Dear Samar:
I finally got to post on your page. I love your story and have not stopped thinking about it since i first read it. I too was apprehensive after the citycouncil woman died. However, I read all I could about what happened to her and I did even further research about my surgery. At the moment, I am back in the saddle again and anxious to have the surgery. Since I found out my date, I haven't been in as much pain and think about the advantages all of the time. I have concentrated on the pain that I am expected to experience. I did pretty good with the c-section of my child, so I am bracing myself for the worst. Keep your head up and just concentrate on all the things you planned to look forward to when the weight falls off: playing with your daughter, the look on he fathers face when he sees you again (he will see you again) crossing your legs, and being able to walk up flights of steps and not feel like you are having a heart attack, and most important: Falling back in love with yourself. Take care and best wishes on your recovery.