Neaucora
Its now 2016. WOW! I decided to have my surgery after years of health problems and ridicule. But the most horrible experience was when my son assaulted me. We were in court and his defense attorney was using my weight and size as a weapon against me. (5 ft 7 and weighed 260 lbs) My son had jumped up, got in my face, standing over me screaming at me. He shoved me, kicked me in my hip and knocked me down. I'd had enough, and had him arrested and sent back to juvvy. He didnt want to stay there and now in court had a split lip and other injuries either he gave himself or had someone do for him. But of course he said I did it. And the defense attorney was saying how I was such a "large woman" and gave my son no other option. He was scared for his safety. Absolutely humiliating. Later that day as I sat crying alone. I vowed to start the program and get my surgery. I had originally decided on the sleeve. In fact I went through the whole program with the sleeve in mind. And then 2 weeks before surgery I met all these people whom the sleeve had not been a lasting result. They had stretched out their stomachs, reverted to old habits, put back on alot of weight and were now on the road to have the RNY (bypass) surgery. I took it as a sign from above and told my patient advocate and my Dr I wanted the gastric bypass instead. They said it was of course my choice and thats what I had done in April of 2012 as planned. The surgery was good. Of course I was sore afterwards, but who isnt. The few weeks afterwards seemed like hell. And I wished of course I had not of done it. But as I see in the forums, we all seem to think that while we heal and recover. Its now 2016, I am at 145 lbs and staying steady. I got down to 136 lbs. But I looked awful and felt awful. I stayed there till my body equalized itself out. And I put on weight slowly back up to 145/146 and have been this weight for 3 years now. WOW! lol I have been diagnosed with Rhuemetoid Arthritis, Fibromyalgia, Osteo-Arthritis. I also have PTSD, depression, and insomnia. But everything is controlled well. And I am so glad I had the surgery when I did. If I had waited any longer, it would have been alot harder to exercise ect. I used lotion religiously on my skin, and my main exercise was swimming. I really think the swimming was the best form. It exercises all the muscles in your body. And I didnt do laps for hours. I would go in and hold onto edge and just move legs back and forth. Or stand and move my arms. Then I started swimming (doggy paddle mostly) slow laps. Id usually be exhausted half way through and would tread water for a bit. Then when I got to the other side I would rest, then head back. I then would doggy paddle one way and then float on back and just use my legs to go back. Then I added the arms doing the backstroke. Then after awhile I started doing the side swim. Just things I remembered from like swimming classes in highschool. Slowly I got to the point I was swimming for an hour. Not fast, but I did an hours worth. Still took breaks. I really think that combined with the lotion helped my skin shrink along with me. I did not have any cosmetic surgery afterwards. I would like my boobs back! lol, they are pretty sad looking but oh well. I do have to get iron infusions. But my low iron and my thin hair are because of medications and treatment for my Rhuemetoid Arthritis. I currently am not working. Filing for disability. But I do take care of our horses, goats, chickens, dogs and cats. We also rescue reptiles and foster animals in need. They keep me going. And pretty busy, lol. I am thankful for this gift of modern medicine. This second chance of life. I am doing my best to make the most of it. I still struggle with head hunger, and lack of self love and worth. But we all have our demons. Dont forget that. None of us are perfect or complete. And remember too, that everyday comes to an end. No matter how bad the day is, it will end. And you will get through anything! =)
About Me
Before & After
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