Pam P.
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Hello everyone, I am new to all of this and will be going to the seminar tonite! I have spent the last month checking into this option and while I know it is extreme, so is what will happen to me if my weight continues to escalate like it is. I pray for guidance in this journey and I can not wait to find out how it feels to actually be healthy again. I currently take 5 meds for my blood pressure and no one can explain WHY my weight just continues to climb....I work out 4 days a week and struggle to eat 3 meals a day, yet it just continues to climb. My health is my main concern, I do not want my family to suffer anymore because of the restrictions this weight puts on me. I weighed 244 this morning, some think that isnt large enough for something this drastic, but I have tried EVERYTHING and it continues to spiral out of control, Im afraid of stroke or death if it continues, so I have no choice. I am very fortunate to have a family that supports me and knows that something has to give in this struggle, and I am determined to come out the winner! Wish me luck and send me prayers please!
I'm a married, 36 yr old mother of two wonderful children, a 17 yr old son and a 14 yr old daughter. A mother who is really scared and wants to live to see my grandchildren. I feel God lead me in this direction. 4 Years ago I had a hystorectomy and havent been "right" since. My weight continues to balloon out of control. I always thought it was my fault, not exercising and never eating 3 meals a day.....so I finally made the time for exercising and every since my weight has increased on a daily basis, my blood pressure refuses to go below 160/101, even with taking 5 types of meds.....Im scared of where this may go and what it may lead to.....I have a great supportive family who knows me enough to say "something is wrong". Doctors cant seem to find out what "that" is, so here I am. I pray to be healthy again....I know this will take much dedication, but IM READY and willing, and with prayer and the support of my family, I can do anything.
My reasons for getting healthy, Brandon (18) & Jennifer (15)
Hi all....I just returned from my 1st visit with Dr Fields...they are all so nice there. I was told to loose 10 pounds just to say that I have lost something.
I suffered a tire blowout about 10 miles before Dr Duncans exit...it was awful...but I know Im lucky I remained safe. I know that was the devil tryin to keep me from getting there...so I didnt let it get to me too bad.
Anyway, good day, finally getting started with all this....They think my insurance should give quick approval..............please pray they do.
I told them at work today and they are all being supportive. Gotta run....take care all!
10/11/05....Ugh ok can I SCREAM now....Lord help me....I called my insurance company today and they said that my letter from my doctor wasnt signed and that they were waiting on that...so I took care of that ASAP and just sent that to them...well the girl earlier said I was approved and that they were simply waiting on that signature....well now I called to confirm that they got my fax which they did, and she said ok now it will go up for approval, now that we have everything....I said UGH no way I thought that was it...she said no mamm it hasnt been sent up for review yet...call back tomorrow but it could take a few days..........#*@^@#%%!%....my nerves are shot out on this...the anxiety is getting to me...I am soooo ready! But Im going to be positive and go on and try to pick my date for November...Im gathering all my family and we are going to set it together! :) ttfn God Bless!
10/18/05.....UGH Man....I just called the insurance company AGAIN, yet another week has gone by.....well they said it JUST went to review and they arent sure if it actually went last Thursday like they told me....so....I asked WHEN can I bug you AGAIN and she said hopefully the doctors on the board would look at it TOMORROW........so here we go again! Lord Help ME have the patience and understanding to hold in there until your will be done! Can I get an AMEN.....lol...ok Im better now...all in good time...well all in HIS time...and THAT I am ok with.....ttfn
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My daughters BF Lindsey, my daughter Jen, and my sister Michelle.....on their way to see the Backstreet Boys
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well August 28th will always have new meaning for me!
I can NOT believe this is actually about to happen.........I had preop yesterday and all went well....people keep asking if Im nervous...and honestly NO Im not...not about the surgery anyway...
Im nervous about my kids and how things will be with me away a few days...bills...did I remember to pay all I need to...yada yada yada....
Im nervous something is going to happen to stop this miracle from coming my way....
Im just READY...and cant wait for this to happen....
I dont even care about my liquids only and bowel prep!
Bring it on! lol
I cleaned out my closet last nite...and it was a little emotional...I find myself looking in the mirror thinking is this person really going away....will I mourn her at all? Then I snap out of it and say heck yeah shes gone and now everyone is going to get to see the REAL YOU!
Thank you all for your prayers.......and I will see you on the losers side...omg really is that true.........wow....my journey is really beginning!
I'm a married, 36 yr old mother of two wonderful children, a 17 yr old son and a 14 yr old daughter. A mother who is really scared and wants to live to see my grandchildren. I feel God lead me in this direction. 4 Years ago I had a hystorectomy and havent been "right" since. My weight continues to balloon out of control. I always thought it was my fault, not exercising and never eating 3 meals a day.....so I finally made the time for exercising and every since my weight has increased on a daily basis, my blood pressure refuses to go below 160/101, even with taking 5 types of meds.....Im scared of where this may go and what it may lead to.....I have a great supportive family who knows me enough to say "something is wrong". Doctors cant seem to find out what "that" is, so here I am. I pray to be healthy again....I know this will take much dedication, but IM READY and willing, and with prayer and the support of my family, I can do anything.
My reasons for getting healthy, Brandon (18) & Jennifer (15)
5/17/05
Well Im back....my husband and I went to the seminar tonite....I found it to be informative, entertaining and inspiring....I pray that I dont have any issues with being an hour away....I was excited to learn that they expect you to be able to return to work within 4 days at the most....that is good for me...because I have such a demanding job as an HR Mgr....however Im learning to care about PAM now and realize that I am important too.....I have my packet all ready to mail in the morning....so wish me luck.....now the waiting begins, but at least my journey has started.
Well Im back....my husband and I went to the seminar tonite....I found it to be informative, entertaining and inspiring....I pray that I dont have any issues with being an hour away....I was excited to learn that they expect you to be able to return to work within 4 days at the most....that is good for me...because I have such a demanding job as an HR Mgr....however Im learning to care about PAM now and realize that I am important too.....I have my packet all ready to mail in the morning....so wish me luck.....now the waiting begins, but at least my journey has started.
06/08/05
Well I finally got notice today that Dr. Duncan's office received my packet.....Now the journey officially begins.....I pray for guidance and patience!
Well I finally got notice today that Dr. Duncan's office received my packet.....Now the journey officially begins.....I pray for guidance and patience!
6/16/05
Ok ... this patience thing is harder than I thought.....no word from Dr. Duncans office yet....I am currently obsessed with this website and his as well...hearing everyones stories about their journey, is making patience hard to come by. Take care all.....bbl :P
Ok ... this patience thing is harder than I thought.....no word from Dr. Duncans office yet....I am currently obsessed with this website and his as well...hearing everyones stories about their journey, is making patience hard to come by. Take care all.....bbl :P
6/22/05
ok I officially have my 1st consult scheduled for next Thursday! woo hoo.....here we go!
ok I officially have my 1st consult scheduled for next Thursday! woo hoo.....here we go!
6/24/05
Thanks to Bobbisox for adding life to my profile...too cute!
Also I just found the www.bariatriceating.com site...wow what a tool it is for us all.....Great work guys!
Thanks to Bobbisox for adding life to my profile...too cute!
