nwilbar
12/18/06
Dec 17, 2006
I have been to the MGH weigh clinic now for two visits and today they gave me their recomendations for my weight loss. The contraindications that I have will prevent me from having the Lap Band, which is what I initially wanted to do. However, I can have a Gastric Bypass, and I am leaning heavily toward doing it.
Meanwhile, I have not done extremely well with my goals of quitting smoking and cutting out all grazing. I had started smoking again, and then I re-quit. The grazing has been better, but is still an ongoing concern. I keep on holding onto the AA slogan of "we seek progress, rather than pefection".
Now I really have to take the bull by the horns because the weight center team told me that I have to be much more structured about my eating before I can have surgery. They also want me to exercise for an hour a day, five days a week. It's a lot to work on, but I want to prove to them, to myself, and to everybody else that I can do this.
Meanwhile, I have not done extremely well with my goals of quitting smoking and cutting out all grazing. I had started smoking again, and then I re-quit. The grazing has been better, but is still an ongoing concern. I keep on holding onto the AA slogan of "we seek progress, rather than pefection".
Now I really have to take the bull by the horns because the weight center team told me that I have to be much more structured about my eating before I can have surgery. They also want me to exercise for an hour a day, five days a week. It's a lot to work on, but I want to prove to them, to myself, and to everybody else that I can do this.
10/17/06
Oct 17, 2006
Today I was disappointed because I discovered that I have three contraindications that may disqualify me from having surgery. This sent me into a tailspin and I ended up doing some emotional eating. My attitude, in part, was "well, if I can't do the surgery then screw it all!"
But despite the minor setback I had today, I am back on the road to better health. I keep reminding myself that each moment is a new one in which I can make a different and better choice than I perhaps would have in the past. And I need to remember now that whether I am a surgical candidate or not, I am doing this for me. I cannot let my health and my mental health hinge on something that is out of my control.
But despite the minor setback I had today, I am back on the road to better health. I keep reminding myself that each moment is a new one in which I can make a different and better choice than I perhaps would have in the past. And I need to remember now that whether I am a surgical candidate or not, I am doing this for me. I cannot let my health and my mental health hinge on something that is out of my control.
10/13/06
Oct 13, 2006
It has been exactly a week since I have decided to have surgery. It has perhaps been the longest week of my life. I have been so excited and filled with hope, but I feel like the next few months before my initial consult will take an eternity.
In an effort to start working toward better health this week, I managed to quit smoking, cut out all my grazing, and lose 1/2 a pound. I am very proud of myself for doing this all at once.
I was feeling a bit down earlier today - filled with grief about my size/weight, and very frustrated with some obesity-related medical problems. When you get to a point where your realize how uncomfortable you are with your weight, the pain is almost unbearable. But facing the pain is the only way to have the motivation to change.
In an effort to start working toward better health this week, I managed to quit smoking, cut out all my grazing, and lose 1/2 a pound. I am very proud of myself for doing this all at once.
I was feeling a bit down earlier today - filled with grief about my size/weight, and very frustrated with some obesity-related medical problems. When you get to a point where your realize how uncomfortable you are with your weight, the pain is almost unbearable. But facing the pain is the only way to have the motivation to change.
