Sonja G.
need to stop comparing
Apr 23, 2009
So I look at the main forum all the time and I am so bad at comparing myself to other people. But here's my new dilemma, I am getting worried that I am about to stall out. I read all the time how people around the same month as I am stall. I am heading home (to Washington) to see my family in June and I want to lose the extra 16 pounds to my goal weight. I am holding off buying clothes just in case. I need to stop stepping on the scale, I know that I stay the same weight until after my period then I start losing again. I just think maybe I am over thinking this because I am going to see my family and they haven't seen me since surgery. I was 278 when they saw me and I am 180 now. Some of the people that I am going to see last saw me at 294. So I should just be happy right??? Nervous, Scared, worried about stalling.
On the positive side My best friend was approved today. I am soooooooooooo (could go further) excited for her, she deserves this. After a little fight with her insurance company they called her today to say she was approved. I couldn't be any happier for her. We always seem to go down the same road in life that's why we are besties and have been for over 15 years.
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On the positive side My best friend was approved today. I am soooooooooooo (could go further) excited for her, she deserves this. After a little fight with her insurance company they called her today to say she was approved. I couldn't be any happier for her. We always seem to go down the same road in life that's why we are besties and have been for over 15 years.
Confused
Apr 16, 2009
Okay so I have been watching the boards looking at the date of surgeries for the people who have lost 100 pounds to see if they are around the same date as me. I am confused I have found several people who say they have lost 100 pounds but if you look at there weight tracker they truly haven't. I know maybe they started there weight tracker late but if you want to go off my highest weight I have lost 113 pounds but I am going off what I weighed right before surgery and I have lost 95 pounds. So do I join the 100 pound lost club or do I wait until those last 5 pounds come off.
Either way its sooooooooo (can't go on as long as I want) to actually be losing weight. Now I just need some new clothes and a makeover, hahaha. I go to see my family in June, actually I arrive on my B'day. I am excited and not. I will miss my family but its only for the weekend. I am excited to finally go out, see I am in Alaska and don't know anyone so I have been stuck in the house for the winter and I don't know anybody. I guess its kinda good my family see me now because the next time they see me I will be even smaller and hopefully have had plastic done :):)
Well TTFN 16 POUNDS TO GOAL
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Either way its sooooooooo (can't go on as long as I want) to actually be losing weight. Now I just need some new clothes and a makeover, hahaha. I go to see my family in June, actually I arrive on my B'day. I am excited and not. I will miss my family but its only for the weekend. I am excited to finally go out, see I am in Alaska and don't know anyone so I have been stuck in the house for the winter and I don't know anybody. I guess its kinda good my family see me now because the next time they see me I will be even smaller and hopefully have had plastic done :):)
Well TTFN 16 POUNDS TO GOAL
Vitamins
Apr 10, 2009
So I went in for my physical today... Well let me tell you this first. I had surgery in Washington State then came back to Alaska. Dr Oh had a huge list of vitamins he wanted to put me on. I took them til my 1 month po with my internal med dr here in Alaska. She cut me wayyyyyy down I only take 2 childrems multi vitamins, 3 1,000 mg of Vitamin D and I am taking my biotin hoping it helps my hair. So back to the begining, I went in for my physical and had my labs drawn 2 weeks ago. I am only low on Vitamin A, even with how far she cut me back. She wants me to take B12 once a week and Calcium Citrate for my bones. They weren't low but wants to stay on top of it. I probably shouldn't say this but I don't drink the protein drinks either. I am doing great, feeling great everything is good my cholestrol is down, I am no longer boardline diabetic and I am almost 100 pounds down (have like 5-10 pounds to go). IDK I guess as long as my labs are doing great I am doin good. :)
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Shopping
Apr 05, 2009
Okay so I went to Fred Meyer yesterday to get some groceries and thought what the hell let me look at some clothes and shoes. I really, really want to wear knee high boots but I still can't get them to zip up. I just have huge calves, ugh!!!! But thats not the kicker; I had bought some pants from the thrift store just because I am still losing and don't want to waste the money. The pants I bought were 2 size 18 and 2 size 16 but they seem not to be the same sizes. So I was just gonna try on some pants to see what size I really am. I went straight for the plus size section and decided not to try on any clothes. Then I looked at the regular section and the 16 and 14 sizes were in there to but I was to timid to even try on any clothes. Whats wrong with me.... I should be excited to try on these smaller sizes but I still see and feel I am 275 pounds not 185. My husband was with me and later pointed out this lady and said "so your telling me she shops in the plus sizes?" I looked at her and said no. Then he tries to tell me that I am smaller then her. I argued with him that she was smaller then me and he didn't know what I was talking about. He made a good point that he is on the outside looking in and that I was smaller. I just dont see it. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Update
Mar 16, 2009
Well I forgot to update last month so I am kinda making up for that now. I have lost a total of 86 pounds, 104 from my highest weight. This month I didn't lose as much probably about 8 pounds, I typically lose 10-15 a month but I new this was going to happen eventually. My husband and I workout together but he has an arm injury which screwed me up because I am all about routine. He had to get an cortisone injection in his arm so we are still on a stand still. I am trying to do things at home but I love the gym and going without the kids. I have been experiencing some dizziness lately, I am going into the Dr next Friday and having my blood drawn to check my vitamins level. So I am hopeful that things are all good. Feeling a lil down as I am soooooooooooo sick of Alaska, I need some sunshine. June can't come quick enough. I am hoping nothing interferes with me going home for my nieces grad and visiting my family. I really need that to lift my spirits. It has been 6 months, it will be 9 once I get there. And 1 weekend visit will help me last in this cold ass state.
