shay_rector
Weight has been an issue for as long as I can remember. When I was 16 I was raped. I think somewhere in the back of my mind I use the extra weight I carry as a buffer zone. I was married at 19, had four beautiful children from that marriage. But, the marriage was doomed from "I do" The more unhappy I became, the harder the struggle with the weight became. The heavier I got, the more depressed, and there is the vicious circle.
I do struggle with depression and anxiety, have for years, and a lot of that is weight related. I avoid going into places because of what I think someone might say about me. I avoid family or friend gatherings for the same reason.
I am remarried, I love him with all my heart but sometimes push even him away because of my insecurities.
Aside from looks, I am concerned about my health, even more so since I lost both of my parents. They both had diabetes, high blood pressure, heart problems and cancer. I know that I stand a lot better chance of being around for my own children if I take care of my weight issues and avoid predisposing myself to all of those things that come along with extra weight.
I have high blood pressure, depression, anxiety, frequent heartburn, stress incontinence which I have had one surgery for already.
I am in the "hoping to have surgery" stage. I am beginning my journey here, today.....
