pcjacobus
Trying to pull myself out of the blah's
Feb 08, 2009
Hi Everyone,thanks for stopping by. Here it is Feb.8 th,12 days to my two year wls anniversary. I am very disappointed in myself for not being at goal by now. I am affraid of what my surgen is going to say when I go back to see him. Don't get me wrong,I am happy with the weight I've lost. I am able to do so much more now,it amazes me. But I feel like a failure in so many ways at this point. Let me explain it better........ I have lost my job,laid off.....can't find a new one,everything is coming due. Finance company is threatning to reposes my car(my only transportation),my Husband has been fighting disability for three years now. And my weight is going up and down 5 to 10 pounds. I feel like I am going crazy,my moods are terrible,can't sleep,anxiety,stress. Feel as though I am going through peri-menapaus,but my PCP says that's not it. I am so sorry to be so sad right now,but these things are weighing very heavy on me right now. Please pray for me,God Bless. Thanks for reading.
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Getting on track in 2009
Jan 26, 2009
Hi everyone,Thanks for stopping by and reading my blogs. I can't believe I only wrote one blog in 2008. Gonna try and post more,sorry.
Well,I am trying to get myself re-motivated. I was laid off back in October and haven't found work since. Everything is falling apart it seems. I am struggling to make ends meet,keep my car,pay the rent,etc. Also trying to take care of my Mother,who is 77 and has alzheimers. I also have a 7 year old daughter,that I try to keep from being obese. She has a masive appetite and sneeks to eat. My Husband doesn't work,he is fighting for disabilty...now going on 3 years.
So,I said all that to let you know why I'm trying to get BACK on track. I find myself eatting again from emotions or bordom.
I really want to attend a support group,but there aren't any locally to me. I had my wls in Greenville,NC and I live in Eden,NC.
Don't get me wrong,I am VERY HAPPY with the weight I have lost and the new things I am able to do. But I am not where I want to be and I am coming up on my 2 year anniversary on Feb.20th. So if anyone reading this has any suggestions,please write me. Take care and God Bless.
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Well,I am trying to get myself re-motivated. I was laid off back in October and haven't found work since. Everything is falling apart it seems. I am struggling to make ends meet,keep my car,pay the rent,etc. Also trying to take care of my Mother,who is 77 and has alzheimers. I also have a 7 year old daughter,that I try to keep from being obese. She has a masive appetite and sneeks to eat. My Husband doesn't work,he is fighting for disabilty...now going on 3 years.
So,I said all that to let you know why I'm trying to get BACK on track. I find myself eatting again from emotions or bordom.
I really want to attend a support group,but there aren't any locally to me. I had my wls in Greenville,NC and I live in Eden,NC.
Don't get me wrong,I am VERY HAPPY with the weight I have lost and the new things I am able to do. But I am not where I want to be and I am coming up on my 2 year anniversary on Feb.20th. So if anyone reading this has any suggestions,please write me. Take care and God Bless.
one year and two months out
Apr 25, 2008
Hi Everyone,
I know it has been a long time since I've posted anything. I am now one year and two months out. My weightloss has slowed. I seem to be yoyoing between 205 and 215. I am so scared of gaining any weight back,I do not want to go back to what I used to be at all. I have had some stomach issues as of late, hurt my knee,and sprined my wrist.
I have changed jobs,loving the new job. But I am sitting all day at a computer. Trying to get my exercise in the evening,but not always. Sad to say.
Right now on the scale I am 208 lbs. which is better than the old 365 lbs, by far. I am happy to be where I am,but I want to get the rest off as well.
Pray for me please.
Thanks for reading,hope your journey is going well. Take care and God Bless!!!!!
I know it has been a long time since I've posted anything. I am now one year and two months out. My weightloss has slowed. I seem to be yoyoing between 205 and 215. I am so scared of gaining any weight back,I do not want to go back to what I used to be at all. I have had some stomach issues as of late, hurt my knee,and sprined my wrist.
I have changed jobs,loving the new job. But I am sitting all day at a computer. Trying to get my exercise in the evening,but not always. Sad to say.
Right now on the scale I am 208 lbs. which is better than the old 365 lbs, by far. I am happy to be where I am,but I want to get the rest off as well.
Pray for me please.
Thanks for reading,hope your journey is going well. Take care and God Bless!!!!!
Hi Everyone
Oct 08, 2007
I thought I would write a few lines. Since it's been a long while since I've posted anything.
I gotta tell ya,I'm really loving the new me. I hope I don't sound conseeded or anything. But it feels really good to be able to shop for clothes and FIND something that FITS!!!!!
I went shoping with my Husband and he wanted to take me into Victoria Secret...never been able to wear anything from before....and was too self conscious to go into the place before.
