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2 weeks until I'm 5 months out.  Amazing.  Today, I am finally admitting that I'm failing at this and I have got to turn myself around.  I've been very smug about my plan NOT to diet.  Smug became arrogance and arrogance became rebellion.  I know what I'm doing wrong.  Sure, a lot of things have happened, but I can no longer use those things as an excuse.  

I'd had 2 fills with what I thought were 2.5 cc's in my 4 cc band.  After asking my doc to check the level when doing my 3rd fill, we realized there may be a problem.  We went to the hospital on March 2 for a flouroscopy.  Apparently my port was tilted a bit lower than it seemed, so that the needles were bending to the outside rather than going into the port.  Ok...cool.  No problem, let's get it fixed. Let's be aggressive so that I can get this thing kick started since I really haven't had a fill in 4 months.  I get my fill and leave.

I'm on my way to another county for my job, eat ONE HALF of a chicken nugget from Chick-fil-a and slime for 30 miles.  Get to my county and throw up the ONE HALF of a chicken nugget.  Ok...now I can't keep down water, tea or my own saliva.  That afternoon, I go back to the office and I am unfilled down to 1.25 cc's in my band.  Immediate relief, thank goodness!!

I lose about 4 pounds that I'd put back on.  Sometimes I feel restriction.  Other times I don't.  Occasionally I'll have a real problem with food and slime or pb.  I'm thinking I'll give it 2 weeks, then go back.  I hear that some don't feel restriction for a couple of weeks.  

March 14, we leave at 6 pm on a bus from Oxford, AL to Washington DC for a trip with my daughter's high school choir.  My week has been SO stressful (another story in itself!) and I'm feeling like I'm getting a cold.  I have a HORRIBLE time eating the entire trip.  I think I had ONE meal that I didn't have a problem with and that was on the last day.  I get home Monday morning and I've maintained my weight...what??  I had such a hard time eating, you'd think I'd have lost 10 lbs.  The day after we got home I was down a pound and a half to make my total loss in 4 1/2 months 27 1/2 lbs.

So, you say, what's my problem??  I need an attitude adjustment or this thing is NOT going to work.  I think I am afraid of losing more weight.  I am not drinking the water that I should.  I am eating M&M's about once a day.  I have a bad attitude and it just pisses me off that this band doesn't  do ALL the hard work for me.  I don't want to make the effort.  I have too many other people and things to worry about to have to focus on myself.  Too many people depend on me to be their rock in difficult times and I've got to concentrate on that, not on this...

Ok....I could go on my rant for hours, but the bottom line is this.  I need an attitude adjustment, an anti-depressant, a counseling session or all of the above.  I feel great about the 27 1/2 lbs I've lost.  

I KNOW the things I need to do.  I just don't understand why it has to be so damn hard to do them.  

Thanks for letting me rant....I needed it.

Well, my surgery was yesterday and I cannot believe how easy it has been.  I never imagined it would have been this easy.  I just got home from the hopsital this morning and I am at my mom's house for the weekend, but I think I'll probably go home tomorrow if I am feeling as great tomorrow as I am today.  I understand first hand what "frothing" is now.  I had a little too much liquid yesterday at dinner and vomited a very small amount.  

My surgery was at approximately 7:00 am.  At 2:00 pm, I was walking up and down the hall.  The nurses couldn't believe how well I was doing.  I was the first lap band in Anniston.  Dr. Freeman and Tim are fantastic.  The entire staff was fantastic.  Both office staff and hospital staff.  

My number 1 recommendation is to take Gas-X thin strips with you to the hospital.  I had about 1 per hour.  Sometimes more, but I think that's the reason I've done so well without the gas pains.