Well TTFN
Sonnie
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Well TTFN
Sonnie
Update
Jan 25, 2009
I have noticed lately I don't want to eat red meat, food in general just doesn't appeal to me. My husband said the other day maybe we can go out have dinner and do something and I, me, big girl that loves to go to dinner said "Why go to dinner lets just go bowling or something" He laughed and said now you understand. I just don't see the purpose in going and spending money on food or making him buy what I want to eat because I can't eat the whole thing. We agreed upon going to a bar and having appetizers and a drink then going out. Wow I just saved us lots of money. HAHAHA And the red meat thing, I am eating veggies with lil I can't believe its not butter and lil seasoning salt or saute mushrooms in again lil i can't believe its not butter, soy sauce, and garlic. Then there's my fruit smoothies w/ splenda or cool whip and my vitamins crushed in (scared to try and swallow pills yet) I love scallops I don't know why, I will defrost maybe 1 or 2 and caramelized them with just salt and pepper mmmm soo good. I am making my hubby go buy a new bag from Costco today (and the frozen fruit for my smoothie)
I am still trying to get on a routine going to the gym. I just don't feel comfortable yet so I try and go when its dead. The other day I went in and it was packed so I just tanned and left. I only went twice last week and I know I can do more I just don't have that burst of energy that other people talk about on OH. I think its also b'cuz I am in Alaska and I hate the cold and the dark I can't wait to get out of here. I was aiming for somewhere like Arizona not Alaska.
I finally got off my plateau, at least for me. I was at 215 for a week I am now 210. Now pics though until February (my months pic). I am starting to feel better about myself getting ready to take more pics happy pics. Well ttfn!
Oh and my hair is thinning but my hubby loves long hair so I think I am going to go get long layers put in but he is cool with me cutting it off. I think I want to go try on a wig see what I can do maybe add some extensions. IDK we will see.
Oh and can you believe I am 10 pounds from the 100's I can't remember when I was in the 100's it had to be when I was a teenager. I can't wait!!!!!!!
Update
Jan 14, 2009
Okay I don't know how these skinny bitches do it, feelin there bones all the time. I took a bath and sat down and felt my butt bones on the tub it was sooo uncomfortable. And when my husband rests on my hips I always yell at him "Ouch that hurts."
