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I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I AM ON THIS JOURNEY. THIS ANXIOUS GIRL ALWAYS SAID SHE WOULD NEVER LET HER WEIGHT GAIN COME TO THIS. WELL, THE SIZES KEEP GOING UP AND AS SCARY AS THE THOUGHT OF SURGERY IS FOR ME, THE ALTERNATE DOESN'T SOUND TOO GOOD EITHER. I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH WEIGHT ALL OF MY LIFE. GENETICS SHOW THAT I GET IT FROM MY MOMMA. MY FATHER AND HIS FAMILY WERE ALWAYS SLIM. MY FATHER HAS TWO GIRLS FROM A PREVIOUS MARRIAGE (TO A THIN WOMAN) AND THEY ARE THIN. MY MOTHER AND FATHER HAD ME AS WELL AS MY BROTHER AND WE ARE BOTH OVER WEIGHT (LIKE MY MOTHER). EVEN KNOWING GENETICS ARE THE ROOT OF THE PROBLEM, WE HAVE ALL TRIED METHODS OF WEIGHT LOSS. BEFORE I WAS BORN, MY MOTHER GOT DOWN TO A SIZE 16 AND LOOKED GREAT. HER SUCCESS WAS THE RESULT OF DIET PILLS. WELL, SHE STOPPED TAKING THEM AND THE WEIGHT CAME BACK ALONG WITH BAD NERVES. HER QUICK FIX DID MORE DAMAGE THEN IT WAS WORTH! MY BROTHER ALSO HAD HIS SHORT SUCCESS STORY. AFTER BEING OVER WEIGHT UP THROUGH HIGH SCHOOL, HE HAD ENOUGH. HE DIETED LIKE A MOVIE STAR. HE MANAGED TO GET DOWN TO 190 AND AT 6'2", HE LOOKED GREAT. THE WEIGHT EVEN STAYED OFF AS HE CONTINUED TO FIGHT THE FIGHT BUT, THE OLDER HE GOT, THE HARDER IT WAS TO MAINTAIN A HEALTHY WEIGHT. MY BROTHER (20 YEARS MY ELDER) IS NOW BACK TO HIS BIGGEST. THEN THERE IS ME. I'VE TRIED THIS AND THAT WITH NO REAL SUCCESS AT ALL. MOM RAISED ME ON FRUIT AND VEGTABLES WHEN ALL MY FRIENDS WERE EATING JUNK FOOD SO, AT SOME POINT, WHEN I WAS OF AGE, I JUST GAVE UP. WELL, THAT OBVIOUSLY JUST ADDED FUEL TO THE FIRE. NOW I AM A HEALTH RISK DETERMINED TO MAKE A CHANGE. SO, IF SURGERY IS MY ANSWER, I’M READY. THIS ANXIOUS GIRL IS TAKING THIS JOURNEY KNOWING THAT “FAITH IS NOT WORRYING” AND GOD WILL GUIDE, PROTECT AND ENCOURAGE ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY!
