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June 27, 2005,

Well, I now have 25 days left untill my surgery. I kinda feel sick to my stomach and happy all at the same time. I am really worried and have been up for night after night reading over all these sites on gastic bypass and untill my friend Jamie Hamilton who just recently had ryn told me about this site. This site is the best one I have ever seen and I will be using it alot. Heck I have been on it for two days now non-stop. I was on here till like 3:00 a.m this morning and got back on around 6 p.m. tonight. I am stressing over all this and needing to find all the factors and information about people that are close to my height and weight and age and see how they have done. My questions are: 1) Is your skin loose after you lost your weight? 2) How did you do after the surgery? 3) Is plastic surgery often needed for someone my size? I am just freaking out for real. I can't seem to be satisified by any answer that I get. So, everyone that comes across this please say a prayer for me, because I truly need it. Enough for tonight....

June 28, 2005,

Well today is another stressful day.. I am tired and mentally exhausted from school and from worrying about my surgery. Is it like this everyday? I mean I worry will I do fine, will I die, will I have loose skin, will I look ok afterwards I mean heck. I am going to be so worn out before the surgery that when they put me to sleep I may never wake up haha.. Lets hope that don't happen...Well I now have 24 days left, I go for my pre-op stuff on July 7th. Well enough for today, this site is wonderful by the ways. I have read tons of information and people's pages and its great and helpful.

June 29th, 2005

Well, Its 11:19 p.m. here running a little behind on tonight's entry. I have been working on school work, trying to catch up and spend some time with my son. He is so full of life and energy what it must feel like to be young again. Although I am not that old I have health related issues that plays a big factor in my life and overweight is just one of them. I have severe asthma,allergies, high blood pressure- never had untill I got pregnant with my son, Poly-cystic Ovary Disease, back/neck ache due to car accidents. This is just some of the stuff. But hopefully with the wls, I will be able to rid of some of the above items. Well, all I can think about is this surgery, Is that normal? I mean today I was not stressing over it, I just want it to hurry up and be done with so I know that I am going to be ok.. I talked to my friend Jamie who had it done 7 weeks ago and she is doing great, feeling fine, she kinda helps me with some stuff I need to know and if anyone else has any advice please give it to me....I need all I can handle..I am going to try to write in this daily or weekly and after I have my surgery.It will be a week or so before I will get at you, for I will be staying with my mother in case I need help with my son. Well, enough for tonight, I am tired.

July 1,2005

Well today marks the day of the month of the new beginning of my soon to be life. I am so excited and ready for it to be done and over with. To know that I will start to lead a healthier lifestyle and feel better. I am sorry no entry yesterday, lots of things going on. School, My brother's wedding july 9th. A major test for school on July 8th.. Alot of other things.. ughh lol.. My biggest thing I am looking for is getting to rest after having the surgery for a month. That is so sad to say, but to know that I don't have any school work, job or etc. to do but just take care of myself and my son is a good thing.. Anyways 21 more days till the day.. YEahhhhhhh!!!!!!!

July 4, 2005,

Well today is July 4th. WOW. This year is really passing by fast and my surgery is coming faster and faster everyday. I am getting more excited with each passing day to know that I will finally feel better and look great or well hopefully anyways..haha.. Well 18 days from now, is the day I go in for a huge life changing surgery. So, like I said before everyone say a prayer for me that God blesses me throughout the whole ordeal and that I do well and feel great. I am so worried about something happening.. So, many people keep saying oh don't have it. You know how crazy you are? Do you know how dangerous it is? I mean yes I know all the risks, but I am also, praying God is on my side and that my surgeon does great. So, well I went to a cookout and to see the fireworks display tonight, my son really enjoyed them.. I don't know if I just dont' care anymore or just don't feel like it. I didn't feel well today I am really tired. So, enough of writing see you tomorrow.....

July 7, 2005,

Well, I now have 15 days oh my goodness. Its getting closer and closer each day and I am getting more and more excited..I just can't wait to feel better and healthier.. I am getting all worked up and keep doing alot of praying that God just lets me get through it ok.. Well today was a long day, I was tired and had to do an observation for my education class again today.. Ughh I will be glad for a break, to just get to stay at home.. Well just thought I would write today beings I haven't for the past 2 days.. Pray for me everyone.....

July 10,2005

Well today is Sunday and its been along weekend. My brother got married on Saturday oh my goodness what a mess. I was so stressed from getting it all together on friday night and school and my surgery.. The wedding alone was to much for me.. I swear the courthouse sounded great I tried to get them to just go there, but oh no lol.. well anyways I now have 11 days till my surgery as of tomorrow morning. I am getting very excited and I can't wait. I know alot of these entries kinda sound the same but I swear all my mind runs on is having this Surgery and making sure I am going to be ok. So, when reading this page please say a prayer for me before and after the fact of me having surgery. Wish me luck and that I do well. Well, talk to you tomorrow. I went swimming and laid out all day to day, trying to get all the sun I can before surgery, knowing I am not going to feel like being in it afterwards. Then made a pit stop to at the tanning bed on my way home.. The sun really drains you, takes all the energy you have.. Anyways, see you all tomorrow..

