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So I have logged in everyday to read other people's posts. Everyone seems so happy but I am not. I am beginning to think I made a mistake. I want to eat pizza and a sandwich. I'm not sure if it's the actual food or the idea of it that makes me want it so much.

About two and a half weeks before my surgery my husband had a knee scope. He feels I should be just like him. I should be able to do the laundry and clean the house like I did before surgery because he was able to do more after a week. He has also been off of work longer because he doesn't take it easy and his knee is still swollen.

Lastly I am crabby, and depressed I think. I just get irritated so easily. I sit and watch as everyone else's life stayed the same but mine has changed. I thought I was prepared but I guess not. I really can't wait for the stage that I can eat real food. I will do good, but I miss food.

It has been four days since my surgery. The day immediately after surgery I was vomiting and was convinced something went wrong. I was so miserable, I had pain from the gas and didn't feel like sipping at all. The doctor kept me over one more night. I thought I had the flu (my daughter was sick on Tuesday, the day of my surgery) but Doctor said it sometimes happens with sleeve patients. I do feel better today, still have gas pains. But I am so much better then Wednesday. I am getting very sick of all the sweet liquids (never did like sweets) and chicken and beef broth make me nauseous just to think about it. I can't wait for the full liquid diet, I really want some milk.

It's been over a month since my last post. There isn't much going on, just waiting for my surgery. These days, as the surgery gets closer, I am doing three things; working, going to class, going to the doctor.

Due to reasons unrelated to the procedure I am feeling very down. I want to throw my hands up in the air on everything, but I don't want to have to reschedule my surgery, so I have to tough things out.

I keep telling myself  "this too shall pass". We'll see.

I've not ever done a diary of any sorts before, I will try with this one. So I have had my bariatric screening with the doctor, nurse and nutritionist. Today 9/9/10 I met with the counselor for my psyche eval. She is awesome, and also the Dr's wife. She truly is a lovely lady. Anyway, I think  I have been given the go-ahead. she told me I have overcome quite a bit already in my life (I believe everyone has a story). She said some positive things and I wanted to cry. Good things are hard to hear. Hopefully I will be hearing more good things in my life as I take this new direction. I have worked on the hard emotional stuff, now let's move on with fixing the physical stuff. Bring it on, I am ready.!

Oh yea, I have the pre-op class on October 28th and November 4th along with my liquid diet .