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Well I have a date set for surgery,  Dec. 8th 2010, at 11am.  I cannot beleive what has happened since I last wrote.  I tore my menicus on Aug. 29, went to emergency, then had to make an appointment for that.  In the mean time I got a call that I had to have another mamogram.  So I had that, and then I was told I had to have a needle biopsey. Thank the Lord above all was well with that. So before I had that I had to have a MRI on my knee.  Of course it takes weeks for all that.  Then I had to have the surgery on my knee.  Now I am recoverying from the surgery with PT and water areobics.  And two days ago I got the call that all the tests were in and good and that I was elidgible for the surgery.  I could not  beleive that it was so soon, I was thinking maybe the end of December.  The great liver shrinking diet starts on Thanksgiving day.  Aint that a hoot lol.  But I have had enough turkey and dressing in my life to feed an army.

So now guess what, I am scared to death.  Will I be the one to die on the table?  Will I be sick and pukky after the surgery and make everyones life in the house meserable?  Will I be the one person who does not lose an ounce of weight?

My dear husband is my  biggest supporter.  He is a peach.  When I first told him I was considering this WLS, I was so surprised at his reaction.  One of excitment,  he truly means it from the health side.  We have only been married for 2 1/2 years, still on the honeymoon lol.

So the journey begins.  I am looking at doing this exactly as the doctors say.  I hate to throw up, I would rather have a headach then a belly ach, so I will do whatever it takes to not have those.  With the help of God and my husband and my family, I will do fine.  (I say that outloud, but inside I am FREAKING OUT ,lol)
Brenda

Well I had my first appointment yesterday.  I believe it went quite well.  I have most of the tests that I need already.  Only need the down the throat test.  And a mammogram, which is scheduled for next week.  They will be calling me about the other one.  Oh yes and the blood work, thats on for Fri.  Talked some about insurance, calling insurance company tomorrow.  Everyone is so nice. 

I just wanted to add that I had this overwhelming sense of shame when I went to the orientation.  I was almost anxious about it.  Had to fight back the tears.  Don't know where that came from.  Absolutely everyone is so nice.  I guess it is just past history creeping in on me.

I have been a member here for a long time.  So long that I even forgot I was a member.  Now I am back and I am going to my first appointment this coming Tuesday.  I have a couple relatives who have had the surgery and are doing great.  My next door neigh or had it done one year ago. And WOW she looks terrific. 
I say looks are one thing, feeling like walking is another.  That is what I want to do.......feel like going for a walk and actually doing it. I hope to find out what my insurance covers before I make the finale decision.  I dont want to put a huge burden on the budget.  There is a huge burden on this chair I am sitting on as it is, dont want the budget to sag as this chair is sagging, get what I mean?

I put on 100lbs with my first child and have almost doubled that amount again.  All these years, all those diets and food plans, all those pills, gyms, contests, and all that money spent and I have only gone up in lbs instead of down.  I know this is not going to be easy.  I know there will be talk, about why I could not do it without getting cut up, but apparently I cant, so I am looking in the mirror and seeing me, and knowing I want to be healthy again.  I want to enjoy the years I have left out of this chair.  I want to like me. .....I am worth it.  So Tuesday get here fast.  hehe

I will be back with an update.