July 11, 2005

Hey everyone whats up? I am doing good to do, I am getting hype haha, I have only ten days left till I cross over to the side of being healthier and feeling better. I am yet still nervous just like every other day I write on here. The thing is when I first thought about wls I was not sure to do it or not. I have canceled it twice and when I first sent in for my ins. approval I prayed and told God. I don't know if this is the right thing to do or not. So, if its your will and it is the right thing for me to do then allow me to get approved the first try if not then do not allow it to be approved. Because I know this is what I want, but I also, risk the fact of complications and dying and leaving my son without a mother.. He is my life and soul and I do not want to do anything that may cause him to be without me.. So, I was approved first go around, I was in total shock..Then they wanted to do it in Dec '04 and I could not due to school and the holidays coming up not a good time. So, I post-poned it till May 19th, then I got this sick feeling about it and decided not to do it. Well, come to find out I was very sick. I had some personal things wrong with me and my doctor told me if I had of had the surgery I would have died due to they would not have known that I had an infection in my body. I was so thankful that I had that weird feeling. I know that God is watching out for me and that he will see me through this. I am ready for it now, I feel good about it except for the stress and worry that I constantly think of about my son. So, everyone say a prayer. It seems that the past 15 days have passed so quickly, because when I first opened this page I had 25 days to go now I only have 10.. YEAHHHHHH>....Talk to you all tomorrow...

July 12, 2005,

Well, The day gets closer and I get happier. Well, I do have a meeting with my lawyer on friday to discuss my will again and to make sure its set up correctly. Life ins. is intack. Honey I am ready in case something does happen lets pray it doesn't but hey one never knows. Well, kept playing phone tag with the dietician today. I needed to get some info that I did not get at my pre-op because it was done in my home town. But well just wanted to type in my entry. I am tired got a huge test tomorrow as well. I did do well on my last one. I got a 84.. better than nothing.. NIght all..

July 14, 2005

I now have 7 days left till the final day. I am so ready for this day to come and be over with. So,I know that I am alive and well and on the road to recover. I am in need of any suggestions that anyone would like to leave me on my page so pls do so. Well, I had class as usual today, spoke with Donna in my Doctor's office making sure everything is a go still. Thing is why have I developed a dang sinus infection. I just came off alot of antibiotics recently due to an illness i had. I am like not a week before surgery don't do this to me.. My allergies have gone crazy and my throat is all raw and sore.. Please anyone out there, will this interfere with my surgery. I am seeing my doctor in the morning so, hopefully, we can get it under control by friday.. Anyways, going to get some rest tonight maybe that will help, big day tomorrow..

July 16, 2005

Well, yesterday was a long day for me. I was up until 3;50 a.m. this morning. Worrying, crying, stressing why? well, I went to the memorial page on this site, wrong thing for me to do. No, there are only like 60 ppl listed on there and alot of them did not die from wls, but alot did. So, I was highly upset and the fact of thinking I am going to leave my son behind. The thing is I think due to the fact that I have had months to think of this surgery and my others just happened like I did not have the time to sit around and think hey I might die. It was there and just happened, it was over with before I knew it. Well, I will tell you all its not good right now for me mentally. I just wish Friday would get here and be over with so,I know that all is going to go well. I know that God is good and great and that he can and will watch over me, but you still have the little piece of doubt in your mind. If I didn't have my son I would not worry so much. Anyways, for all that reads this please say a prayer for me this Friday morning at 10 a.m. is when surgery is to start. 6 days and I am on the other side and I sure do hope its still here on earth. Not saying I do not want to go to heaven because I most certainly do, I just want to raise my son first. Anyways, I know I am not the only one that thinks these things, I guess that is the good thing about this site. So, many ppl alike and thinking alike. Anyways, I think I will lay down for awhile and rest.. Talk to you tomorrow, We are celebrating my Birthday early haha, because on Sept 2, I am not for sure what I will be able to eat and what I wont' be able to eat. ... We are grilling out.. Well, talk to you all later...

July 17, 2005

Well, I now have about 4 days left till the day I have my surgery. Today we grilled out at my mother's as an early birthday dinner for me. Beings I am not able to eat that ways on Sept. 2. We had so much food, I swear and I could not eat hardly any of it. Nerves I guess. Well, I enjoyed today and I am feeling some better than I was yesterday. Its really hard to explain to your 3 1/2 yr old child, that there is possibilities that mommy may not come back. Its hard to put it into words that he can understand without really saying it. I try to tell him I will always be in his heart no matter what or where I go. Well, he thinks that its like when he was in my tummy lol.. He says oh will you eat in there? take a shower in there? HAHA he is so funny he doesn't understand, but now he does know that I will always be in his heart. So, for those that read this page please say a prayer for me and my nerves and that I do wonderful so, I don't have to worry about leaving him behind. I know so many ppl say well if you are that doubtful, then don't have it. I want this surgery more than anything, but I also, want to know that I am going to be ok. He means the world to me and nothing or nobody else even comes close to what he means. I think that I will be fine, but I just need to hurry and get it over with. I now have a sinus infection, I am wondering if I will be totally better by friday. I have been on meds and everything I think that will help my allergies and sinuses. But I am worried. If anyone out there knows whether or not it will hurt me, let me know.. Well, enough for today, going to spend time with my baby.. OH, by the ways the song is just one of my favorites its why its on here...

July 19, 2005

First off I would like to say a special thank you to someone who signed my profiel her page name is Regina Patton for signing my support page I guess that is what it is called and when I went to her page. I started reading it and came to a quote that made so much sense to me and I actually started to cry. If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it. I have had the fear of dying since the day keeps getting closer you all know this from my previous entries. I cannot think without having that though come into my mind. But as of today 2 days before the surgery I am giving it to God and I know without a shadow of a doubt he will bring me through it. I have came to far to back down now.. So, everyone that reads this page before Friday at 10 a.m. my surgery will begin at Norton's Hospital in Louisville, Ky. So, say a prayer for me at that moment. I am excited but scared and they say that is normal. I have also, had a few other things come up that kinda has freaked me out, but the Doc says I will be just fine and I will make it through even with the problems that have arose. Well, enough for today, my last entry before surgery will be tomorrow night. I will try to let you all know once I have the surgery and if I am fine or not.. Maybe on the way home from the hospital I can stop by my house and leave a quick message. I am staying with my mother in case something were to happen. Well, God bless everyone..