Also I just found the www.bariatriceating.com site...wow what a tool it is for us all.....Great work guys!
6/29/05
well I have had a set back....my PCP refuses to give me my referral letter for my 1st consult tomorrow...he wants me to see a Gastro specialist next Tuesday due to me having IBS and acid reflux.....he thinks this surgery would complicate those issues along with my high blood pressure.....UGH....I know this is for the best I am just so looking forward to getting this weight OFF of me.
I never thought that he would change his mind, he had already said that he would write it for me although he didnt think I was heavy enough really......but.....oh well I will continue to pray and know that God will guide me in the direction that is meant to be. TTFN :)
well I have had a set back....my PCP refuses to give me my referral letter for my 1st consult tomorrow...he wants me to see a Gastro specialist next Tuesday due to me having IBS and acid reflux.....he thinks this surgery would complicate those issues along with my high blood pressure.....UGH....I know this is for the best I am just so looking forward to getting this weight OFF of me.
I never thought that he would change his mind, he had already said that he would write it for me although he didnt think I was heavy enough really......but.....oh well I will continue to pray and know that God will guide me in the direction that is meant to be. TTFN :)
7/06/05
Well, Im actually kind of glad that my PCP referred me to the Gastro doctor...I went to see him and I had a colonoscopy yesterday along with the EGI to check my reflux...in talking with him he stated that he was a fan of RNY surgery and that he knew alot about Dr. Duncan and that is who he would recommend. So that is good...once he sees how bad my IBS is, he will gladly write me a referral for the surgery. He stated in most cases the surgery HELPS people with IBS, but that depends on severity of their case. I simply pray mine is within the boundries that will allow me to go on with this process. Wish me luck! Later.
Well, Im actually kind of glad that my PCP referred me to the Gastro doctor...I went to see him and I had a colonoscopy yesterday along with the EGI to check my reflux...in talking with him he stated that he was a fan of RNY surgery and that he knew alot about Dr. Duncan and that is who he would recommend. So that is good...once he sees how bad my IBS is, he will gladly write me a referral for the surgery. He stated in most cases the surgery HELPS people with IBS, but that depends on severity of their case. I simply pray mine is within the boundries that will allow me to go on with this process. Wish me luck! Later.
7/12/05
Hi all...well I thought I would stop in to say Hi and I must tell you that this website helps me so much...this waiting game is made so much easier by hearing and sharing everyones stories. Thank you all.
I go to the Gastro specialist tomorrow, for my followup after my colonoscopy last week, I pray my IBS and Reflux isnt too severe for me to have this surgery...he had said if it wasnt then he would gladly refer me..........so I wait...and pray! cya!
Hi all...well I thought I would stop in to say Hi and I must tell you that this website helps me so much...this waiting game is made so much easier by hearing and sharing everyones stories. Thank you all.
I go to the Gastro specialist tomorrow, for my followup after my colonoscopy last week, I pray my IBS and Reflux isnt too severe for me to have this surgery...he had said if it wasnt then he would gladly refer me..........so I wait...and pray! cya!
7/15/05
ok well my Gastro doctor said all is well...my colonscopy came out just fine so he is referring me back to my PCP for him to write my referral letter. He said that it appears that I have done my homework on this procedure and that he knows Dr Duncan personally and is actually who he recommends. That made me feel better.....
so I just called and now have to wait until Aug 10th for my appt with Dr. Duncan...ugh....3 weeks WASTED! :(
ok well my Gastro doctor said all is well...my colonscopy came out just fine so he is referring me back to my PCP for him to write my referral letter. He said that it appears that I have done my homework on this procedure and that he knows Dr Duncan personally and is actually who he recommends. That made me feel better.....
so I just called and now have to wait until Aug 10th for my appt with Dr. Duncan...ugh....3 weeks WASTED! :(
8/08/05
Hi all....Im getting excited....I have my 1st appt with Dr Duncan's ofc on Wed morning....and my PCP says that he has already faxed the referral letter....I told them that I will be coming by to get a copy because I sure dont want to get stuck there and not have it. Hope everyone is doing well....Im anxious to get going with this new life.
We just got back from Florida and I felt so horrible the entire time I was there....both of my sisters look amazing in a bathing suit and I....well.....its sad.....I just kept sayin I will be ready for NEXT year, because hopefully by then I will be MUCH smaller.
I pray this process doesnt drag on forever...Im so ready to begin again and find PAM again. ttyl
Hi all....Im getting excited....I have my 1st appt with Dr Duncan's ofc on Wed morning....and my PCP says that he has already faxed the referral letter....I told them that I will be coming by to get a copy because I sure dont want to get stuck there and not have it. Hope everyone is doing well....Im anxious to get going with this new life.
We just got back from Florida and I felt so horrible the entire time I was there....both of my sisters look amazing in a bathing suit and I....well.....its sad.....I just kept sayin I will be ready for NEXT year, because hopefully by then I will be MUCH smaller.
I pray this process doesnt drag on forever...Im so ready to begin again and find PAM again. ttyl
Hi all....I just returned from my 1st visit with Dr Fields...they are all so nice there. I was told to loose 10 pounds just to say that I have lost something.
I suffered a tire blowout about 10 miles before Dr Duncans exit...it was awful...but I know Im lucky I remained safe. I know that was the devil tryin to keep me from getting there...so I didnt let it get to me too bad.
Anyway, good day, finally getting started with all this....They think my insurance should give quick approval..............please pray they do.
I told them at work today and they are all being supportive. Gotta run....take care all!
8/12/2005
** My PCP WON'T write my clearance letter **
How could he do this to me......now? He wrote my first referral letter and then turns around now that I had my first visit and "isnt comfortable" writing my clearance letter.
We have ran test after test in order for him to feel comfortable enough to write the referral letter, which he did this past Monday.
How could he do this to me? I wrote him a letter stating what they needed and a personal letter of my promise to make this work for me, he then has a nurse call and tell me this.
How sorry is that...to jerk someone around like that....I dont know what to do now...I have everything BUT a letter of clearance from a doctor.
If I find another doctor wont I have to start all over again with him in order for him to "feel comfortable" enough to write one for a essential stranger?
Im so devastated! Suggestions Please? Anyone in Georgia that knows a doctor that would help me?
I pray the good lord will help me through this struggle.
** My PCP WON'T write my clearance letter **
How could he do this to me......now? He wrote my first referral letter and then turns around now that I had my first visit and "isnt comfortable" writing my clearance letter.
We have ran test after test in order for him to feel comfortable enough to write the referral letter, which he did this past Monday.
How could he do this to me? I wrote him a letter stating what they needed and a personal letter of my promise to make this work for me, he then has a nurse call and tell me this.
How sorry is that...to jerk someone around like that....I dont know what to do now...I have everything BUT a letter of clearance from a doctor.
If I find another doctor wont I have to start all over again with him in order for him to "feel comfortable" enough to write one for a essential stranger?
Im so devastated! Suggestions Please? Anyone in Georgia that knows a doctor that would help me?
I pray the good lord will help me through this struggle.
