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Well, it is 6:05 in the morning and I'm getting ready to go to the hospital.  Today is the day.  I weigh 268 this morning.  I am not feeling to well my children decided to sleep with mom last night.   I am a little excited, and a whole lot nervous.  But I am ready to start my new journey.

Four days and my life is going to change forever.  This is an exciting journey to start. It'll be my 37th birthday on the 1st and I am having surgery the day before.  I guess I am taking this new year resolution to the next level this year.  I am excited and scared. 

Well, this week I did my consent forms and my pre-op testing.  Only 8 more days until my surgery.  I have lost 8lbs since I started my medifast diet.  Wow...8lbs in one week.  I was thinking maybe I could live off of medifast but I know I can't, I feel like I am starving.  

I am a 36 years old and 284lbs. with three beautiful children.  I was married for 10+ years, now I find myself a single mom.  I am finally realizing that life is more than just being a wife, a mom, the taxi driver, the secretary and the housekeeper.  I need to find out what I enjoy, what I want.  Believe it or not someone asked me what do I like doing, and I have no clue.   I look in the mirror and realize that I take care of everyone else but not me.  It is time for a change and I need to start taking better care of me.   Its like when you get on an airplane the stewardess tells you to put on your oxygen mask first then you'll be able to help everyone else.  So I am ready to start a new journey.

Last week, I recieved a call from my insurance company nurse to inform me of the surgery date.  I was a little excited but now that I have confirmed the surgery date, I have an appointment scheduled with the nutritionist about my diet for the next two weeks.... medifast and vitamins.   I am very nervous.  I keep thinking that maybe I am taking the easy way out. Then I come back to reality, I've tried.  

I want to enjoy going to the mall with my girls.  
I want to walk down stairs without my knees hurting.
I want to go dancing.
I want to just enjoy being me without the limitations.