July 21, 2005

Its 1:12 a.m. in the morning and I am just getting in. I went to church tonight in another county. Actually its our camp meeting week. Well, I have actually one day technically left and I am crossing over onto the loosing side. I have been really upset over the issues of thinking I may not make it or I may have serious complications. But when I woke this morning I had a fresh new look on it. I know I am going to be okay. I know that God is bigger than any surgery and he will be on my side and bring me through it. Along with the scripture that Regina had on her page. Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not to thy own understanding and he will direct your path. I have held onto that all day along with if GOD brings you to it, he will bring you through it. I am ashamed to say that I doubted him in the first place. Because I know that God has never failed me yet. He has always been there when I needed him. Many times in my life has he healed my body, touched my life and kept me. Along with the most important time in my life when my son was born dead. The beautiful little man you see below did not breath nor have a heart beat for five minutes. He had already turned gray and I am so thankful for the prayers of my mother in that emergency operating room that day. That God reached down and touched his body and restored my son to good health. I know that miracles are real, so many people tend to doubt there is a God. Well, I would rather believe in him, then die and find out that there really was a God and I chose to doubt him. So, I will write another entry this evening which will be my last before surgery. Thanks for listening and I hope that anyone reads this page will find comfort in what God can do for you. Do not doubt him like I did at first, because he can and will be on your side.

July 21, 2005

Well, it is now 10:52 p.m I have less than 12 hours before its surgery time.. Well, I am nervous and my tummy is killing me where I drank that yucky saline stuff ughh.. And to be on a real note I really do not need that stuff to begin with I have enough issues as is lol...haha... Anyways, I am excited and kinda scared just ready for it to be over with. I just want to hurry it up and wake up haha.. To know I am good to go.. I think I am prepared and ready for this.. So, guys Say a Prayer Cause I know GOD is watching over me and my Doctor.. I will see you all on the LOOSING SIDE YEAHHHHHHH!!!!Like Regina said If God brought you to it, he will bring you through it. ......I love you J'ace..... Mommy's lil angel it was hard to let him go tonight... But he is staying with my Aunty.....

July22, 2005- July 26, 2005 WORDS might be spelled incorrectly. Just had some pain meds.....haha Update on July 31st.

I am ALIVE And well... i will update when i am able to.. just got home a few moments ago.. Thanks for all the prayers. Here's a recap of today. I got up early well, I don't think I ever went to sleep all night it was like around 1 something in the morning and I had to get up around 4:45 a.m. Well, my mother,brother and his girlfriend arrived at about 5:30 a.m. to pick me up. I was starving, thirsty that crap you had to drink drained me of every ounce of anything I might have had in my body. So, all the way's to Louisville I was like heaven help I need a drink. That is the only thing that sucks you are not allowed to drink. Well, I had to take a few sips of water, because I was about to puke. I started getting sick. My family was all nervous about this whole surgery thing already so, they were not feeling to well. Well, I made it to louisville after my family had to stop and get something to eat haha.. oh it got worse, I was so hungry by this time and I don't even eat breakfast. I really don't eat that much at all and eating is not the reason I had this surgery. I eat like normally people do, its just that whatever I do eat just sticks to me.. No matter if you starve, go on a diet or etc.. You only loose a few lbs and it comes back. So, anyways there honey buns, donuts, drinks haha I was on the verge of changing my mind. I was like that fleet drink you have to take to clean you out, really did it.. Actually I was dehydrating and did not know it till I arrived at the hospital. I got in and was already pre-registered. So, around 8:30 they told me to go down to OR to wait. I walked into OR the lady took my papers and said come on back. I was like WOW I thought I would have to wait. So, I got back there changed, weighed, gave blood which was hard beings I was dehydrated. Then it was time for the I.V. which was even harder to get in. The lady liked to have killed me so, as I call him the Put to Sleep Doctor ended up putting my I.V in my wrist due to no veins. He did wonderful and he gave me and I tell anyone that gets sick easy after surgery make sure you tell your doctor you get sick after surgery they will hook you right up. He gave me this new patch to preven sickness which goes behind your ear plus Promethazine which is for sickness. Then he gave me this wonderful drug called Liquid Courage. Which is the best drug of all. I kept thinking to myself the whole time I cannot believe I am doing this I was so excited and nervous. Well, my mother was there the whole time. My Doc came in talked to me and I also, met like a 100 other doctors that would be assisting with the surgery. I did not know it took so, many doctors. The Lap doc, There was a resident doc. and I can't even remember I was just shaking hands saying okay hahah.. anyways, It was time I told my family good-bye all I could think of was my son and how I hoped to see him soon. My mother started to cry and so, did I. My brother said dont' start all that 'sh@# hahah.. He got sick to his stomach my mother told me after I was wheeled off. But I was just a talking and laughing my mom said when they were rolling me off, she told my brother oh she must not be to worried about dying hahah or having this surgery. Well, I got into surgery room, I was already flying high and made up my mind to just close my eyes and rest. Well, next thing I know I was waking up in recovery. I had fell asleep before they put me to sleep. I woke up actually really groggy but not sick to my stomach and another thing I am a person who needs to be sitting half ways up after surgery and told my sleeping doctor that I needed to be sit up like that. They did this helps alot with pain and sickness. I was just in and out for about 3 hrs. Finally, I got put in my room which is private all. of them are there. Thank God. I had already asked for one which I was told way ahead of time it was private. So, that is a good thing with Norton's Healthcenter.. Anyways finally I got to my room which my mother was about to loose it I left her at about 9 something and she did not get to see me till around 6 p.m that night. She was upset,sick and worried. She knew they said I was good, came through good but she was worried.. So, I got in my room and was barely awake not knowing to much. All that pain medicine just sent me realing. I remember my mom and them talking to me and then them saying they were headed home. I was like yeah okay. Then off to sleep again I was, untill someone came in and awoke me.

