Rinie
05.08.06 After months of therapy and changing what type of WLS surgery I have I a date. July 12 2006 Yikes! I will having my surgery with Dr. M in Brazil he does mostly DS but he will do a VSG on me.
My original choice was with LAPSF in San Fran but I really cannot afford that and I did not like the idea that only one day in the hosital was included. Everything all toghether in Brazil will be around 14k, plus I will get a fun vacation. I have been to Brazil before and I loved it.
I am however very nervous, I spent a lot of time on the WLS gone wrong and I am seeing the other side of the story. When things don't work out and when people have become very sick. I am hoping that with out any bypass that eliminates some of the possible long term effects.
I am also thinking of how my day to day life will be with out being able to finish three course dinners and not being able to turn to food, one thing I know for sure is that I will save money on food.
I am just hoping that i get up to speed after the surgery, right now I am very active and I think I will become depressed it I am fatigued or sickly.
05/09/06 I went to thearapy today we talked about relationships and life after WLS. I am still so excited and nervous at the same time.
05.15.06 This weekend was mothers day and I got to go home to see my parents they are in Washington and I am in Philadelphia not too far!
Today is also my mother B-day. She is going to Brazil with me to have surgery. Our tickets arrived today! I still have to get labs and a pysch eval. I have been delaying this because it makes it feel less real. In some ways I am very dissapointed that I have to do this and the change I will have to make in some ways I think that I have been over compensating eating for this. I found out that papa johns pizza was so good and I have been eating like a whole pizza every other day because I keep thinking those days are going to be over soon. I am however working on the emotional issues at therapy by the time I have surgery it would have been 8 months of sessions.
I orderd some any whey protien and my father agreed to pay for the hotel while I am there so thats like 600 bucks less I have to worry about.
I am meeting this guy on a blind date tomorrow and I feel weird starting with someone before making this big change. I guess I will have to tell him we must take it slow because I am doing this.
05.17.06 Well the Cat is out of the bag the guy I went out went googled me and this site came up! Even after I changed my name! But what the hey I am getting to a point where I don't care anymore people are going to have to know my decision sooner or later.
I am very happy in my life which makes this soooo hard. I wake up everyday and feel so lucky at the life I have recived.
I sent my photos to the surgeon, he has not gotten back to me.
My tickets came so I will be off, I have been to Brazil before but this time I will be coming to a different town.
Things I want to tackle after this!
Try out for FBI and/or Forien Service
Grad school
Surfing
Triathlon
what else?
I am really nervous and concerned about sickness, I keep reading the gone wrong group. I wake up everyday happy and healthy and I could not imagine my mental state if my decision to do this resulting in me being sickly. I can walk and swim miles without fatigue and if that were change I do know what I would do.
I feel like defeated sometimes that I have to make this decision. Why can't I do everything I want to do with out this I feel like I am not being true to myself sometimes.
They anywhey should arrive soon so I get to try new recipes with it.
05.22.06 The any whey arrrive and its really great it can be mixed with anything!
I am feeling kind of down and I wonder what it will be like when I feel down and I cannot comfort myself with food and I cannot blame by bad time on weight or because I am fat.
06.01.06 It is about six weeks away and I can hardly believe it. I am so worried the fact that I have to take three weeks off has already brought attention to me. I have to get it special approved by HR. I have a meeting with them on monday.
I am terrified of something going wrong I guess I will list some of my fears.
Immediate
I could die or get hurt
07.12.06 It is 8 AM day of! I am having the operation today. I met the doctor and he is a wonderful man! The staff is fantanstic. I actually found out I was smaller than I thought BMI is only 38.
01.19.07 So I am six months out already. The last post was a mistake my BMI was not 38, I actually started at 265 pounds now I am at around 203-204. I have been there for a few weeks. I must say I am pretty please with this surgery. Now I an even eat regular portions, or more regular.
