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Well, it is hard to believe that I just saw my surgeon today for my six month check up. I am doing great. Have lost almost 90 pounds. Wow ! Some days I am still fat in my mind. I look at myself and still see that 90 pounds on my body. I finally went to a retail shop and tried on clothes. It was wonderful not to shop in the plus sizes. I purchased a little outfit to wear to the gym. The pants were a size large. WHAT???? That is crazy. From a 3x to a Large. I am so thankful. Went to the beach for the first time Mother's Day weekend. It was incredible to be in a swimsuit and playing with my grandsons. No issues leaning over to pick up shells or getting winded walking in the sand. Life is changing. Dorothy we are not in Kansas any more.

It's hard to believe that 12 weeks have passed and 62 pounds of fat are in the past. I did have a health crisis in early December when I stopped losing weight and was still on a full liquid diet.I went to my internist for followup on some labs he had drawn and found out that my body was producing no T3 hormone. He started me on the hormone supplement and within a week I was losing weight and have continued to lose since. I was angry for a minute when he said my labs showed that this had been going on for at least ten years. He was a new doctor and not the ones from the past that would always condescendingly say that I wanted my fat problem to be a thyroid issue, but what I needed to do was to push away from the table and stop overeating. But I let go and trusted God that this was revealed at the perfect time.

The holidays were so great. The emphasis was on family and not food. Sometimes I feel bad for those around me that realize their own food consumption when sitting next to me. I tried to position myself next to my husband so that I didn't have to hear the comments about the small amount of food I was eating. And are you sure you are getting enough? And what do you mean you aren't eating that cake I made?

We went to Disney World on vacation after Christmas and had a blast. I was able to walk and stand for hours. That would not have happened before. My body would have been hurting too much. And did I mention that the chronic neck pain has left and that I can stand in heels for a couple of hours and not be in pain?

I have my moments like yesterday at lunch when I saw Hummingbird cake on the dessert menu. It is one of my favorites and for a moment I was sorry I couldn't eat it, but I just remembered my precious grandmother that had made me that cake and the fact that I am so much healthier without all of that sugar in my body and the fat hanging on me.

I am 5 weeks post op today. I am down 25 pounds, 16 1/2 inches and 4 percent body fat. I weigh less today than I have in the last 10 years. I am so thankful. Yesterday was the first day I had a short period of nausea, but felt that it came on as a result of drinking my protein drink too fast. Thanksgiving was a different experience. First time that it wasn't all about food even though I did help my daughter cook for two days. I enjoyed a couple of ounces of turkey with a few green beans and a small spoon of cornbread dressing. And I was SATISFIED. I was able to focus on being with my family and not being obsessed with eating.My adult children tease me now and say that I can be satisfied with a saltine cracker and half of a boiled egg. It is an inside joke because my in laws always talked about being stuffed when they ate saltines with a boiled egg. The great thing was that I was down 2 lbs the morning after Thanksgiving. Life is changing and it is good.

I am 3 weeks post op and have lost 20 pounds. I struggle with eating and getting in adequate fluids. Truthfully I would rather have the fluids. I haven't experienced any particular problems. I do struggle getting the split doses of calcium and multivitamins in everyday. I have now set an alarm to remind me.  My taste buds and smell seems to be changing. Prior to the surgery I was enjoying yogurt with protein powder added, but now I can't bring myself to put yogurt in my mouth. I don't know what I would do without sugar free popsicles. Wish I could find some sugar free banana flavored popsicles.

I am walking almost everyday, but as the weather is cooler I have to watch the cold air with my sinsuses. Dr. P. has said I can resume normal activities December 1. This will allow me to go the Y. That also means I can finally do a good job of dust mopping the hardwood floors and not just hitting the high places.

Thanksgiving is coming and I am not concerned for myself, but the for those around me. They almost seem to feel guilty eating in front of me. I prayed for two years before this surgery and went for counseling to deal with my issues conerning food. I am so thankful for the improvements in my health that are already occurring that the statement we always heard that "nothing tastes as good as being thin feels" is becoming a reality.

Find myself being selfish with my strength and time. My poor husband thinks he may never get a decent meal again. We went to breakfast. I ate two bites of a scrambled egg and a spoon of grits. He ate all of his and finished mine. I told him we couldn't keep that up or he would gain every pound I am losing.

New to OH. Not sure just how much to share and what to share.