8/16/05
Hi all.....well my spirits are a little higher today...I THINK my other PCP may be writing my letter....I didnt get an immediate NO from him like the other. If he does it, it will be a pure blessing and shocker, since I have only seen him twice ever.
I have my psyche appt tomorrow and Friday, they say they do it two parts. Im still waiting to find a nutrionist that will return my call...so we shall see...I will update you all later. Thank you all for helping me while I freaked out over my PCP deserting me. You all are an answered prayer.
Oh yeah I know you all have dealt with this too, but I have 2 friends that just refuse to talk to me about me wanting to do this....they think Im being ridiculous and that its the wrong thing to do.....but my family, kids and husband all believe I should, so Im going to have to distance myself from those who are negative....cause I know if this is Gods wish for me...I am educated, ready, willing and EXCITED! ;)
Hi all.....well my spirits are a little higher today...I THINK my other PCP may be writing my letter....I didnt get an immediate NO from him like the other. If he does it, it will be a pure blessing and shocker, since I have only seen him twice ever.
I have my psyche appt tomorrow and Friday, they say they do it two parts. Im still waiting to find a nutrionist that will return my call...so we shall see...I will update you all later. Thank you all for helping me while I freaked out over my PCP deserting me. You all are an answered prayer.
Oh yeah I know you all have dealt with this too, but I have 2 friends that just refuse to talk to me about me wanting to do this....they think Im being ridiculous and that its the wrong thing to do.....but my family, kids and husband all believe I should, so Im going to have to distance myself from those who are negative....cause I know if this is Gods wish for me...I am educated, ready, willing and EXCITED! ;)
8/25/05
Hi everyone....well I just celebrated my 16th wedding anniversary and it wasnt much I must say....Im in such a funk over this surgery being delayed and troubles with my son that it simply wasnt a priority....Im hoping one day I will feel better about myself and that portion of my world can improve or should I say become a priority again.......right now it simply ISNT.
Anyway Im still searching for options on a new PCP and what to do about my situation...I am so ready for this!
This past weekend our family had a near tragedy....my brother in law was hit by his boat prop while in the water and we nearly lost him. What a wake up call....that was horrible....and my daughter was in the boat and had to drive it back to the dock for him...he was flown to Birmingham. AL and rushed into surgery...they say he is lucky to be alive....it made us all thankful that the good lord watched over him.
Gotta run all...just wanted to stop by and let you all know that I appreciate your support on this journey...its getting hard to concentrate at work all day...I just want to get online and find answers to helping this process along....I have to snap out of it and make it happen......but its getting harder to keep myself motivated and on target. LATER :P
Hi everyone....well I just celebrated my 16th wedding anniversary and it wasnt much I must say....Im in such a funk over this surgery being delayed and troubles with my son that it simply wasnt a priority....Im hoping one day I will feel better about myself and that portion of my world can improve or should I say become a priority again.......right now it simply ISNT.
Anyway Im still searching for options on a new PCP and what to do about my situation...I am so ready for this!
This past weekend our family had a near tragedy....my brother in law was hit by his boat prop while in the water and we nearly lost him. What a wake up call....that was horrible....and my daughter was in the boat and had to drive it back to the dock for him...he was flown to Birmingham. AL and rushed into surgery...they say he is lucky to be alive....it made us all thankful that the good lord watched over him.
Gotta run all...just wanted to stop by and let you all know that I appreciate your support on this journey...its getting hard to concentrate at work all day...I just want to get online and find answers to helping this process along....I have to snap out of it and make it happen......but its getting harder to keep myself motivated and on target. LATER :P
8/30/05
Hi there.....well I do believe things are looking up....my sister had the idea to go to my OBGYN and get her to write my letter....well DUH she has been one of my best friends for the past 10 years....we have just drifted apart lately. So I go to her, actually she is a practitioner..and a excellant one at that....she said that she thinks the surgery will be GREAT for me...and that she will request my records and WILL WRITE MY NECESSITY LETTER for me....omg I cant tell you how excited I am...I could just SCREAM.....I pray this works out....she is such an angel...I adore her! I cant believe I havent officially been to see her since my hystorectomy 3 years ago....OUCH! Anyway so now I gotta get on the horn and get my psyche and nutrition evaluations! And PRAY...I need lots of prayer! Gotta run.....later! :)
Hi there.....well I do believe things are looking up....my sister had the idea to go to my OBGYN and get her to write my letter....well DUH she has been one of my best friends for the past 10 years....we have just drifted apart lately. So I go to her, actually she is a practitioner..and a excellant one at that....she said that she thinks the surgery will be GREAT for me...and that she will request my records and WILL WRITE MY NECESSITY LETTER for me....omg I cant tell you how excited I am...I could just SCREAM.....I pray this works out....she is such an angel...I adore her! I cant believe I havent officially been to see her since my hystorectomy 3 years ago....OUCH! Anyway so now I gotta get on the horn and get my psyche and nutrition evaluations! And PRAY...I need lots of prayer! Gotta run.....later! :)
9/01/05
Hi there....well I just completed my evaluation with a nutritionist...she was GREAT and said that she felt I was an excellant candidate for RNY and that the changes I have already made will be very helpful......Now I have my psyche appt next Wednesday afternoon, and I have to get my letter from my OBGYN for clearance and I will be ready to submit to insurance...wow it feels great to be able to CHECK something off my to do list. Im getting excited at the thoughts of this moving along.
....on another note.....
My sister is about to donate a kidney to my cousin at the end of this month...please pray for God to watch over them both.
Hi there....well I just completed my evaluation with a nutritionist...she was GREAT and said that she felt I was an excellant candidate for RNY and that the changes I have already made will be very helpful......Now I have my psyche appt next Wednesday afternoon, and I have to get my letter from my OBGYN for clearance and I will be ready to submit to insurance...wow it feels great to be able to CHECK something off my to do list. Im getting excited at the thoughts of this moving along.
....on another note.....
My sister is about to donate a kidney to my cousin at the end of this month...please pray for God to watch over them both.
9/13/05
Hi...well my birthday was on 9/11 and it was great...even in spite of the remembering of 9/11 and the in the wake of Hurricane Katrina....I went for my psyche eval. on 9/09 and that went great....so now all Im waiting on is my letter from my OBGYN...I pray that comes soon then I can submit for approval.
Good Luck to everyone in line for surgery....I pray for God to watch over you! Im getting excited about the thoughts of actually getting close to having an answer on this.....I have already began making the changes in eating and drinking my protein and all...kind of PRETENDING that I have already had the surgery...I totally believe that this will help with my mindset as I go into surgery and following with my recovery.
I'm totally inspired by my online friend Teena Anderson...just had her surgery and is doing great...she too mentally and physically went ahead and PRETENDED that she had the surgery, so her adjustment time was great....thanks for the inspiration Teena!
God Bless...gotta run. :)
Hi...well my birthday was on 9/11 and it was great...even in spite of the remembering of 9/11 and the in the wake of Hurricane Katrina....I went for my psyche eval. on 9/09 and that went great....so now all Im waiting on is my letter from my OBGYN...I pray that comes soon then I can submit for approval.
