on a jet ski with the wind and water splashing me in the face and not feel all the inhibitions that has kept me from doing so many of the things over the years I have wanted to do.
At this point I would like to say thank you to all the wonderful people I have met on the MO board, and all the ones I have met in the support group meetings too. Those of you that have spent a goodly amount of time answering so many of my repetitive questions... so willingly sharing your experiences (even the embarrassing ones) and wisdom with me. I surely hope I will be able to give back to others what I have been given when I get to the "other side" of this seemingly life long struggle.
I will continue to update now when I can and look forward to reading more about some of you too.
bec
