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My name is Dickie Wayne Snider, I am 40 yrs old, 5'10" and around 350 lb. (give or take a few pounds). I have been overweight for as long as I can remember even as a small child I was considered "chunky". I remember as a small child thinking that the more I are the more energy I would have and being very competitive with 2 older brothers it made scenic to me, never did I think of my over eating becoming a problem and besides my mommy was "fat" so it must be all right.
As I was a child my eating habits just got worse my grandmother instilled in me to not waist food, eat everything on the plate. and if my brothers got anymore than I did I felt cheated. i learned very early i learned that if I told my baby-sitter that I was hungry then she would fix me something to eat, i remember that when my brothers would go to school i would tell my baby-sitter that I was going to school also and she would fix me a PB&J and put in my box and I would go to the TV and watch the 3 stooges.
As I got to school age I was a shy child and would find comfort in food, I was happiest when it was meal time, family was there familiar people were there and no strangers were there. Throughout school I was known as the fat kid, a lot of the kids liked me but I was the fat kid.
When i was about 10yrs old my mother got married again and there was an addition to the family Ben was street smart and saw right through what i had learned to do to get my way with my mother. he was also jealous he wanted it to be just him and her so he was very critical of me. where i would do certain things to get what i wanted my mother would usually give in and I would get my way, but he would recognize this and stand in my way and it made me mad, so i would eat, and it would make me feel in controll.i remember that he would comment that I would weigh 300lbs by the time I was 20, and I think I was.
Ben passed away of a heart attack when I was 18 yrs old even though I resented the way he treated me at times I am glad he came into our lives when he did or there is no telling where I would be now. But it was also a sense of freedom to do as I wanted to a point.
I have learned to eat if i am hungry, i will eat so i wont get hungry, i eat when i am bored, i eat because it is a certain time (lunch time, dinner time etc.) hungry or not, I eat if i am in a situation when every or anybody i am with is eating, if i get done with work or whatever i am doing and am going to eat and i know it will be later that i eat i will stop by McDonalds and get a couple of double cheeseburgers to tide me over until the meal is ready to eat, at times if something catches my eye as I am shopping for food such as candy or sweets i will buy it or them and take them home and binge on it. for example if Mm's catch my eye I will not buy a normal size bag but I will but a large bag and take them home with me so I can binge on them alone.
I work seasonally at nuclear plant outages, so my income is very on and off, i am poor and on unemployment for a few months and then i go on an outage at a nuclear plant and all of a sudden i have a pocket full of money which i have to learn to manage because i know i will be laid off and a period of unemployment is coming, but when i am working i eat good am on the road so i eat out a lot but when i am home i don't want the hassle of cooking so i eat out a lot then too.
over the past year my weight has skyrocketed i have been around 300 lb. for the past so many years but my weight has escalated over the past year, along with my health problems: i have had Diabetes for a number of years and for the majority of those years I ignored it partly because I have no health insurance,
my legs from my knee down have been swelling and I have noticed that as the day goes on the tightness is rising to my lower belly. I have noticed that it is more of a job just to walk my legs seem heavier than they used to be and they seem to be kind of numb at times, i have had arthritis in my left knee for some years at times during the change of climate or rainy days, but i have noticed it a lot more often here lately, and i have noticed that over the past year or two my left hip is hurting and I am having increasingly harder time putting on my shoes and socks of just bending down and picking something up off of the ground. I have been experiencing shortness of breath with very little exertion. I have also noticed that the glare from lights on other cars is just too extreme at times my vision will just go blurry for a moment and then it will come to focus agagin after a moment.when I lay back in bed i feel like fluid is going into my lungs and i start coughing, and i wake up several times during the night (I am also stayin at a hotel currently and the bed is not very comfortable) i get up very early (3 am) so i go to bed around 7:30 or 8 PM and will wake up around 11:30 or 12:00 am and sit on the side of the bed until about 1 or 1:30, sleep until about 2 to 3 am and then get up and go to work, so consequently i have a very hard time staying awake during the day so when i do get off work and driving home i will be knodding while i am driving back to the hotel. and needless to say my blood pressure is high around 180/85 and that is when it is on the better side. and i have trouble going to the bathroom.
I am so miserable i am ready for a change in my life, i feel like 20 lb. of s??t in a 5 LB bag
i have set a date withDr. Roberto Rumbaut in Monterrey Mexico on November 27 2007.
visit him at gastricband.com.
