NeffPuff
1 week and 4 days post op
Jun 02, 2012
Well I must say that the recovery for the surgery was a bit more painful than what I had expected, but it's been getting better each day. As the time goes on I notice that I am gaining my strength back but when I try to do too much, my energy goes away. The first week was freaking torture. That liquid diet thing was killing me. I missed chewing soooo much. Luckily my doctor has put me on soft proteins, which is far easier to deal with that only having liquids, but I just hope it doesn't get old too fast. Yesterday I went to the gym for a little while. I only did the elyptical and the bike, which is a lot less than what I normally do but I found that I was pooped afterwards. I mean, exhausted. I barely made it to my front door afterwards. I had to sit down on the bed a bit to wait for my energy to come back. That sucked. The whole rest of the day I felt pretty good tho.
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Soooo.... I have a surgery date and stuff....
May 07, 2012
So I have my surgery date. It's funny, because I've been trying to get this done for about a year now; I went through all my classes and lost all my required weight and then some, I've tried sooooo freaking hard to not fuck myself over in any way shape or form, ANXIOUS AS HELL to get my surgery date and when the time finally came to meet with my surgeon and he gave it to me, it felt like it was too soon. It made me feel like I'm such a piece of chicken shit. Like I'm all talk and no action. I think I just have a case of the jitters. I"ve never had any kind of surgery before... I can't even decide what I'm more nervous about, dying on the table or dying afterwards of dehydration or something. I know I most likely won't, but you never know.... I'm a negative nancy like that.
Not only was it a pain in the ass to get my surgery date, but these next couple of weeks are gonna be tough. I have so much shit I have to do. There is nothing I hate more than having a full schedule. I overwhelm easy. Everything from appointments to shopping for all the stuff I'm gonna need for afterwards and work and stuff... sheesh. It will be worth it, thats for sure but fuuuck this next week is gonna suck hard. I cant wait till May 22nd to get it all overwith....
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Not only was it a pain in the ass to get my surgery date, but these next couple of weeks are gonna be tough. I have so much shit I have to do. There is nothing I hate more than having a full schedule. I overwhelm easy. Everything from appointments to shopping for all the stuff I'm gonna need for afterwards and work and stuff... sheesh. It will be worth it, thats for sure but fuuuck this next week is gonna suck hard. I cant wait till May 22nd to get it all overwith....
First Post! yay!
Jan 11, 2012
Well I'm not really sure what to say? I'm currently takin classes once a week, *On fridays, early in the morning... tis lame* to prepare me for life before and after surgery. Its a total of 12 classes that I have to do, and so far, I'm down to my last 2. Afterwards, I'll be going in for a butt ton of lab test and blah blah blah blah.....
Ive lost about 25 pounds by being in the class. I cant believe it. Who would have thought that just by eating a little different, I'd lose some weight. I'm not letting that sway me from getting the surgery, of course. I know myself too damn well. I've gone on the weight loss roller coaster too many times. I'll lose a little weight, gain it back with twice the vengence. I guess it misses me or something. (it does.) I, however, am done. done. done. done.
I'm actually pretty nervous about getting surgery though. If you would have asked me 2 years ago if i would ever get weight loss surgery, I probably would have said, "Weight loss surgery is for lazy a-holes that dont know how to suck it up and tough it out.".... I considered it the easy way out. I know now, after many failed attempts to lose weight on my own, failing, getting deppressed, hating myself for the failure, ect. that I'm not in control the way I thought I was. Food has some kind of power over me. It wins every time. Just seeing it in front of me sparked a lust comparable to watching my first porno... I want it, gotta have it, give it to me, or I'll kill you....
Things are getting easier though. Since I've been in my "fat class", *people hate it when I call it that, but I don't care.* I've learned how to eat properly. I learned about portion control, carbs, protein, sugars, fats, and all that jazz.... I thought I knew about that kind of crap, but I guess I didnt. It's also easier to gain control of yourself when you know you have to stand on a scale and stare at a hot, perfect dietician as she writes your weight down and does the math in her head to find out if youve gained or lost. Its a lot of pressure, I'll tell you that. I feel sorry for the mofo's that got fatter. the look of shame, my god. Luckily for me, I havent been one of those fatties yet. In fact, you can call me a star pupil because I've only lost weight since the class started. I'm not sure how, considering I've slipped up many of times. Burgers are my weakness. I loooove burgers. I would sleep on a bed of cheeseburgers the night before my surgery if I could. Just to get it out of my system.... Just kidding... or am I?
Anyway, I was supposed to work out this morning, but its one of those days where you just don't feel like it, you know? I know you know. I will tomorrow though. maybe....
I'm not sure if anyone will ever read this. I feel kind of dumb typing the random crap that pops into my head as if someone is gonna read it, but I've been reading everyone elses timeline thingie and it seems like i'm doing it right. I'm not sure though. I plan to be pretty regular on here, but you never know. I'm pretty lazy.
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Ive lost about 25 pounds by being in the class. I cant believe it. Who would have thought that just by eating a little different, I'd lose some weight. I'm not letting that sway me from getting the surgery, of course. I know myself too damn well. I've gone on the weight loss roller coaster too many times. I'll lose a little weight, gain it back with twice the vengence. I guess it misses me or something. (it does.) I, however, am done. done. done. done.
I'm actually pretty nervous about getting surgery though. If you would have asked me 2 years ago if i would ever get weight loss surgery, I probably would have said, "Weight loss surgery is for lazy a-holes that dont know how to suck it up and tough it out.".... I considered it the easy way out. I know now, after many failed attempts to lose weight on my own, failing, getting deppressed, hating myself for the failure, ect. that I'm not in control the way I thought I was. Food has some kind of power over me. It wins every time. Just seeing it in front of me sparked a lust comparable to watching my first porno... I want it, gotta have it, give it to me, or I'll kill you....
Things are getting easier though. Since I've been in my "fat class", *people hate it when I call it that, but I don't care.* I've learned how to eat properly. I learned about portion control, carbs, protein, sugars, fats, and all that jazz.... I thought I knew about that kind of crap, but I guess I didnt. It's also easier to gain control of yourself when you know you have to stand on a scale and stare at a hot, perfect dietician as she writes your weight down and does the math in her head to find out if youve gained or lost. Its a lot of pressure, I'll tell you that. I feel sorry for the mofo's that got fatter. the look of shame, my god. Luckily for me, I havent been one of those fatties yet. In fact, you can call me a star pupil because I've only lost weight since the class started. I'm not sure how, considering I've slipped up many of times. Burgers are my weakness. I loooove burgers. I would sleep on a bed of cheeseburgers the night before my surgery if I could. Just to get it out of my system.... Just kidding... or am I?
Anyway, I was supposed to work out this morning, but its one of those days where you just don't feel like it, you know? I know you know. I will tomorrow though. maybe....
I'm not sure if anyone will ever read this. I feel kind of dumb typing the random crap that pops into my head as if someone is gonna read it, but I've been reading everyone elses timeline thingie and it seems like i'm doing it right. I'm not sure though. I plan to be pretty regular on here, but you never know. I'm pretty lazy.