July 23, 2005

Well, saturday came quick.I woke up and my family was there along with my ex he came to stay with me in the hospital how nice of him.. We are still friends so its all okay.. Well, saturday was kinda off and on for me. I was awake and asleep and back and forth. They were trying to make me eat which was hard it all smelled and tasted like crap. Jello was the only thing that was good so I kept sending my food back and ordering jello.. I drank apple juice it took me about all day to drink the 4 oz. along with my water and then I find out I was not to have the apple juice due to it might make me sick. it did not so I asked for some more on Sunday hahah. Which all day saturday was the same.. In and out talking and feeling pretty good to be honest. Then my family left and my moms called later saying my son was coming on Sunday I was so thankful, I could not wait.

July 24, 2005

Sunday came and so did my lil boy, I was so happy to see him and he was scared to death of me. He was afraid he would hurt me. So, he would not hug me nor kiss me unless my Aunt was holding him. He kept saying Mommy I hurt your stomach.. I kept telling him no he would be fine. I was doing well today. Not sick getting up moving around. Taking pain meds of course haha.. They took my um cath out today which was not to bad, but after that the 17.5 lbs i lost in the hospital came right back because they left my I.V in and I was not peeing as much then. Because before It was pushing the fluids in and out on its own. I lost alot of fluids they said which then in turn dehydrated me again, once they pulled my I.V. pump out not only that all my veins collapsed. My I.V had to be moved to the other wrist for them to put meds and etc. in it. Well, it wasn't long it collapsed as well. So, I just said look can I do without it. I was black and blue by this time. And those Heprin shots oh my goodness my arm had a bruise the size of a baseball and a knot the size of a egg. So, I looked pretty bad. Hands all bruised up and arm as well. Well, Sunday passed I felt good. Got up around 1 a.m and walked around for awhile and talked to the nurses.

July 25, 2005

Well, today was Monday I thought I was going home untill I woke up and felt not so hot. They came in around 6:30 to take out my drain tube, Oh My GOODNESS THIS IS WORSE THAN SURGERY>. I was sick It felt like he pulled out my ovaries as well. I could not take it I wanted to puke. Which I did not. They gave me my Phenagran (spelled wrong) and pain meds as soon as it was done. Off to sleep I went I kept waking up shaky, sick, and just overall felt like death. So, my doc came in took one look at me and said you will be here untill tomorrow. That is pretty much how sunday went I felt bad I tried to sleep all day long.

July 26

I woke up feeling great. I was ready to go home. So, my doc came in early and asked you ready to go home I said yes, lets go. I got up got my things together and signed out and headed for home and oh my goodness what a two hour ride that was. Bumps everywhere I was so sick. Did not feel so hot by the time I got home. By the time 10 p.m arrived that night I was worn out and sick. So, On wens when I woke up I did not feel so spunky, I was out of breath and barely moving. Well, to make a long story short I am doing great and have been doing wonderful Thanks to God above, for watching over me and keeping me safe.

July 29, 2005

HI Guys Its me and Yes, I am doing great. I cannot write much now I don't have the time. But I will be back on Sunday to stay at home. Its now been a week since surgery and I am doing great. Believe it or not. Thanks to the Lord above.. I am now down 13lbs. Which is good! I prefer to loose it slowly though, but who knows. I go see my doctor on Monday. I am eating okay. Yesterday I tried shredded Tyson Chicken in a can and ate it till it was mush. along with some cheese. It might be a lil early, but i am being very careful, I have not gotten sick yet, so, I am thankful. more of an update on Sunday.. Thanks for all the prayers and thoughts.... God is watching over me...

July 31, 2005

Well I ate an egg yesterday it was soooo good haha.... Did not make me sick did wonderful. I have been able to eat things and not get sick. Also, I do not recommend this I ate some nuts last night, and kept it down as well did not make me sick. I can't take soup and jello no more.. ughh. And I am trying to get the protein in, beings I cannot drink the powder I just can't do it.. I got to figure something out. Well, today I am kinda tired. I am now back at home in my own house. I have not ate hardly anything today, just not in the mood. I ate some turkey and sliced cheese, very little. Drank some apple juice and water. I am now down 18 lbs.. Moving a lil fast and I am going to see my doctor in the morning. so, will let you know more tomorrow....I am tired of typing... NIght and remember if God brought you too it, He will bring you through it..

