reshew
as of now i am 284 5'5 and out of breath from climbing the stairs. i have never been small EVER, but i was happy and i did learn how to deal with it,i am cute and sweet so i never had a problem with men so that was not what did it for me its the activites that i wanted to do, i found myself avoiding certain things that i really enjoy or wanted to do. i remember when i was in high school i wanted to be in the ballroom dance class but i just couldnt do it, or the time a friend invited me to go horse back riding i did go but as soon as i was about to get on the horse, the horse naaed so loud and almost ran the hell off
, i was so embarresed and pissed
but as usual i laughed with everyone else and joked about it for weeks since nobody would let it go. i can go on and on about the situations that ive been in where i was the butt, head, arm , and leg of a joke, but anyway now i have a child and i just cant do it anymore. i want to go to the beach during the day ( i go at night so nobody can get a look at me in my bathing suit) and i want to be able to run around with my baby and do things with her that i never have the balls to do. i dont want to have to go to the "big girl stores"
, im sooo over it. the BBW title was cool for a little while but i need a change.
