sparkles217
2010 update
Nov 15, 2010
appeal approved
Sep 11, 2009
I fell last Sat the 5th at 6am. Of couse I slipped in my pee. The bathroom doors in the apartment are very narrow, I think I have mentioned before, I fell rt leg out the door and the rest of me inside the bathroom. I screamed for my husband and he came running, I was turning around in the doorway to get straightened out, wiggled out finally of the bathroom and into the livingroom thinking that I could use the loveseat to get up. My rt knee and rt shoulder hurt so bad I was in tears so after a while we called 911 and they came and helped me get up. i stood shakily but ok, sat on the loveseat until they left, then hobbled painfully to bed. I tried to get up later to pee and of course I could not stand up so i ended up peeing on floor, that is luckily covered by a peice of carpet that is ours. again later i tried to stand to pee and still same result. i decided then to call 911 cause i was home alone and go to er. they came, rode the ambulance to er, got in there, had the xrays and stuff, and said it was strained muscles. my friend happened to have an extra walker her uncle had given her in her car so she brought it in and i used that to walk out of er. had to talk the dr into something for pain, he gave me ultram. got home and sunday was able to get up with still alot of pain but able to get up. stayed home from church. went to see my dr wed for a refil of the ultram, called the insurance cause i had not heard from them, and then thrusday got the call. what a week. I still have pain in my knee and shoulder and i guess its getting better, i just want it to go away. guess that is asking a little too much. so i will keep you informed of the drs appts and stuff. thanks sharon
Official weight
Aug 11, 2009
got the dr working
Aug 06, 2009
denial
Aug 04, 2009
love ya
sharon
No news is good news or something
Jul 30, 2009
sharon
Dr appointment went well
Jul 20, 2009
i was reading in get out of that pit by beth moore again. once you realize you are in a pit and want to get out there are some things you have to do. Cry out, confess, consent.
cry out to God, loudly demonstratively with all your heart.
confess, tell God whats on your mind, what kind of mess you are in, who is in it with you, whats holding you back, what is on your heart, who is on your case, who made you mad, who is on your nerves, who broke your heart, even if your first impulse is to blame God, go ahead spill it out. Psalm145:18 says "The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth." Don't overlook the unparalleled benefit of confession sin, lay it right out there and hold your chin up while you do it, let the light of God shine all over your sin so the two of you can sort it out and he can heal you. don't forget to spit out the sins of pride. it contributes more tot the length of our stay in the pit. confess every sin of your own actions, words, or thoughts that you believe contribute to your defeat. search your heart to see if bitterness has taken root, if anger, lack of forgiveness, or coldness is keeping you in the pit. get specific as you can, when you think you are thru, ask God if you have overlooked anything. this is a process there are layers to go thru like taking off old wallpaper you take one layer at a time examine it and then go to the next. God wants to restore fellowship not condemn us. here is how confession works: lay all your sins at Gods feet, he picks them up and throws them behind his back. they are gone. we would pick them back up if left to ourselves but if God has them there is nothing to pick up.
consent, there is no ambiguity about this step, it is definitly God's will. God wants you out of the pit, he wants you in victory, out of defeat, period. all you have to do is consent to what he already wants. 1 John 5:14-15 "this is the confidence we have in approaching God, that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. and if we know that he hears us-whatever we ask-we know that we have what we asked of him." its Gods will for us to be out of that pit, if we will consent to the process, wait upon God as he begins shifting, shoving, and rearranging things for your release, you can go ahead and get excited, because it will happen.
more of that later on. just wanted to get that in. love yall
sharon
doctor change done
Jul 17, 2009
not much else is worthy of my writing about today so i will say bye and talk to you all later.
sharon
bad day turned good
Jul 15, 2009
i went to my new pcp today. she was skinny and had an attitude when she came in. she eventually said that she would not help me becuase i was not helping myself. i have never had a doctor be so rude and horrible, she made me cry. in the end she did say she would give me the referral to the DS surgeon. if i didn't have to go back to her i wouldn't. my new goal is to loose wt so i can get off medicare and don't have to see her anymore. i know some doctors are that rude but i just had not run into them yet. today was my lucky day. ok i am calmer now. thanks.
thanks everyone for being mad with me. i don't have a choice in changing drs and this is a smallish town so no real big practices here. this is just the one i got assigned so i will put up with her and be done in a while. at least she is going to give me the referral i thought for a while she wouldn't and i did not know what i was going to do. now to argue with the insurance about going out of state for surgery. life is fun sometimes. but God is always there to pick up the peices. thanks again
you have a good point, she also said she did not give pain meds so if i was there for drugs she could not help me. to me being a former nurse that is inhuman, you as a person cannot judge what the other person is feeling, if they say they hurt then they hurt and if what they are taking is not helping then you need to work on getting the pain relief they need to live a quality life. i did tell her i wanted something for all the aches and pains and that i was taking high doses of ibuprofen and she said stop taking alot of that blah blah blah. i have heard it all and i know that to get any relief i take what i have to. i am going to call the insurance and see if i can change drs. my friend also goes there and her dr is really nice she says.
i am worried that she will write this letter that is so full of lies that i won't get in the surgeons office. this is what she wrote on my discharge paper. "we discussed that she will not be able to lose weight, with or without surgery, without or without a significant change in her lifestyle. thus i am hesitant to provide a referral to denton, tx. we discussed the possibile severe risks with further bariatric surgery, i will refer her to the program in denton so she can gather information but i do not recommend that she proceed with surgery until she has made a significant and prolonged (several months to 1-2 years)effort at exercise and diet-control." ok i will die without surgery and i do know the risks of the surgery how can i not when that is all you hear about. people love to tell you about someone they knew that had this horrible complication with the wls. but that is the risk i am willing to take and it is not her decision it is mine. she did say she was trying not to be mean just honest, well ok that was her honest point of view and that is all it was a point of view. maybe she will read the website that i gave them and see that it is not so bad. i will have to pray for her to get her compassion in her work.
told you it was long. lol this was not a good example of how a christian should act, i should have just given it to God and let it go. but as a human i can't seem to let it go that little voice in my head reminding me what was said and done and how can you stand that blah blah blah. that is where you have to take control and put on your armor from ephesians to protect you from all those little thing the devil does. i fell for it today but i am fighting that weasle to keep my head and heart for Jesus. thanks
sharon
Product testing
Jul 11, 2009
sharon