Good Luck to everyone in line for surgery....I pray for God to watch over you! Im getting excited about the thoughts of actually getting close to having an answer on this.....I have already began making the changes in eating and drinking my protein and all...kind of PRETENDING that I have already had the surgery...I totally believe that this will help with my mindset as I go into surgery and following with my recovery.
I'm totally inspired by my online friend Teena Anderson...just had her surgery and is doing great...she too mentally and physically went ahead and PRETENDED that she had the surgery, so her adjustment time was great....thanks for the inspiration Teena!
God Bless...gotta run. :)
9/20/05
Hello my new family....ok...Im soooo obsessed with this site and the information and support we all get here....of course everyone probably already knew that!
Today I went to my first support meeting and while I expected my long time friend Marianne to be there since she runs it....my old friend from ages ago Karen Fowler was there and she is one year post op and has lost 120#....I was so elated to see that precious woman...she is so funny and such a joy to be with....we havent seen each other since I moved to the other side of town like FOREVER ago...our kids use to go to daycare together and now they are in highschool.....it was great to talk with them....I loved it.....more inspiration! just what I needed!
I was suppose to have my letter from my PCP today and the day came and went without it...Im getting so inpatient I can hardly stand it.....timing on this is so precious I wish they could feel my despair and urgency in wanting this done by year end. I am soooo ready! Ok well Im gonna TRY to sleep some and TRY to forget that while I accomplished my final check off my check list today I STILL dont have what was to be the first check off...my letter....so now I am literally waiting only on it and its killin me...I want to be submitted for approval this week....I have my work and life planned out for the remainder of the year and IM READY.
In talking to Marianne and Karen it was sooo nice to hear that they no longer take their blood pressure or diabetic meds anymore...WOWWWWW how awesome is that...THAT is what I can NOT wait for! ugh these 6 pills a day, not counting my Juice Plus and B12 are getting and have been so old for so long...IM TIRED!
ok now I promise Im goin to bed to PRAY for something to happen tomorrow....Good Nite all my new friends! God Bless!
Hello my new family....ok...Im soooo obsessed with this site and the information and support we all get here....of course everyone probably already knew that!
Today I went to my first support meeting and while I expected my long time friend Marianne to be there since she runs it....my old friend from ages ago Karen Fowler was there and she is one year post op and has lost 120#....I was so elated to see that precious woman...she is so funny and such a joy to be with....we havent seen each other since I moved to the other side of town like FOREVER ago...our kids use to go to daycare together and now they are in highschool.....it was great to talk with them....I loved it.....more inspiration! just what I needed!
I was suppose to have my letter from my PCP today and the day came and went without it...Im getting so inpatient I can hardly stand it.....timing on this is so precious I wish they could feel my despair and urgency in wanting this done by year end. I am soooo ready! Ok well Im gonna TRY to sleep some and TRY to forget that while I accomplished my final check off my check list today I STILL dont have what was to be the first check off...my letter....so now I am literally waiting only on it and its killin me...I want to be submitted for approval this week....I have my work and life planned out for the remainder of the year and IM READY.
In talking to Marianne and Karen it was sooo nice to hear that they no longer take their blood pressure or diabetic meds anymore...WOWWWWW how awesome is that...THAT is what I can NOT wait for! ugh these 6 pills a day, not counting my Juice Plus and B12 are getting and have been so old for so long...IM TIRED!
ok now I promise Im goin to bed to PRAY for something to happen tomorrow....Good Nite all my new friends! God Bless!
9/22/05
ok Im getting EXCITED...my PCP who is also my friend as you know...well I just spoke with her and my letter will be ready to fax on Tuesday!!!!! She asked me to call her then and make sure they fax it....OMG! that is my last piece of this puzzle and should have been my first so Im excited!
Wish me luck!
ok Im getting EXCITED...my PCP who is also my friend as you know...well I just spoke with her and my letter will be ready to fax on Tuesday!!!!! She asked me to call her then and make sure they fax it....OMG! that is my last piece of this puzzle and should have been my first so Im excited!
Wish me luck!
9/27/05
Hi everyone....hope you all are well.....WELL....my sister was to donate a kidney to my dying cousin yesterday and my cousin ended up having a HEART ATTACK before they were to be at the hospital in Birmingham, so now she is at Emory and the transplant is off....what a emotional roller coaster for them both. Please keep her in your prayers...her name is Kris Dover.
....on a different note.....
my PCP is suppose to be faxing my letter to Tracy & Lolita today so please pray for me...I dont know what the time table is as far as them submitting it this week or what...but they are about to know my name very well ! :)
Gotta run.....God Bless...please keep me in your prayers! Take Care
Hi everyone....hope you all are well.....WELL....my sister was to donate a kidney to my dying cousin yesterday and my cousin ended up having a HEART ATTACK before they were to be at the hospital in Birmingham, so now she is at Emory and the transplant is off....what a emotional roller coaster for them both. Please keep her in your prayers...her name is Kris Dover.
....on a different note.....
my PCP is suppose to be faxing my letter to Tracy & Lolita today so please pray for me...I dont know what the time table is as far as them submitting it this week or what...but they are about to know my name very well ! :)
Gotta run.....God Bless...please keep me in your prayers! Take Care
10/03/05
Hi everyone....Great news....I got a call from Dr Duncans office today...they have submitted to my insurance! FINALLY...PRAISE THE LORD.....I will keep everyone posted..Im excited!
10/05/05 Ok...I called my insurance company to make sure they had my packet and YES they do...she said it should take 7 - 10 days to get approval....so now I anxiously wait and call and bug them next Tuesday....wew......Im on pins and needles! Take Care all....God Bless! gotta run
Hi everyone....Great news....I got a call from Dr Duncans office today...they have submitted to my insurance! FINALLY...PRAISE THE LORD.....I will keep everyone posted..Im excited!
10/05/05 Ok...I called my insurance company to make sure they had my packet and YES they do...she said it should take 7 - 10 days to get approval....so now I anxiously wait and call and bug them next Tuesday....wew......Im on pins and needles! Take Care all....God Bless! gotta run
10/11/05....Ugh ok can I SCREAM now....Lord help me....I called my insurance company today and they said that my letter from my doctor wasnt signed and that they were waiting on that...so I took care of that ASAP and just sent that to them...well the girl earlier said I was approved and that they were simply waiting on that signature....well now I called to confirm that they got my fax which they did, and she said ok now it will go up for approval, now that we have everything....I said UGH no way I thought that was it...she said no mamm it hasnt been sent up for review yet...call back tomorrow but it could take a few days..........#*@^@#%%!%....my nerves are shot out on this...the anxiety is getting to me...I am soooo ready! But Im going to be positive and go on and try to pick my date for November...Im gathering all my family and we are going to set it together! :) ttfn God Bless!
10/18/05.....UGH Man....I just called the insurance company AGAIN, yet another week has gone by.....well they said it JUST went to review and they arent sure if it actually went last Thursday like they told me....so....I asked WHEN can I bug you AGAIN and she said hopefully the doctors on the board would look at it TOMORROW........so here we go again! Lord Help ME have the patience and understanding to hold in there until your will be done! Can I get an AMEN.....lol...ok Im better now...all in good time...well all in HIS time...and THAT I am ok with.....ttfn
11/02/05 Hey there everyone....well my insurance called yesterday and promised that the review dept would call me no later than this morning...and it is now 1:48 and nothing....Im so anxious I cant stand it....and the ole devil has creeped up on me and handed me the LAST SUPPER SYNDROME.....why.....I have been doing so good..I must get this under control again! Hope to know something soon....BYE!
