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I've been fluctuating within the 183-186 range in weight for about 8 weeks now.  On March 2, 2009 I was set back BIG TIME.  When walking across the school parking lot w/ a classmate, i slipped on the ice.  At that time I thought I just got some bumps n bruises.  I found out a week later that I tore my ACL & lateral meniscus.  I am going in for ACL reconstruction / meniscus repair on 4/14. 

Before this happened I was walking 4 miles 3 days per week.  I was trying to get to the point of running for the GHI Corporate 3.5 mile challenge during the 3rd week of April.   At that time, I was down to 180.5.  Ok, so having to be sedentary really sucks in more than one way.  I have had to give up my school for now since I can't drive, work or do much else.  I hit the PT 2 x per week & then do some walking during the week as tolerated, building up my muscles for the surgery for a quicker recovery.

I've quickly become bored with the computer, the TV and the little interest I have in a few other things right now.  This whole thing has thrown me into a funk I can't seem to pull myself out of.  So.... of course I find myself eating more & not making the best food choices.

I will have to get on track again so I can recoop from the surgery quicker.

More posting to come after the surgery, hopefully w/ photos.

I will say that from 1 year ago this weekend, I look like a totally different person, and that was even commented on by a few - Where did the other 1/2 of Rebecca go!??  That made me feel so good!

I've come so far in my weight loss journey.  I look at the pounds that i've lost - and kept off - and it makes me tear up.  I've been slow at this weight loss, but then i'm sure i'll be that much stronger to keep it off once I get to my goal.  I updated my goal today to a more realistic goal, even though its only a 10 pound difference.  My origianl goal was to be at 145 but I realized that for my frame, that would be too skinny, so I changed it to 155.  That means i've only got 31 pounds left to conquer. 
On Christmas I was able to fit into my first size 14 jeans in over 10 years!! It was the best Christmas gift I could have received and that I have received in my life. (well besides my kids)

My self esteem has changed for the better and I find it awkward when I'm out in public and get looked at by guys.  I'm just not used to it.  although it is a great feeling.

I got a Wii & Wii Fit for Christmas and have enjoyed using it.  Its not too demanding and I can do it for however short or long I want and what I want.  Even my kids have gotton in on the game.

I will keep up my weight loss & the good choices in food.  I didn't mention that I have finally reached my sweet spot - perfect restriction for me.

Well, when I went on Wednesday I weighed in at 198, officially under 200!  That was mid day, so  I know its actually less since we weigh the most in the afternoon.  I got a great big hug from Evelyn, the PA. 
I think one of the best parts of my checkup was my decision when to return and letting her know that I don't want an adjustment - I feel more in control now.  I didn't do anything special to celebrate the day other than stay home w/ my son who got croup that morning. 
I've come so far in a year.  There's more to come off too! YEAH ME!!! LOL

Last Friday I had my 11th appointment.  As I look back on this past years struggles & victories, I have no doubt for a minute that I've made the right decision.  Its a decision that was right for ME, made by ME and supported by ME.  Those who have told me I've taken the easy way out have not a clue what they are talking about.  I"ve not lost any weight since my stuck episode the end of May.  Its been a maintenance few months, but I'm going to restart the loosing again.  I had to rebuild my tollerance to having fluid in the band.

Some may have lost their 100 + lbs since 1 year of the surgery, but not me.  I'm ok with that, really.  Everyone is different, their circumstances are different as their lifestyles are.  Having lost some weight has given me a totally different outlook on me, my life, my goals, as well as my everyday attitude.  I enrolled in college for Medical Assisting and have a 4.0 average, I dumped the job at Price Chopper for school and although there have been alot of financial struggles due to that, its all worth it in the end.  I have gained a lot of my self esteem back, and am showing my kids what its like for me to do more with them.  I went on rollar coasters this summer w/ my kids! How cool is that!! I actually fit into the seat and didn't feel like a beached whale.

I hope this is my last adjustment for a while, I'm feeling ALOT of restriction and am having to relearn alot of the habits I started with almost 1 year ago.   Learning to slow down to eat and drink, and not mix the food w/ drink.. all the bible rules, have to be reinstalled in my brain.

Best of luck to all the bandsters & other WLS people. 

Where has the time gone?  I had my check up today.  After struggling for 2 months due to my episode back at the end of May, I'm finally on the right track again.  In my last post I was down to 196 - but after having the fluid taken out, I had regained 5 lbs, making my weight go back up to 201.  I was frustrated beyond belief and upset with myself, leading to no post last month.  Well, since then I've gone back under the limbo stick in the right direction FOR GOOD!  I'm at 199.1 today. 
I think alot of the up & down had to do w/ my starting school, ending a job that kept my activity level up and becoming more sedentary.  Since its nearing the end of my first semester I decided to get a job and keep up my 4.0 average.  Evelyn, the PA seems to think that the small changes i've made are helping to make the pounds shed.  Although it will still be a while before I'm at goal, i'm taking the right approach for me.  I feel satisfied with that.

The best two things about todays visit - I am now officially under 200 lbs!! Yep, you read correctly
196.5
and I had 1 cc of fluid removed so that I could eat and the irritation would go down over the next few days.  I know I'm not supposed to quite yet... I ATE DINNER!! I haven't eaten a full meal, let alone 2-3 bites at a time w/out getting really sick.  It felt great to eat today!