Aug 2, 2005

Well, I am still 19lbs today.. The doctor said yesterday that it will now slow down to about 10-15 lbs a week which is fine. I am also, able to eat anything I want he said just be careful and don't eat very much.. Don't eat fatty foods and to much sugar things will make me very sick. So, far everything I eat I feel fine. I did eat some bread and it is harder to digest than anything.. Kinda feels like you have something heavy in your stomach. Which I am only 11 days out of surgery and able to eat whatever wow. I was so happy. I have done wonderful so far with the surgery and getting around and feeling better. I have been a little sleepy the last two days for some reason but otherwise I am feeling good. I have not started walking yet, my stomach is still sore, so, I am going to do that next week. Well, goodluck to all that is out there having, waiting or had this surgery. I can't wait to see the end results. I thank God everyday for keeping me and protecting me. I wake up each morning and ask him to keep me through this day and help me not to get sick from anything I eat. Regardless of what it is. i do not want any complications well see you all later..Oh yeah my body mass is went from 42.4 to 39.9 going down slowly but surely yeahhh...

Aug 4, 2005

Oh my I have been on those message boards so much I forgot to post. Well, I am now 13 days post-op not loosing a freaking pound and madder than I don't know what. They say it does this and then I will start loosing again. I really like the message board beings I finally can get on there now, before I could not post a message or nothing who knows.. I come home from surgery and now I can.. Anyways I am doing great other than not being able to loose any weight.. arghhh.. I started today eating nothing but mush foods again thinking this might help. I ate an egg with cheese for breakfast and that is what I am going to have for lunch too and for supper. Maybe I will get back to moving who knows.. I called the doctors office spoke to a nurse and they said its normal too, I guess so.. Anyways talk to you all tomorrow.....

Aug 6, 2005

Well, Guys I think the scales are starting to move in my favor again. Or atleast I hope so. I weighed this morning and I am down 3lbs since I regained it this past week. I don't know if its fluid or what. But for the past two days I have been right at calorie intake and protein or close to the protein intake I should say.. Its hard to get to 700 calories a day and 65 grams of protein. But I am doing it. My fat intake is a lil high I do believe but I will be okay. I am still having problems with going to the bathroom arghhh. So, I had to take some more of the fleet's to drink yesterday and tried for about two hours and still could not go and so I drank some more last night and finally at 5;30 this morn I woke up and said Thank You God I could go.. anyways its a real pain when you are use to going everyday 5-6 times and then go to nothing.. its sucks. anyways I am doing great otherwise just hoping to start loosing the lbs again beings I been on a slow week and lost none. They said it could be my body thought it was in starvation mode and shut down and was storing all I eat, so, that is why its important to try to get to 700 calories a day for all the people that read this... Oh, yes I have been walking a mile a night as well and lifting a 6.6 lb weight for my arms.. to keep from being flabby.. Just do two or 3 sets of 10 anyways you feel comfortable with. I have 3 different exercises I do with my arms, until I am able to use both weights I will continue to do so... Anyways have a good day all. I am doing great...

Aug 14, 2005

Okay sorry for not posting sooner, but I get on that message board and just be forgetting.. Anyways i am doing great. Still stalled in my weightloss, well actually I lost 1 Pound better than nothing I guess. I will update you on my inches lost though. I have lost 25 inches total all over. I have lost 6 inches around my waist- 4 in my hips and tummy because I had a c-section I got a lil pooch so I am keeping up with that part too. I have lost 3 inches around my legs and 2 1/2 inches around my arms. None in my chest really about 1/2 inch maybe.. Underneath my boobs i have lost 2 or 3 inches I can't remember without going back to look. So, I am loosing and one of my healthnut bfriends says that it is better to loose inches due to your body is loosing fat and toning down less chances to be flabby. So, that is good I guess, although it sucks you weigh and those scales have not moved, well maybe mine is on the move again beings I am down a 1lb from yesterday.. well, hope all is well and remember if God brought you to it, He will bring you though it..... School is about ready for me to start and if it don't come off then it never will. All I do is walk on campus and its long long walks from class to class. anyways goodluck all....

Aug 18, 2005

Hey guys, well I subbed today and boy it was a long day.. Those kids wore me completely out.. And I start school next week I best get prepared. Well, I am doing great still not lost any weight except the 2 lbs. that keep going up and down for some odd reason. Well, I am trying to figure out how to start loosing again.. I still am doing the inches thing, but I want to loose some pounds. So, I have cut all carbs and fat down to less than 10 fat grams and less than 15 carbs.. I have had like 332 calories and 10 fat grams and 16 carbs and 44 protein..This may not be a good thing to do but take note.. I am trying whatever works at the moment.. But I did eat good just not food that was high in calorie and fats... I ate 2 tbs of sauerkraut- One lil slim jim- 2 bites of chicken salad- 3 tortilla chips-2 oz. of chicken- 1 egg beater- 5 slices of very thin ham that = 45 calories and 1 fat gram- 1 piece of fat free cheese and 1/3 slice of Healthy Life Carb Bread. and 3 fat free pringles. So, it really was alot of food just not alot of calories and fats.. I hope I am not doing anything wrong.. I have felt full so I have done something right. Anyways, I am doing good, although I got something stuck in my pouch for the first time the other night.. Oh, I thought I was dying-having a heart attack or something it was awful. I finally throwed up some crap just a lil bit, did not hurt my tummy so I was thankful for that.. Well, I am tired and I took a big ol long nap when I got in from school and about to go back to bed in about an hour or two.. Well, talk to you all later..