11/29/05......Hi everyone....my journey since May has gone as scheduled with not too many hiccups....so I thought as soon as it got to my insurance companies that my approval was a "given". There was NO indication that they would fight me on this....they covered every single expense related to the surgery......never mentioned a thing about me having to do a 6 month diet (which I could have been doing all this time)...NOW they throw that curve ball in....saying I need to do a 6 month doctor supervised diet, show a loss of atleast 20% and maintain it for 45 days....WHAT !!!!.....my doctor hit the roof, and I was simply in total shock......I mean they paid for my psyche eval. which is against policy...simply because they DO cover WLS....so this blew my mind totally.
Luckily my company has a patient advocate firm that works to resolve these issues...........so my doctor and a nurse from the agency had a conference call and my doctor told them that I simply couldnt loose weight like they were requiring.....I have PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome)...I thought my doctor did a great job coming to my defense on all issues....so now I wait.
Im feeling so alone now, when all this while I have been so upbeat at the thought of becoming healthy once again and being able to stop all these meds..............now Im just numb, ill, shocked and disoriented on the issue.
Im told now that they will research my PCOS, High BP and IBS and see if they can gather literature that will assist in me fighting for approval.
I wanted this before yearend....UGH I have had over $10,000 worth of doctor bills trying to prep for all of this so I wouldnt have to pay one red cent if its prior to yearend....now Im just SICK and wonder if they are trying to push it out for that very reason.
Anyone else had this fight and WON? Im getting so depressed about it!
Any pointers?
Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! God Bless! :)
Luckily my company has a patient advocate firm that works to resolve these issues...........so my doctor and a nurse from the agency had a conference call and my doctor told them that I simply couldnt loose weight like they were requiring.....I have PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome)...I thought my doctor did a great job coming to my defense on all issues....so now I wait.
Im feeling so alone now, when all this while I have been so upbeat at the thought of becoming healthy once again and being able to stop all these meds..............now Im just numb, ill, shocked and disoriented on the issue.
Im told now that they will research my PCOS, High BP and IBS and see if they can gather literature that will assist in me fighting for approval.
I wanted this before yearend....UGH I have had over $10,000 worth of doctor bills trying to prep for all of this so I wouldnt have to pay one red cent if its prior to yearend....now Im just SICK and wonder if they are trying to push it out for that very reason.
Anyone else had this fight and WON? Im getting so depressed about it!
Any pointers?
Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! God Bless! :)
2/22/06........OMG I can not believe that I took this long before posting again....I lurk, but simply havent taken the time to write. I have started my 6 month physician supervised plan....1st months posted loss was 5 lbs. my doctor tells me that is perfect for my fight for insurance....and now I believe Im well on my way to my required 20 they instructed me to loose. I have been so depressed with so much going on in my life, but I know that this is what I need and i will not let it get me down anymore. New Year...New ME! Im about to take care of PAM for a change. Gotta run....hope everyone is doing well....I pray to see you on the losing side come August at the latest. :)
My daughters BF Lindsey, my daughter Jen, and my sister Michelle.....on their way to see the Backstreet Boys
5/23/06.......Hi all....gosh Im such a horrible member huh? My life has been crazy stressful this entire year......but my diet has been going great. My doctor has been so supportive of my goal, and is really helping me stay focused. He put me on Glucophage, which is normally used for diabetics but with my polycystic ovarian syndrome, I need it to regulate my insulin.....it increases the number of "episodes" I have with my IBS, but it is making the scale move on down. We decided that its time for me to try submittal to insurance again...........so we got my letter ready showing my supervised diet and faxed that baby off Friday 5/18/06.........so please pray for me.......I cant wait to stop taking all these pills and finally BE HEALTHY again. God Bless You all....you all look AMAZING! and are such an inspiration to me....Im so proud of all of you. :)
5/31/06....Hi all....well still no answers from my insurance....my patience is wearing thin....its still in review...UGH Im getting anxious, excited, scared and consumed by the thoughts that this may actually happen soon. Please pray for me....I need this so bad! The thoughts of never having to take another blood pressure or reflux pill is just too much to handle. To think of actually having energy and not just faking it all the time....to smile and mean it.....Man Im ready! Im reading profiles all day long now...I just cant stop! :P
6/07/06...........OMG! IM APPROVED..........but.........for Lap Band in place of RNY....how can a insurance company suggest which surgery you should have.........that is crap! Im so confused! Guess I need to call Dr. Duncans office and see what I need to do......my emotions are alll outta wack!
6/19/06........Hey there, ok so this journey continues on......Last week my insurance called me and wondered if I had to decided to go ahead with their reccomendation of having Lap Band in place of RNY.....I told them no that my surgeon would need to determine that....not their medical advisors....in other words I let them know that I plan on fighting them for the RNY.......many people dont understand my choice, but internally I truly believe that I need my insides re-routed. Is that a selfish choice? My friends think I should do the lap band,(or nothing at all....WHATEVER!) because its safer.....but my family knows that its not the amount of food I eat, but the way my body processes the food I do choose to eat....I fear that simply a smaller stomach wouldnt help me with this weight...I mean Im not saying that I eat perfect....when I choose to eat its mostly starches I know
....bread....pasta....fruit....milk...YUMMY! sometimes I dont eat at all I simply drink a glass of milk and Im full. I love veggies and fruits, dont care if I have meats or not.........and I would and could live off of fresh bread and milk any day of the week...........BUT I dont eat sweets, fried foods, anything with MSG in it, etc. (I have IBS) lol
Anyway my husband just called and they are changing insurance to BCBS, so I called them and YES! they cover the surgery.......so technically if I cancel my insurance and go with his as primary I can get approval....but they will have to look over all the info I have submitted to my insurance...ugh.
I told my insurance company and they said that should I switch to my husbands as primary they would pay for the 20% remaining for RNY....now how can they do that if they wont allow me to have RNY in the first place............CHEAP.....only worried about a dollar. Drives me crazy..........so...now I wait I guess, until July 1st to try to have all of this happen........I simply ache with confusion and fear or making the wrong choice. I had NO DOUBTS about me needing RNY then my insurance confused me.........not knocking either surgery but I just studied and prepared myself for RNY and I think its the best for me..........but now I have people asking why would I endanger my life if I dont have to.....and why do I think I need it? Im not big..........WHATTT!!!! how can people say that....I have a BMI of 41.9, extremely high blood pressure and so many co-morbidities it aint even funny....(yes I said AINT) lol
anyway I guess I will go.....yet another day has gone by with no clear answers and no surgery date! Please pray for God to guide me through this journey, I have placed it all in his hands and I know he will not let me down! God Bless! toodles!
