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Toe Nails
Aug 26, 2008
I just took a shower. (someone on the boards posted about a week ago about what a chore that is when you are a big girl, and I agree 100% on that one) and I cut my toe nails, and worked on my calluses, thought about painting my toenails(that can wait till tomorrow, or maybe the next day) and I decided another goal of mine. I want to be able to do that pedicure kind of stuff, without feeling like someone tied me into a knot, and like I couldn't possibly fit any air into my lungs. These are the little things that will be so cool to finally be able to do. I have been on my liquid diet now for five days and I am starting to feel pretty good. Hopefully I will be having surgery in three months or so and some of these goals will start to happen for me. I can't wait I am so psyched. Later ya'll 
Feeling disappointed
Aug 18, 2008
I have never done this blogging thing before, but I have been reading some other blogs and thought this might be a good thing for me to try. I go to see the weight management doctor tomorrow. This is not a requirement for my surgery but something I started for myself several months ago. I am very disappointed in myself right now, it seems that after I see her I can be very foccused for about two weeks, and then my "diet" goes to hell in a handbasket. I was just camping for the weekend and ate way to much of all the wrong kinds of foods. I think the healthiest thing I ate all weekend was some cantalope. Then when I got home and put away all the left over junk food, I kept thinking well I will stay out of it now, guess what that diddn't happen. So last night I ate all kinds of thing that I shouldn't have,(hershey bars, lunch cakes, chips, hot dogs). I just wish that I could find a happy middle ground, and balance my eating habits for more than just two weeks at a time. I guess I will get there eventually it is just really frustrating. One day at a time, and slow and steady wins the race are two of my favorite things to remind myself of but today just feels like a failure.