Well this may sound really weard but I started crying. I have times when I still see myself as the heavy woman I was and I looked at everyone thinking that they were wondering what I was doing in Victoria Secret. You know what I mean? I cried and couldn't stay in there.....so we went to Walmart and I got the Boy shorts I wanted there....cheaper.LOL
But I love clothes now and shopping. Can't waite to be getting into even smaller sizes.
I'm also working on getting my hair back. I am taking Biotin and using Nioxin on my hair...it is really helping. I have alot of new baby hair,but still very thin. Any suggestions on that?
Well thanks for stopping by,please check out my new photos and profile. You can also see me on myspace @ www.myspace.com/pcjacobus
Take care.
I gotta tell ya,I'm really loving the new me. I hope I don't sound conseeded or anything. But it feels really good to be able to shop for clothes and FIND something that FITS!!!!!
I went shoping with my Husband and he wanted to take me into Victoria Secret...never been able to wear anything from before....and was too self conscious to go into the place before.
Well this may sound really weard but I started crying. I have times when I still see myself as the heavy woman I was and I looked at everyone thinking that they were wondering what I was doing in Victoria Secret. You know what I mean? I cried and couldn't stay in there.....so we went to Walmart and I got the Boy shorts I wanted there....cheaper.LOL
But I love clothes now and shopping. Can't waite to be getting into even smaller sizes.
I'm also working on getting my hair back. I am taking Biotin and using Nioxin on my hair...it is really helping. I have alot of new baby hair,but still very thin. Any suggestions on that?
Well thanks for stopping by,please check out my new photos and profile. You can also see me on myspace @ www.myspace.com/pcjacobus
Take care.
I had my Surgery,2/22/07
Feb 28, 2007
HI everyone,thanks for stopping by. Well I had my surgery on the 22nd of this month,just this past Thursday. I am sore from my insitions,I get air bubbles when I drink,and my muscles are very sore from compensating for not being able to use my abdominal muscles. But other than that,I'm doing good. I would like to weigh myself,because I feel lighter. But the scale I have here,will not weigh me just yet.I'll post some new pictures when you can see a difference. I think I messed up my profile when I went over to the new one anyways. I need help getting it straightened out. LOL
Well,thanks for stopping by. God Bless. I will post more soon.
Well,thanks for stopping by. God Bless. I will post more soon.
Jan.22,2007 Update
Jan 22, 2007
Hi Everyone,
Thanks for stopping by my profile. Well I know it's been a while since my last update. I'm sorry. I haven't quite got the hang of this new format on here yet. But anyway,I am writting to let everyone know after all this time, I was aproved today by my insurance for the surgery. I will know by the end of the week when my date is. I am so siked right now. Just to think this time next year I will be on the loosing side, and that being a GOOD thing.LOL
Well you all take it easy,and thanks again for reading. God Bless.
Thanks for stopping by my profile. Well I know it's been a while since my last update. I'm sorry. I haven't quite got the hang of this new format on here yet. But anyway,I am writting to let everyone know after all this time, I was aproved today by my insurance for the surgery. I will know by the end of the week when my date is. I am so siked right now. Just to think this time next year I will be on the loosing side, and that being a GOOD thing.LOL
Well you all take it easy,and thanks again for reading. God Bless.
Sept.1,2005
Nov 06, 2006
Sept.1,2005
I had my consultation with my Surgeon -Dr.William Chapman,he was very professional,and busy. He told me that this sergury isn't a quick fix and it will be a life long venture. He asked me if I was ready to make that type of commitment. YES,I AM READY. I have done all kinds of research online,reading,library,you name it. At this visit I also had an EKG,X-Rays,and blood work from artery vein to check oxygen levels.
July 25,2005
Nov 06, 2006
I would like to lose this weight. I am a mother of a great little 4 year old girl. I love life,and am looking forward to living it again,to the fullest.
July 25,2005
I attended the Orientation,to learn more about the process and to be considered as a candidate for Gastric Bypass Surgery,at The Brody School of Medicine,Dept. of Sergery*Obesity Research Program. I was very impressed with the extent of information they provided,also the information on their web site. www.surgery.ecu.edu/morbid.htm
July 25,2005
I attended the Orientation,to learn more about the process and to be considered as a candidate for Gastric Bypass Surgery,at The Brody School of Medicine,Dept. of Sergery*Obesity Research Program. I was very impressed with the extent of information they provided,also the information on their web site. www.surgery.ecu.edu/morbid.htm
About Me
Eden, NC
Location
35.2
BMI
Surgery
02/22/2007
Surgery Date
Sep 30, 2005
Member Since
Before & After
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Me at 365 pre-op,w/my PCP,Dr Leonard Nyland and my Daughter:Leighann