....bread....pasta....fruit....milk...YUMMY! sometimes I dont eat at all I simply drink a glass of milk and Im full. I love veggies and fruits, dont care if I have meats or not.........and I would and could live off of fresh bread and milk any day of the week...........BUT I dont eat sweets, fried foods, anything with MSG in it, etc. (I have IBS) lol
Anyway my husband just called and they are changing insurance to BCBS, so I called them and YES! they cover the surgery.......so technically if I cancel my insurance and go with his as primary I can get approval....but they will have to look over all the info I have submitted to my insurance...ugh.
I told my insurance company and they said that should I switch to my husbands as primary they would pay for the 20% remaining for RNY....now how can they do that if they wont allow me to have RNY in the first place............CHEAP.....only worried about a dollar. Drives me crazy..........so...now I wait I guess, until July 1st to try to have all of this happen........I simply ache with confusion and fear or making the wrong choice. I had NO DOUBTS about me needing RNY then my insurance confused me.........not knocking either surgery but I just studied and prepared myself for RNY and I think its the best for me..........but now I have people asking why would I endanger my life if I dont have to.....and why do I think I need it? Im not big..........WHATTT!!!! how can people say that....I have a BMI of 41.9, extremely high blood pressure and so many co-morbidities it aint even funny....(yes I said AINT) lol
anyway I guess I will go.....yet another day has gone by with no clear answers and no surgery date! Please pray for God to guide me through this journey, I have placed it all in his hands and I know he will not let me down! God Bless! toodles!
6/27/06.......Well HELLO my OH family........I hope you all are doing well.....Im getting so excited about this FINALLY happening. My husbands new insurance covers this and I asked my surgeons office to fax my packet to THEM today.......they tell me that I should have approval within 5 days........so now another wait is on.....then I will know if I need to fight my insurance or not. I am soooooooo ready......
I saw a highschool friend of mine this past weekend....bless her soul she had surgery last April in 2005........and WOW omg she looks like the old Joy.....she has always been beautiful...had I not seen her overweight I would have never even known she had been any different since school.....that was EXCITING to see.......EXCITING for her and me.
Please pray for me......I feel this is actually maybe going to happen for me now........and Im struggling with emotions with it.........the biggest emotion is ANXIOUS and READY.........ready to not take all these pills everyday.......ready to not have another IBS "episode"....although dumping sounds kind of the same as my "episodes"....I will try to avoid that......
But just being HEALTHY and not having to FAKE having energy to play with my neices and nephews....wew
Later gotta run......God Bless you all and thanks for all the support!
I saw a highschool friend of mine this past weekend....bless her soul she had surgery last April in 2005........and WOW omg she looks like the old Joy.....she has always been beautiful...had I not seen her overweight I would have never even known she had been any different since school.....that was EXCITING to see.......EXCITING for her and me.
Please pray for me......I feel this is actually maybe going to happen for me now........and Im struggling with emotions with it.........the biggest emotion is ANXIOUS and READY.........ready to not take all these pills everyday.......ready to not have another IBS "episode"....although dumping sounds kind of the same as my "episodes"....I will try to avoid that......
But just being HEALTHY and not having to FAKE having energy to play with my neices and nephews....wew
Later gotta run......God Bless you all and thanks for all the support!
7/05/06.........Hey there! I sure hope everyone had a great 4th! I have been in kind of a "funk" lately...not sure why....guess I am just so ready for this surgery and Im so tired of getting excited only to turn around and be disappointed yet again! My packet should be submitted to my new insurance TODAY...I emailed Dr Duncans office to see if they sent it, but with the holidays and all I figured maybe they are a little behind. I pray Lolita comes back to me in the morning and says that they did send it today....BCBS promises approval within 5 days.........I would love to have surgery THIS month....or the first week of August at the latest.
Im not worth 2 cents here at work or home, all I do is read profile after profile, and daydream about what all I need to do and what life will be like afterwards.
Maybe I will have some news next week...until then, I will continue to "stalk" everyone on this site....lol....cya
Im not worth 2 cents here at work or home, all I do is read profile after profile, and daydream about what all I need to do and what life will be like afterwards.
Maybe I will have some news next week...until then, I will continue to "stalk" everyone on this site....lol....cya
7/17/06.........ok well I have been whinning all day long on the boards....about how long this process is taking and just how tired I am of promises not being kept.........well Lolita from my surgeons office just emailed and my packet has been submitted......YIPPEE! I will keep you posted!
7/19/06..Hello again...ugh just called BCBS and still its IN REVIEW....I will call again tomorrow....Im so nervous they will say NO although everyone with that copy says it should be a quick YES! Please keep me in your prayers....God Bless you all!
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7/24/06....ok next drama in this crazy journey....my surgeons office called and said that BCBS is asking for my history back to when my high blood pressure began....ummm ok that was when I was pregnant 16 years ago! But I got it ALL that they asked for....faxed it to my contact and they hopefully will send it in to them today...so Im asking for PRAYERS PLEASE!!!!!!! ttfn oh yeah I just learned how to post pics...woo...Im excited now I can get on everyone nerves by takin their pics! cya
7/31/06.....Hey.....wow ok where to begin....I cant believe I finally get the news that I AM APPROVED and its minute before I must leave town for the weekend.....so here I am today only now able to annouce it. My emotions just were all over the place......My surgeons insurance office sent everything to the surgical office today, showing my approval, now I wait for a phone call. I can barely speak or think and I always thought I would have so much to say and post once this happened.....I feel like its a joke and they may take it away from me or something.......I want a REAL DATE not the one my insurance company gave me....Gosh....I need that date in order to feel that this is really happening for me.....
God is so amazing...I have faught for this since March '05 and I have had so many things happen in order for me to really know and understand that this is GODS WILL, not just my own....WOW!
More later when I can concentrate and process thoughts...lol
God is so amazing...I have faught for this since March '05 and I have had so many things happen in order for me to really know and understand that this is GODS WILL, not just my own....WOW!
More later when I can concentrate and process thoughts...lol
8/03/06....I just missed a call from my surgeons office and they didnt leave a message...UGH! Now I get to drive them crazy trying to find out who called me....oh well at least they will know my name by heart huh? lol
On a different note...I met a new friend last night....Cindy.....she overheard me and my beatician talking about my surgery and she began telling me her story of how her employer let her insurance lapse right in the middle of her trying to get approval......so she just gave up.....Well you guys know I simply couldnt allow that to happen......I immediately told her about this site and what all it gives to all of us.....and I promised her...we will make her begin her journey and NOT give up....They devil cant keep us down. Bless her soul she is so precious...I cant wait to help her through this journey no matter how long it may take.....Im excited for her to find our family here and know that she is not alone anymore....so great to meet you CINDY!
On a different note...I met a new friend last night....Cindy.....she overheard me and my beatician talking about my surgery and she began telling me her story of how her employer let her insurance lapse right in the middle of her trying to get approval......so she just gave up.....Well you guys know I simply couldnt allow that to happen......I immediately told her about this site and what all it gives to all of us.....and I promised her...we will make her begin her journey and NOT give up....They devil cant keep us down. Bless her soul she is so precious...I cant wait to help her through this journey no matter how long it may take.....Im excited for her to find our family here and know that she is not alone anymore....so great to meet you CINDY!