Its 2;37 am, and hubby just got home not too long ago from work, that is the only reason i'm up at this crazy hour, not to mention the rain we are getting is enough to wake almost anyone from their slumber.

My port area is just a bit sore, not really bad.  She only had to stick me once.  I honestly can say that this one hurt the least out of all of the sticks I've had so far.  I get my adjustments sitting up since my port likes to hide when I lay down.  Now I can actually look at the needle in my skin and it doesn't make me squeemish!! :)

The overall support I've received from my Dr's office I'd have to rate as excellent. When ever I call w/ a question, I get a response back quickly.  I had to call 3 times this past week since I was sick from being stuck, and never once did I feel pushed aside.  I'm given so much encouragement if I'm not doing so well or if I'm doing better than they expected.

I've had 2 of my friends go to the Dr's for they RNY, and there are 2 more that will be attending the next seminar in July.  Ok, so I hang around w/ some larger people, that doesn't make anyone of us bad.  Both women who are going to the seminar next month have seen my progress and are inspired by it!  Glad I can help someone out!!

Gonna hit the hay!

I'm about ready to have this darn band taken out.  This past weekend I got stuck sooo bad that I threw up 2 x.  My husband was ready to take me to the ER since I was stuck for approximately 2 hours.  We were at the house of history in Kinderhook for our annual Muster.  We hosted the National Fife & Drum Corp muster and had 42 guest corps there.  After having suffered through the weekend not being able to eat more than 5 bites, i called my dr's office today.  She has me taking a digestive enzyme 3 x at 15 minute intervals to help remove any food that my still be lingering in my esophogus.  I sure hope it works!  Right now it burns like heartburn.  i hope it goes away quick.
I want to be back to normal eating again... my old habits.. but I think its because i'm becoming discouraged by my bumps in the road...no weight loss for 2 months and now the complications w/ being stuck.
If anyone who reads this has any insight or words of encouragement, please feel free to write.

I know i've not posted in a while, thats cuz there was nothing really happening to have me post. 

Recently I enrolled in school to become a Medical Assistant.  All of the positive people I've encountered during my weight loss journey has inspired me to be just like a couple of them.  I go to school 2 days per week, w/ 4  classes this semester.  I get to show my kids how to study & just how important school really is.

My scale hasn't moved, in fact, when I went back the end of April i was up by 1/2 lb.  I know..its nothing significant, but its still going in the wrong direction.  I've added excercise, bike riding a couple times per week.
I think the reason i'm not loosing the weight is because I'm not working 5 days per week, running my ass off for  6 hours at a time.  Thats ok though, my stress level & overall well being are no longer being compromised. 

To try to offset the plateau, I've begun sewing again to keep my hands busy from wanting to stuff my face w/ food.  so i guess it will be a battle for a while yet on the battle to eat or not to eat.

With the nice weather, im outside alot more and actually got to jog home from a friends house (in the rain) over the weekend.  Sure, it wasn't a mega long distance, but we all have to start somewhere.
Time to get the kids ready for school & then myself off to school.

No fill today guys!  Thats ok though.  This past weekend I had FOOD POISONING!! YUK.  I had all my 6 month bloodword drawn today, 12 vials of blood!!  The good part, I'm down another 4 pounds.  The better part - i'm feeling much better than last weekend.
Size 16 jeans!! What a wonderful non scale victory for me! someone at work actually called me "skinny", though i'm along way from that, I appreciate being noticed for my accomplishments!

This past Friday I went back for my check up - PRAYING for NO fill... sounds strange i know.. but ... its what i wanted.
The PA put me on Nexium at my  4 mo check up & i had SOOOO many problems with being stuck every day & not being able to eat at certain times of the day.. i was soo ready to give up & just get an unfill & stay that way.

I lost only a little over 1 lb in 3 weeks.. but Evelyn wasn't surprised.  She said some patients have issues w/ nexium & its not for them... i'm one of those patients.  She switched me to something else like prilosec.. its a generic, so i'm not sure of the proper name.  I can't tell you just how good it feels to eat and not get stuck after a bite or 2.  I can eat at any time of the day again & she said i have to go back to see her in 2 weeks.  I sure hope i have better luck loosing a couple of pounds these next 2 weeks than I did the past 3 weeks.

I also made the mental commitment to "move" more.. i did about 10 minutes of roller blading today (just learning again) and drinking more water.

I know im going to get another fill when i go back in 2 weeks & really REALLLLLLYYYY hope I can get the scale below the 200 mark  - that will mean sooo much to me, i can't even explain.

At one time (Before i had my kids) I made a comment to someone that I'd commit suicide if I ever reached 200 or more on the scale as I didn't want to follow in my moms footsteps.. which i OBVIOUSLY did.... but i'm soo glad i didn't take my life, id miss having my kids & my life in general.

People have commented to me recently that ive taken the easy way out by having the surgery... if they only knew!!

This past Thursday i thought I'd wind up in the hospital.. i had a couple bites of a taco salad and thought i chewed well enough what Id eaten.  I was in the bathroom for over 1 hour while alone at home w/ my kids who are 5 & 7. The party understand how I feel when the food doesn't sit well, but not really....i dont' want to scare them.  Anyway... it took over an hour of hovering over the toilet, trying hot water & trying to puke, but not successful and praying to God to make it stop.  After it ended, i wanted to just lay down & sleep, but not possible at 7 pm at nite w/ 2 kids!

This will be an endless learning journey that I will always need help on... and willingly admit & accept it.