Aug 23, 2005

hey guys, well my day started at about 11 a.m. I decided to clean house and I really really cleaned my living room, bathroom and kitchen from top to bottom. First time since surgery a month ago. Well, I was already feeling tired then I had to go to school tonight which is an hour aways and walk across campus to the bookstore bought $492 dollars worth of books I just about croaked. I have 7 classes this semester and I already had two of the books I need can you believe that.. Well, then they weighed like 30 lbs I was getting sick, weak, hot flashes and sweating.. It was also very hot out and in there as well. I thought I am going to die tonight.. Well, finally I got through the line of 100 people or more, it was my turn.. The lady directing traffic haha... carried my basket of books for me.. bless her heart, she asked how I was doing and by the look on my face it told her.. So, then I carried them back to my car (long walk) and then walked about 1/2 mile to my class. My poor lil feet was hurting so bad.. I felt like crap and was sweating... Then I go to get a cold water out of the machine beings my turned hot.. SOLD OUT>> Okay now I am pissed. I know its only the second day of classes but heck. Well, then I went to class, finally left after about an hour and 20 mins.. To go pick up my son and then I had to stop at Wal-mart at 9:00 p.m.. I am already hurting all over and ready to sit down and rest.. better yet go to sleep. Well, I have like 6 math problems I have to do tonight in like a few minutes. I have to get up at 6 a.m. to get to my class at 9 a.m on time and to find a parking spot. So, now I am home had to get all my school stuff situated and the whole time I keep thinking I am not going to make it for the next few weeks. I called my mom while I was about to croak on my walk across campus, I said I am going to die out here. I will not make it.. But I also, said if I can just make it for the next 3 wks. I will be back in the routine of the walking and moving around. Where I have had surgery just a month ago I have not really done anything besides walk about a mile a night a few different times and just normal moving.. NOw I am hurting and my blasted hips are out of place as well. Gotta go see the doctor.. Anyways, I have not posted in a few days and wanted to say hey and I am now down 22 pounds.. I have finally lost 3 lbs more.. So, hopefully those scales are moving now.. I have finally stopped stressing over every lil bite I eat and I am not keeping up with it daily. I am not eating much, but enough I guess. I am getting that water in though.. I am starting to feel more relieved about the whole wls. I know it will come off in due time.. So, that is a good thing on my part.. I was starting to loose it there, but now I am back to being busy and got things to do makes it easier.. Well, talk to you all later.. I need some prayers you all okay.. so say one for me...

Aug 29,2005

hey everyone its been a few days.. Been busy with school and all. I am doing good, I am still feeling tired but otherwise pretty good. I have now lost 25lbs by my scales and 30 by my docs.. So, I am happy the scales are finally moving again. I think mainly because I am up and moving.. School is alot of walking and moving and rushing. So, maybe its working. Well, I am now 1 month and 7 days out so 5 weeks. and lost 25lbs. I called my doctor the other day spoke with the nurse, I had a few questions and I told her at that time I had lost like 22 or 23 lbs.. She thought that was great, I was like okay then that is normal lol.. Anyways, I will get back at you all later on.. If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.. always remember that....

Sept 4, 2005

Well, Guess what guys its now 6 wks almost since I had surgery. I am doing great. I have now lost 30 lbs by my scales and 36lbs by my docs.. I have a follow up on Oct 3, 2005 so I am looking forward to it. I am doing good. I had a bad day when I tried to eat at the Olive Garden for my birthday.. Arghhh I was so mad, because I barely ate any salad and bam it hit me I was dumping.. A severe case of it. Actually I think it was my worse yet.. Finally I got calmed down after awhile, but I was not able to eat any food. So, I was upset.. Anyways, not sure if I will go back to my all time favorite place for a while.. but anyways wanted to update say i was doing great.. I just turned 27 on sept. 2. so I was happy to see that day come.. Because back in July I was not sure if it was ever going to arrive.. I am now about 90lbs from goal weight lol.. maybe not so much, but that is what I am shooting for.. hoping I will look okay and not to small at that weight... but anyways enough for now.. God Bless all..

Sept 8, 2005

here is a lil update on me..

hey guys its me again.. well I am going to consider this a wow moment.. like 2 wks ago i tried an x-large blouse on right well it fit. so i found these shirts i really liked on sale and i thought i best not buy the x-large.. so i bought larges right.. well guess what when i bought them they were oh my really tight lol.. and guess what i wore my first one today.. yeahhhhh. i was so happy and it actually was not tight and had plenty of room.. it has been along time since i wore a large blouse and with big boobs its even harder.. and i am now wearing 18's in almost everything.. i did before as well but you know how things are made.. i even got into 2 size 16's.. i was like wow.. lol. anyways i am down 32lbs by my scales and 38 by docs.. and lost 7 inches around my waist and almost 6 in my hips.. so i am doing okay i guess.

But why do I still see the fat girl in the mirror when i look in it.. i know i have lost weight and my clothes are getting to big and i am fitting into things, but I still see the old me.. I still see the heavy-bloated feeling person I was.. although others can really tell I have lost weight, I dont' really see it.. if that makes sense.. well, maybe its just an emotional month.. Anyways I am still feeling tired you all, very fatigue, which I am only 6 wks out.. I go weekly for a b-12 shot and i take the kind under the tongue and i use the liquid b-12 if i need to as well. I am glad I had this done, once I achieve my goal of loosing 93lbs I will be happy I changed my goal. I have now decided to loose more than 100lbs with God's help. total amount i wanted to loose is about 116 lbs.. so far i have 32 gone and 37 by my docs scales gone.. so who knows.. maybe i will get there.... Okay so maybe I will try to stop myself from loosing once I get to a place that I feel like I look good. I want to look in the mirror and see a whole new me and feel good about it.. anyways, i am tired going to bed.. school tomorrow.. say a prayer for me.. If God brought you to it, He will bring you through it.. remember that....