8/10/06....hey there guys.......man I am so busy trying to get ready for surgery......I seriously cant believe that this drama is FINALLY about to end, and my new beginning is about to begin! Im so ready....nerves havent really kicked in yet...Im guessing they may come surgery day, but right now I have been fighting so hard to get paperwork done and final test clearance that I cant stop to think about it all finally coming true. I got the call last friday from my surgeons office, saying I needed my cardiac and medical clearance.....so I get on the horn and my OBGYN whom I really owe BIG TIME, got me an appt this past Monday at 2....that was spur of the moment and I was really grateful.....I must say that the stress test KICKED MY BUTT....omg....I was about to fall out after that last go round....they warned me it would get harder but wew...that was tough! So....I scramble to get that cardiologist to write my clearance quickly, since all was good....well he prefers to write a letter to my OB who referred me....so I wait on that to happen...then the verbage isnt exactly what Dr. Duncans office needs so I leave work and run to my OB's office and have him write on a script pad....cardiac and medical clearance....then I run back to work and send it to Shona at Dr. Duncans office....she said it looks great and that she will get my file to him for review and hopefully she can call me tomorrow to schedule my preop and surgery....WOW just the stress of this entire journey and the hoops I have had to jump through just exhaust me to think about........and knowing that its all been worth it and its going really happen..........my life is going to change...man God is so amazing...I thank him daily for all that he has done for me!
I know this is going to be tough, but Im going into it with a great attitude and I know that through God all things are possible and he wouldnt bring me this far and make me prove just how badly I want and need this, just to let me fail.
I have everyone at work as well as in my personal life excited...I have educated them all and continue to do so with even strangers that I meet. Im not ashamed that I am having this surgery...I would love to be a walking billboard for it. I have met several people that have asked me to help them with getting started so I guess all that I have been through has been for a reason. I cant wait to support others with their journey...its really important!
Thanks to my friend Tina...for volunteering to be my Angel...she is so amazing....although we met on this site and have never come face to face...I adore her...and Im so proud of how great she has done with her surgery....she inspires me! I thank God for sending her to me! I love ya gurl!
I know this is going to be tough, but Im going into it with a great attitude and I know that through God all things are possible and he wouldnt bring me this far and make me prove just how badly I want and need this, just to let me fail.
I have everyone at work as well as in my personal life excited...I have educated them all and continue to do so with even strangers that I meet. Im not ashamed that I am having this surgery...I would love to be a walking billboard for it. I have met several people that have asked me to help them with getting started so I guess all that I have been through has been for a reason. I cant wait to support others with their journey...its really important!
Thanks to my friend Tina...for volunteering to be my Angel...she is so amazing....although we met on this site and have never come face to face...I adore her...and Im so proud of how great she has done with her surgery....she inspires me! I thank God for sending her to me! I love ya gurl!
8/11/06...........ok well my surgeons office just called and said I need a updated EGD....so I call my GI doctor and see the date of my last one.....it was JULY 6, 2005...........unreal so now I have to get a new one......so my schedule is as follows...
8/22 EGD at Atlanta Medical
8/24 Preop
8/28 SURGERY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow I cant believe it! I HAVE A DATE!!!!!!!
When I reflect on this journey it has all been so frustrating, disheartning and liberating at the same time!
God layed out my path and I walked it with him....I didnt always understand the dead ends and detours that were forced upon me....but he did!
Since March 05 I have prayed for GODS will to be done....he knows me better than anyone and he is my savior....
8/22 EGD at Atlanta Medical
8/24 Preop
8/28 SURGERY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow I cant believe it! I HAVE A DATE!!!!!!!
When I reflect on this journey it has all been so frustrating, disheartning and liberating at the same time!
God layed out my path and I walked it with him....I didnt always understand the dead ends and detours that were forced upon me....but he did!
Since March 05 I have prayed for GODS will to be done....he knows me better than anyone and he is my savior....
well August 28th will always have new meaning for me!
I can NOT believe this is actually about to happen.........I had preop yesterday and all went well....people keep asking if Im nervous...and honestly NO Im not...not about the surgery anyway...
Im nervous about my kids and how things will be with me away a few days...bills...did I remember to pay all I need to...yada yada yada....
Im nervous something is going to happen to stop this miracle from coming my way....
Im just READY...and cant wait for this to happen....
I dont even care about my liquids only and bowel prep!
Bring it on! lol
I cleaned out my closet last nite...and it was a little emotional...I find myself looking in the mirror thinking is this person really going away....will I mourn her at all? Then I snap out of it and say heck yeah shes gone and now everyone is going to get to see the REAL YOU!
Thank you all for your prayers.......and I will see you on the losers side...omg really is that true.........wow....my journey is really beginning!
9/3/06.........Im officially a LOSER now...!!!! It is so surreal and hard to believe. Im so sorry I havent been online yet, but our chair at our computer at home isnt comfortable at all and my incisions have been really sore.....other than that discomfort I have been GREAT....no extreme pain or anything. What a blessing this has been. Tomorrow will officially have me one week out and I get stronger every day! My family has really been so supportive of this choice of mine....they have been AMAZING really....not that I thought they would be anything other than that....I am so fortunate to have each and every one of them. My mom and hubby went to surgery with me...while my sister Natalie "Ratt" stayed at home and "baby sat" my daughter who is 15...lol....that kept her so calm and she did great! That was priceless.....THANKS RATT! Then my other sister picked me up at the hospital and took me to my moms and Ratts to rest for a day...then met my hubby the next night so that I could go home....everyone was great! Thank you all! I love you so much!
I have the bestest family in the world!
I must say I have been enjoying my naps....I seem to be stronger daily but just uncomfortable sitting up...but that is getting better daily also....so I am blessed!
I have started my protein and having some full liquids....Im excited that I seem to be tolerating skim milk fine....wew! That is all I was worried about...I LOVE MILK! I prefer protein with skim than water so that has been an answered prayer!
ok gotta get on the boards and see how everyone is!
oh yeah...duh...Teena....thank you so much for visiting me at the hospital...it was so great to meet you in person...and your son Dustin....PRECIOUS...I can tell he loves him mommy very much and is so proud of all you have accomplished. My family really appreciated you opening up and answering all of their questions...it meant alot!
I have the bestest family in the world!
I must say I have been enjoying my naps....I seem to be stronger daily but just uncomfortable sitting up...but that is getting better daily also....so I am blessed!
I have started my protein and having some full liquids....Im excited that I seem to be tolerating skim milk fine....wew! That is all I was worried about...I LOVE MILK! I prefer protein with skim than water so that has been an answered prayer!
ok gotta get on the boards and see how everyone is!
oh yeah...duh...Teena....thank you so much for visiting me at the hospital...it was so great to meet you in person...and your son Dustin....PRECIOUS...I can tell he loves him mommy very much and is so proud of all you have accomplished. My family really appreciated you opening up and answering all of their questions...it meant alot!
9/11/06.........Happy Birthday to me! It sucks having 9/11 as your birthday......its all so depressing.....but Im not letting it get me down.....I had my 2 wk follow-up with my surgeon today and everything looks GREAT! Ive lost 16 since surgery! AMAZING....I can tell such a difference already....God is so good!
