NiceyDoodle
2 Weeks since my surgery
Mar 06, 2013
I made a broccoli and cheese cream soup - it was delicious! Too bad it was not what my body wanted. I totally rejected it. I even threw it up and couldn't stop throwing it up one day while I was working. I had to call my job and tell them why I wasn't working. My heart rate jumped up to 105bpm, it was horrible!
Next day I just had bouillon. I was afraid to eat cream soups.
I gained from all the salt in that bouillon, and it was heart breaking. I knew it was just water retention but still.
Then today, I got on the scale and my weight was 289lbs!! Let's recap my journey shall we?
Jan 23rd - booked my surgery, told the nutritionist and surgeon I weighed 308lbs (last time I looked)
Jan 24th - weighed myself, actual weight was 321lbs.
Jan 25th - began pre-op diet of protein shakes, green veggies and chicken breast.
Feb 17th - weighed 300lbs
Feb 19th - day of surgery, weighed in at 299lbs
Mar 6th - weighed in at 289lbs.
That is a 32lb loss in just 1 month and 1 week! However, I don't see the weight loss anywhere on my body except for my face. I haven't been measuring my body parts, so maybe that is where its from. I tried on jeans and they feel the same. I don't know. Its still good.
I think I am averaging about 3lbs per week loss, I should make my goal weight set by my Dr of 189lbs in one year. I think I will hit that by November. Now, that thought is exciting!
I am excited to start the soft food stage on March 12th. I am living for that day, to have eggs and oatmeal. I love having breakfast and having a protein shake and a green tea just aren't doing it for me. I am so over protein shakes, but I absolutely need them. I am not getting enough protein or other nutrients right now otherwise. Which will stall my weight loss and make me feel horrible. I look forward to be able to mix that powder in with a smoothie vs water. I am using coconut water as that is allowed on my post op diet instead of regular water, that helps.
But watching my family eat regular food is torture. My birthday is this month and I desperately wanted a re do at that cool new pizza place The Rock. I wanted to go back and have their garlic bread, knowing I wouldn't be able to eat much of it, but I just want that tasty morsel in my mouth.....
But then I was reading about this girl who ordered small fries and how it got stuck and the panic attack that followed. Members of this community berated her for her choice, and I stood up for her. This lady posted about how we have to stop thinking about food that way, how its a slippery slope to try our old foods. We can't handle it or much of it now, but over time we will be able to eat more of it, tolerate it. Then we are eating like we did before, and what was the point of the surgery? It was a very enlightening post she made, so much so I canceled a restaurant all together out. Instead, I will cook at home. I shared a Pinterest board with my friends who are coming over and told them they had to pick an item to make from my approved foods so I won't have to suffer on my birthday and we can all eat the same yummy foods. Upon making that decision, I felt empowered. I have a goal, and I want to meet it. I am not doing this 21 day liquid diet, drinking those damn shakes for nothing!!
I will eat healthier and I will lose over 100 lbs.