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Sept 13,2005

Well not much has changed since last weeks post, I have still lost only 32lbs.. kinda not lost any this past 5 days.. although I am not sure if I am stalling or its my Aunt Flow time.. ughhh. u actually gain 1-2 lbs on that.. anyways, I am doing okay really tired all the time and last week they called to tell me my bloodwork showed I had high cholesterol for some odd reason. 264 to be exact.. well i was like what. I have lost weight and trying to eat better and all that and how is this.. anyways I go to the doc today to see whats up with it and see what he wants to do.. I have now lost 45 inches all over my body though so that is changed since last week. I have now lost right at 10 inches in my hips/waist.. good yeah.. lol. I know that clothes are fitting me now that I could not wear before and things are to big for me that I could wear so, hey one or the other it works.. well just wanted to update everyone who reads this thing on whats up.. I am also, getting my butt kicked in school.. way to much work but i will survive..

Sept 17, 2005

Well, today is saturday and I am just tired. I have not been feeling to hot all week long.. Just really tired and have been having some issues with my tummy cramping alot this week. You go from one extreme to the next. can't go to the bathroom at all to going 5 times a day.. weird.. well yesterday I went to the grocery and I hope to start a very strict diet as of today for real.. I have high cholesterol now and they said no red meats, no fatty type foods, no this and no that.. so my nut told me about the soy products well I loaded up yesterday.. Soy Boca Burgers-soy crumblers-Boca Meatless burger meat.. Boca Cheeseburgers- veggie chicken strips-LOTS OF PROTEIN IN THESE>> also, wal-mart carries this lunch meat in the deli i looked at the nutrition label first and its Sun-dried basil tomato turkey breast and oh my goodness it is wonderful along with 12 grams of protein per 2 oz.. I also, got BBQ chicken breast and regular chicken breast.. it contains 12-15 grams of protein in it.. Very lil fat in any of it less than 5 grams... The thing is I had not been getting my protein intake in nor my liquid, but now that I have switched to green tea/decaf mixed I have been drinking 70 oz or more a day of it.. my nutrionists said that it is considered as my water intake.. so yeahhh.. and i really hope to get in my protein now that I am switching to mainly soy products and the turkey/chicken breast.. well i really have not lost any weight this past week. i kept going up and down one lb or two,but i feel kindly bloated so who knows.. well talk at you later...

Sept 26, 2005

Well, its been a really long day and I thought I would give a quick update. I am doing okay still struggling with being tired.. and I have now lost 38 lbs at 9 wks out this week. My doc says that is great. I have a follow-up with him on Oct 11th. I am hoping to be 50 lbs down by my scales. Thing is I just found out my polycystic level is 89 now and it is making it harder for me to loose the lbs, but it will come off just in due time.. So, anyways, I am upset over that I got to talk to my gyno this week to see what I am going to do, I guess go back on glucophage alot of people on here can still take it and it dont' make them sick so lets say a prayer and hope it works.. well talk to all you later.. just wanted to check in..

Oct 4, 2005

Well, its been a little while since I updated on here. I have been busy with school and trying to get all that work finished just seems like I never have enough hours in the day to do so. Well, I am now 10 wks out and I am down 40.5 lbs.. so that is 46.50 by m y docs scales. So, when I see him on the 17th, yeah its a little past my time. I will be 3 mths out almost when I see him. I will be down atleast 50 lbs by his scales. Things are going okay I am starting to feel better everyday. I am not as tired and weak as I was before. I still have good days and bad days and I am working on lowering my testosterone level and my cholesterol so its hard. I am also, back on my glucophage. so hopefully that will kick start loosing weight and lowering my testosterone level. Well, not much is new oh yeah I got a new car. a buick century lol.. if that is anything new to tell. I just put so many miles on a car traveling back and forth to school. My old car now has 102,000 miles on it.. poor baby.. but it still can go up to 200,000 or so.. I just prefer to go ahead and get another one before she starts acting up.. anyways, just wanted to update on how I am doing...

Oct 16, 2005

Well, it seems like its getting longer and longer that I am not posting on here. My seven classes are keeping me busy most all the time.. outside my son doing the same.. I am starting to gain my old energy back and I don't feel so bad.. I still have days where I dump.. but otherwise I am pretty normal no problems yet.. thank God above.. Some days its harder for me to eat than others.. Well, I am now soon to be 11 wks i think.. I will be 3 mths out on the 22nd of this month. I am now down 45 lbs.. so things are moving slowly but its okay.. I am doing okay with the skin issues.. just my arms are bothering me.. I got to get to working out.. but when do I have time..I also, met someone who I feel is the love of my life.. he is wonderful, but there is a situation that um may cause some problems, but we shall see. I know God knows what is best... anyways, that is what is new with me.. not alot lol. just wanted to update on how I am doing with weight loss.. Goodluck all who reads this...