9/20/06.......hey guys.....yeah yeah yeah Im a loser......I stalk the boards every day and dont come update my profile.......I swore I wasnt going to be "one of those people" lol....anyway Im doing good.........trying new things all the time....still a little scared to venture out too far. Just got back from a week in Destin, FL with my family....great time....I just hated that I was tired all the time....I did lay out by the pool some, but not like I normally would, but it was nice to be able to rest whenever I wanted to...but I missed walking on the beach...I just didnt think I would have the energy to.
Im trying not to look at the scale every morning and obsess over what it says....I guess I should just throw it away or something....cause Im lower in the evenings when I get home from work, rather than in the morning...I seem swollen.
Im doing better at getting in my water and protein but it hard to get it all in....seems my new found cheeze stix are going to be a lifesaver....9g per stick...GREAT!
Tried Isopure yesterday...not bad for a change from a milk base drink...I wanna say Ive lost 22 but each scale seems different so Im just going to ignore them and go by the doctors scale at my 1 mth ckup next Monday!
I have had the "foamies" twice when I didnt chew my talapia and when I drank a too big of a sip of unsweet tea....OUCH!!!!
ok well back to the boards...I must measure myself and take pictures more often...I dont want to forget this journey at all......
everyone seems to notice things so far...I can feel the changes, like when I put my hands on my hips or scratch my arm...little things like that...oh and clothes and shoes...big difference already! PRAISE GOD! I will never stop thanking him for this gift! It is saving my life!
Im trying not to look at the scale every morning and obsess over what it says....I guess I should just throw it away or something....cause Im lower in the evenings when I get home from work, rather than in the morning...I seem swollen.
Im doing better at getting in my water and protein but it hard to get it all in....seems my new found cheeze stix are going to be a lifesaver....9g per stick...GREAT!
Tried Isopure yesterday...not bad for a change from a milk base drink...I wanna say Ive lost 22 but each scale seems different so Im just going to ignore them and go by the doctors scale at my 1 mth ckup next Monday!
I have had the "foamies" twice when I didnt chew my talapia and when I drank a too big of a sip of unsweet tea....OUCH!!!!
ok well back to the boards...I must measure myself and take pictures more often...I dont want to forget this journey at all......
everyone seems to notice things so far...I can feel the changes, like when I put my hands on my hips or scratch my arm...little things like that...oh and clothes and shoes...big difference already! PRAISE GOD! I will never stop thanking him for this gift! It is saving my life!
10/10/06.....Hello my friends....I hope you all are well...
I browse the boards daily but dont ever stop to update. I have to say that I am a slave to my scale and I must stop that! I can loose then regain 4 overnite...(I retain water BAD)...so I dont know why I do it to myself.
I THINK I weigh in at 197, well this morning it was 202, but over the weekend it said 197, so maybe its water weight. I need to just stop and not weigh until I go back for my 3 month checkup on 11/20/06...
Water intake is getting better but not great....this week I have been trying to EAT FOOD....that is a challenge for me cause I simply dont want anything at all...but Im trying...I know that will help with my loss.
Im walking nightly on my treadmill, although I cant walk long....15 minutes and Im exhausted and want to lay down.
I promise to update with pics soon....oh yeah I got in a 16 this weekend...wow from 22 to 16...why do I care what the scale says...the proof is in clothing...of course everything runs differently so Im guessing Im really a loose 18 right now. Take Care all!
I browse the boards daily but dont ever stop to update. I have to say that I am a slave to my scale and I must stop that! I can loose then regain 4 overnite...(I retain water BAD)...so I dont know why I do it to myself.
I THINK I weigh in at 197, well this morning it was 202, but over the weekend it said 197, so maybe its water weight. I need to just stop and not weigh until I go back for my 3 month checkup on 11/20/06...
Water intake is getting better but not great....this week I have been trying to EAT FOOD....that is a challenge for me cause I simply dont want anything at all...but Im trying...I know that will help with my loss.
Im walking nightly on my treadmill, although I cant walk long....15 minutes and Im exhausted and want to lay down.
I promise to update with pics soon....oh yeah I got in a 16 this weekend...wow from 22 to 16...why do I care what the scale says...the proof is in clothing...of course everything runs differently so Im guessing Im really a loose 18 right now. Take Care all!
Hey all....well things are about the same as they were on 10/10/06....I live on the message boards but never post to my profile....yeah yeah yeah I know....another thing I swore to keep up after surgery...lol
Scales are the enemy...by far...I give up....Im 195 and each day it goes up and down so whatever...
I wear a comfortable sometimes small sometimes big 16 now. but my tops have dropped to a medium...unreal.
Found new protein bars so I pray they help me EAT and loose!
gotta run...time to leave the office.....toodles....
Hey there everyone...HAPPY NEW YEAR....its Jan 11th an I cant believe I havent updated since Oct 10th...PITIFUL...shame on me!
Anywayz....life is good! Im in a medium top and size 12 below...
S I Z E T W E L V E! ok that is almost too much to handle...
Im loving shopping now...especially since my daughter and I can wear the same size tops now...NICE and get his...I tried on her jeans last nite...size 11...I tried her Aeropostle...they fit perfect, then moved on to every other pair and THEY ALL FIT...omg I can wear my daughters jeans! Months ago that was a silly dream...one leg woudnt have fit into the width of the jean.
I am so blessed...God is so wonderful...I give him all the credit in the world for allowing me to live this life...things are better financially .....with my hubby....work...kids...etc....it seems 2007 is going to be a fantastic year!
God Bless you all and I pray you all have a happy 2007!
5/10/07......yeah yeah yeah I know what a loser...I havent posted in forever....Im so sorry I swore I wasnt going to be one of THOSE people who got their gift and forgot about everyone left behind still chasing their dreams.... SORRY!
Life is crazy for me right now...work is unbelieveably stressful...my company closed my facility on 4/13/07...I ahve been the HR Mgr here for 4 years so that was horrible...having to say goodbye to all of my "family"....I wont ever see most of them again...its been so painful and hard to process....they asked me to stay so my job will end in September and I am searching for something else...I have tried to turn this over to God but cant seem to truly let go of the stress of it all. The few of us that stuck behind to shut things down are just overwhelmed with stress, its simply too much to handle...and I find myself snacking all the time on little things like light cheez-its, pretzels, etc...its horrible. I hate that I have picked that habit back up...I get so mad at myself.
Im guessing all my stress is whats causing my eating difficulties...nothing seems to want to sit well with me anymore...things can be fine one day then NOT the next...its crazy and tiring.
My husband is all clingy and touchy feely now which is weird to me and angers me so much...he pretty much ignored me for 15 years and now wants to pretend we are newlyweds...that is crap to me. I try to tell him that I cant just flip a switch and pretend all is fine when it hasnt been in many years.
If I walk past him without notice of him he begins to pout and start a conversation that he needs love and attention! Well HELLO he hasnt needed or wanted any for 15 years while I was FAT...so I find it all insulting.
I guess I will just have to work through those feelings...
they all seem to bother me all the time...
why do people assume you are different because you lost weight...HELLO we are the same people as before...
I dont think I will ever understand that...
gotta run....sorry
