rbennettx2
I have been overweight all of my adult life. I'm currently at my top weight of 250 lbs. with a bmi of 47. My husband and I married very young he was 17 and I was 15. I have three beautiful children one boy and two girls. My yougest daughter just blessed us with our 8th grandchild (3 girls and 5 boys).With each pregnancy I gained additional weight that never came off. I've tried many diet programs (diet workshop,weight watchers, jenny craig, phen fen and over the counter weight loss products ) only to lose anywhere from thirty to eighty pounds only to regain it all. My last program saw an eighty lb loss. Then I was rear-ended so hard my truck nearly flipped over when it bounced off the curb. I sustained neck and lower back injuries which resulted in neck surgery. This immobilized me and eventualy the weight came back. Five years later I'm still in pain and depressed over my condition and very unhappy with my weight gain. I see this surgery as a new beginning for me ( a rebirth ).
forgot to mention in my last notes that my husband and I have now been married thirty-eight years and still have a very strong and loving marriage. We are inseparable, he is my other half together we are one. He has always been there for me accepting me for who I am not what I weighed. On the day I broke down and cried,"I don't love me, I don't like looking in the mirror" he finally got it. He now understands I need to have this surgery for me and fully supports my decision. I've told him, I need to Love myself, to like what I see in that mirror. I need this to help bring back my self confidence.There's something about the extra weight that makes you feel not worthy and inadequate. People look at you and treat you different. It's no wonder why over weight people stay in more. which leads to depression ,which in my case lead to eating more and the feeling guity that I did. It's a vicious cycle I'm looking forward to leaving behind me.