I am stalled at 215, but I finally joined the gym so I think I am gaining muscle. I don't know but I need to do something because I have 6 months before I see my family again since surgery (they are in a different state). I do have to say I still see myself at 294 but my best friend is helping me see the light. My husband always tells me I have lost weight but he is around me 24/7 so I like it better when my best friend sees my pics because she notices (I just hope shes telling me the truth
)
Couple of wow moments:
Got rid of all my big girl close
I don't over shadow my husband when we are laying side by side
I actually have extra room on the sides of the tub when I am laying down
And the water flows over my stomach, no soaker tub (just a lil but a lil counts)
On the down side
My hair is starting to thin out. ( I think I am going to get layers put in I don't want to lose the length)
Loose skin Ugh (under arm, in between thighs and stomach)
And the bone thing (seriously folks, but I will get use to it)
TTFN
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I am stalled at 215, but I finally joined the gym so I think I am gaining muscle. I don't know but I need to do something because I have 6 months before I see my family again since surgery (they are in a different state). I do have to say I still see myself at 294 but my best friend is helping me see the light. My husband always tells me I have lost weight but he is around me 24/7 so I like it better when my best friend sees my pics because she notices (I just hope shes telling me the truth
) Couple of wow moments:
Got rid of all my big girl close
I don't over shadow my husband when we are laying side by side
I actually have extra room on the sides of the tub when I am laying down
And the water flows over my stomach, no soaker tub (just a lil but a lil counts)
On the down side
My hair is starting to thin out. ( I think I am going to get layers put in I don't want to lose the length)
Loose skin Ugh (under arm, in between thighs and stomach)
And the bone thing (seriously folks, but I will get use to it)
TTFN
Haven't posted in awhile
Dec 06, 2008
Okay so I will go a week with nothing then all the sudden I will have lost 5 pounds. I don't know its kinda crazy but I love it. I do have to say I did go through the regret faze when I would try and eat and then feel like crap. I think I have learned????? I can eat pretty much everything still but it is just in a zero amount. In the am I make the kids either grits and toast or cereal and fruit I will take a bite of each of there cereal and be good until I get home from work and then I cook dinner eat 1/8 of what I give them then I drink my water the rest of the night. I go in on Monday for a weight check so I am nervous my scale at home says 235 but my official weight that I post I get from the Dr's office. I will be posting some pics of me on Monday I am nervous because I can't tell the weight loss. I know its happening but looking in the mirror I still can't see it. Especially in my face, I am sooo nervous to have a Star Jones effect. Y'all know what I am talking about she looks great now but at that one point in time, wow.
Speaking of wow only my OH family will understand this but tonight when I took a shower I could see it to shave it
I was soo happy. I hated shaving blind. heehee. Well I will post more on Monday JAMI :) TTFN
Speaking of wow only my OH family will understand this but tonight when I took a shower I could see it to shave it
I was soo happy. I hated shaving blind. heehee. Well I will post more on Monday JAMI :) TTFN
Not about WL
Nov 23, 2008
Okay you really seem to find out who is your true friend when you leave the state for good and only one person calls you on a regular basis. See I moved to Alaska with my husband and kids. I lived in Washington State all my life and the people closest to me never call. I always call them. I understand everyone has a life but come on my own mother has quit calling I seem to call her all the time and then she gets off the phone because its her cell and its costing her money. My sister never calls me I always call her and when I do get her on the phone (4 x's out of 10) she always gets right off the phone. Then my other friend I talk to her here and there but its typically me calling again and she to gets off the phone within 15 minutes of the conversation. We text more but come on I have known these people all my life. Its a slap in the face I guess sometimes you need to let go of the people that mean the most to you cause in the end how much do you mean to them. Thank god for my best friend who calls me almost every day or my life in Washington would have been for nothing. I have to go back in June for my nieces graduation but at this rate I might just fly in the day of and fly out the day after if I even go at all. Thanks for the rant.
Hmmm
Nov 16, 2008
Well I started losing somewhat again. I am okay with losing slow I hear it helps with the skin thing. My heaviest was 294 and I am down to 247. I still feel really big but I look into the future and see my new skinny me so I go for it. I went back to work last week and I had to put on my work clothes for the first time and they were all loose. Thank goodness I can wear scrubs to work now I just have to go buy some. I am still having a rough time getting all my protein drinks but I am progressing. It has been snowing here, we have about 4-5 inches on the ground and more to come today. I feel like I can't get out enough to workout
so I am going to join a gym across the street from my job.
About the eating I notice now when I don't chew something enough. It seems to have an going up then I swallow and its going down then it comes up then I swallow and it goes down. Probably about 4 times then it stays. I also notice that if I don't eat I come home to cook dinner and I have to sit down because I get overwhelmed with nausea.
If it wasn't for my best-friends Jami I wouldn't be writing all this stuff. See she is having surgery in June and I like to keep track of my issues so she can look back and see what possibly could come. GOOD LUCK GIRL!!!!!! See ya in June.
so I am going to join a gym across the street from my job. About the eating I notice now when I don't chew something enough. It seems to have an going up then I swallow and its going down then it comes up then I swallow and it goes down. Probably about 4 times then it stays. I also notice that if I don't eat I come home to cook dinner and I have to sit down because I get overwhelmed with nausea.
If it wasn't for my best-friends Jami I wouldn't be writing all this stuff. See she is having surgery in June and I like to keep track of my issues so she can look back and see what possibly could come. GOOD LUCK GIRL!!!!!! See ya in June.
