Sinfully_Icy
Hi! I'm Isis, and this is my story.
I don't know about everyone else, but I've always wanted to be thin. I have two beautiful older sisters that are basically models. It's hard growing up with that kind of beauty and not wanting it for yourself.
It really started at a young age with my weight problem. I'm from a divorced family and since I was a kid, the weight has just been coming on... and on... My mom use to pick up the phone maybe once every 6 months, call us kids, and the first question she would ask me is, "You still fat?" . Well... you can imagine to my childhood phsyce that it didn't do much to help the issue. Therefore, I can reasonably say stress was a main factor, and my metabolism is crap.
I've played in sports all of my life ie: soccer, track, swimming, volleyball. Nothing ever seemed to help the weight.
I'm an Army Brat. Proud to be one too. But moving all over the place, it didn't help with my mentality of losing weight. I've gone to the doctors since I was young trying to get me on a "diet" that would help. At one point, when I lived in Los Angeles and my only means of transportation was walking and bus and train that I was considered "Okay". I was still bigger than everyone else, but I was at a decent size. That didn't last long once I moved to Ohio soon after.
All in all though, it really started hitting me that I was one of those women that was getting so big and out of control with my weight that it was going to kill me. How many people at 20 years of age needs a sleep machein because of their sleep apnea? Well... I was one of them. I've had enough.
I'm actually almost done with my journey with getting the surgery now. I'm just waiting for my date at the moment. I'm hoping for May 26th, 2008. I want to get this done for a number of reasons now.
1. Be healthy
2. Be fit
3. Become more beautiful
4. Become more confident
5. Rub it in the face of the guy who dumped me after 4 years of a relationship because I am "Too fat".
I gotta say though, I have always put others first instead of me. I think at 20, it's a good thing to realise instead of at the age of like 25-30 that I never took time out for myself. I'm reinventing myself and finding myself. Who I REALLY am. I might not be as thin as my sisters when this is over and done but... I want to be able to walk down a street with them and the guys turn their head for me too, not just them.
Wish me luck.
"Reach for the stars, even if you don't make it, you'll land on a cloud" - unknown.