Oct 25, 2005

Well this past saturday marked my 3mths of being post-op. I cannot believe I made it this far and I am doing wonderful. I am starting to feel better and I am down 47 lbs by my scales and 53lbs by docs. wow i think I might start going by his lol. anyways I still have not made it for a follow-up. Its now a month past due but I have had to cancel my appointment 3 times with him and now he is only in the office on Mondays.. I am in class on Mondays but I am planning on going on Nov 7th for my 2 mth follow up although I will be about 13-14 wks out.. Well, my clothes are realling getting way to big. okay I can't wear most of them now and I am fitting into things that I had not in years and those are getting to loose as well. I am like arrgh but I am happy. I am trying to refrain from buying to many things right now so I can buy all new winter clothes for next year and I am freezing you guys.. I can't take this weather.. I am wearing some 16's now and I can wear a large in like workout pants and some large shirts along with x-large still um thanks to being big breasted lol. I really do not want to loose these and so far I have not.. good thing.. I have lost 10 inches around my waist,hips, and tummy. I have lost like 6 inches around my legs and 4 inches around my arms. around my upper top I have lost about 3-4 inches. I am not so thick anymores. Where I have gone down I bought me a new bra the other day because it was on the last hook and it was getting to big. not really in the cups but around.. I have lost like 5 inches underneath my boobs.. anyways I bought a 42D instead of a DD this time and yeah my boobs hang over a lil but oh so what lol....So not much change although I have gone down, but I swear bra's are not made like they say they are made.. I got this at lane bryant and I love there bras.. I hope to be able to buy one from victoria secret but I am wondering if they will ever be able too. maybe if they keep going down around my back and underneath my arm area then maybe.. but I don't think the D cup will ever change.. anyways enough boobie talk lol.. School is kicking my butt still and I am really tired from that. I will be glad when christmas break gets here I am ready for a break. a month off school yeah.. and I am not to far to onederland now.. yeah.. hopefully within the next month or 1 1/2 mths I hope to be there, my weight loss is still going slowly due to my PCOS still being so high.. But it is okay. My skin is actually doing well except my arms I am so worried I got to get to working them out everyday.. But i am so tired by the time I get home.. WEll, I am going now its 12;22 a.m and I have to be up early in the morn. school again.. talk to you later..

Nov 17, 2005

Well guys its been awhile. I have been so busy I don't know where my head is. I have not had a great amount of weight loss in the last month I am soon to be 4 mths post-op yeahhhh I am doing it and I am making it. Well, I am now 59 lbs down by doctors scales and 52 by my scales. My weight was going up and down for like 2 wks off and on by 3-4 lbs each week. Kinda makes you mad doesn't it.. Anyways My testosterone is still high. we are working on that. I am using the birth control patch however its not 100% effective due till I am still a lil above what I should be in weight but its so I can atleast get some of the hormones is why I am on it. My pills I was not getting anything so its taking its sweet time but that is okay. oh yeah another thing with an 89 % testosterone level you can't get prego anyways.. but that is another subject. School is keeping me going 24/7 and now i am working here is my schedule. MWF I am in classes. FSS I am working T/T I am normally subbing or trying to catch up on my school work or working at my other job. So, life right now is wearing me down. I should not be doing this I do not suggest anyone at 3 mths or almost 4 mths now to do this. it takes alot out of you.. I am meeting with my surgeon on Monday. I am more than likely going to have a EGD done sometime after meeting with him. They thought I was getting a stricture and still may be. but I been doing some serious praying and that is getting better. Also, I think I have developed an Ulcer.. alot is going on but I am still doing good and hanging in there. just wanted to give an up date on my life. My son turned 4 last saturday and what a day it was... so stressful his party and everything but it was a good day.. God Bless all who see's and reads this...

Dec 1, 2005

hey guys just wanted to update. they canceled my EGD for this past tuesday until the 6th of Dec. due to who knows what reason. anyways I am okay and feeling okay actually so I am thankful for that, but I am having issues getting my protein in again. There are alot of days I really just don't eat to be honest although I try but I don't feel the need too and alot of reason is because I cannot just find the time. However, over my month break from school I hope to be able to get my schedule back on track and continue it when I go back to school in Jan. Thing is I am moving to family housing on campus as well as being here still, but I think that will help because I can just run to my apartment on campus to eat instead of having to try to grab something healthy out the snack machine which is very rare. Along with me not having to take something I pack enough stuff now. However I have been eating a piece of grilled chicken from McDonalds this week with a side salad. No, I can't often eat all of it but I get most of it down I try more for the meat than the small salad. Anyways I am now down 65 lbs by docs scales.. Yeah.. But I am having some serious issues with clothes and I really can't afford to buy new ones right now. I lost 6 lbs within one week this past week and I am not sure what or any this week and everything that use to be tight on me now is to big as well including clothes that were of smaller size.

Dec 15, 2005

Well guys dec. is about over with. Christmas is almost here and I am thankful that i have gotten to see it coming. I have now lost 68 lbs not much more kinda been going back and forth again. Its normal to do that. I go two weeks going back up and down 3 to 4 lbs then bam I have lost 5 or 6 lbs and then it happens again some weeks depending on what i am eating is whether I loose good or slow. But I am thankful I have about 55 lbs more to loose and I will be happy. Well, I had a wow moment I guess you could call it. I bought a pair of jeans the other day and I tried a 18 on just because I was not sure if I could wear smaller. Well, they fit was really loose but I thought well if I loose a few more lbs I won't be able to wear them so I went ahead and got a size 16 jeans and I thought I will be able to wear these in the next week or so. Well, I tried them on the next day after buying them to see how they fit and when I would be able to wear them. Well, guess what they slid up my hips and onto my butt and bam I said lets see if they button and oh my goodness they buttoned and they fit me. I was like wow! anyways I wore them to school the next day and everyone kept saying wow you have lost so much weight you look great so I was so excited lol. anyways, I will post some new pics soon. But I am thankful that I am doing well and I am not sick I am really tired right now due to all my finals and school wearing me down, but otherwise God has been on my side and I go for my EGD on the 20th we had to reschedule but that is okay. I am doing well just a lil upset tummy sometime.. Well, I want to wish all a Merry Christmas if I don't get to post on here before then. I should have more time now beings classes end this friday but we shall see. God Bless all of you that read my page...

FEB 14, 2006