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March 2009
Mar 25, 2009
Adrian and I are doing well. We are working together and learning each other, but I am still so in love with him. He is my best friend! I'm looking forward to my future with him. Our family! :o) I guess I will close this post now... Will try to post more often but my life is so full now... It's hard to make the time... but I will try...
As far as my weight... I put on 45 pounds throughout my pregnancy and so far I've gotten back down to 182. I started at about 164 when I first got pregnant... So I have about 20 pounds to get back to where I started. I'm not loving that but I know it could be worse and I really haven't been trying. So if would get my butt in gear and focus on it, I can get it off. Got to get back to the basics... :o)
September 2008
Sep 04, 2008
09/04/2008: I know, I know... I don't update as much as I should anymore. But it just seems like there is just so much to get prepared for. I am now just about 25 weeks. Only 15 more to go and my beautiful son will come into the world. Yep, it's a boy and we are exstatic! His name is Adrian Michael Guillermo Vizcarra. After daddy and both grandpas.
I've put on 25 pounds, which for me is hard to accept but Dr says I'm doing just fine. So I'm trying to be careful. I won't say I love being pregnant but it hasn't been a horrible experience like some have... so... Just waiting out these last few months. :o)
July 2008
Jul 15, 2008
I can't believe how happy I am with him... Don't get me wrong we have our days where we get on eachothers nerves... but for the most part we get along incredibly well!
I guess that is my little update so far... :o)
June 2008
Jun 16, 2008
Adrian and I will be getting married sometime before the baby is born also! So, it wasn't exactly planned, but we really are so excited! We are hoping for a boy, but I will be happy with either!
It is going to be a very long 6 1/2 more months... Urg!
April 2008
Apr 18, 2008
March 2008
Mar 10, 2008
Now I know, if there is anyone in my inner circle that actually reads this journal... They probably won't be too happy with this... One because he is not from the church and two... because its not their way... But i've just come a decision in my life that I'm doing things my way from now on... Not everyone elses way. Sorry... Actually, for the first time in my life... I'm not sorry. Okay... Enough about that...
So the scale this morning said 161... which is normal... the fluctuation... Not that I am happy with it... but it is normal! Will keep you posted on the other... <3
3/18/2008: So, I thought I would update again. Still on cloud nine... I'm loving this feeling. His name is Adrian. He is divorced and has two younger daughters... At first I almost din't give him the time of day, cause of the kids part... Just wasn't sure I wanted to get involved with that... but I'm so glad I did now... I can't believe how happy how makes me. All the colors in my world are a little brighter because of him. I love spending time with him. He makes me wanna be better... A better person in every way. It's soo funny I've never had anyone feel about me the way he feels. He absolutely adores me. I can see it... Everytime he looks at me, I see it in his eyes. It shows in the things he does, in the way he treats me. It is just magical. We both realize that it is super intense rather quickly, but we both don't care... Who wrote the dating rule book anyway... who said what is "normal" and what is not. We've decided to throw out the book and just run with it. I mean it is official... He is my boyfriend. I am so excited to see where this leads. <3
Well, the scale still says 161 but I guess that is good. It hasn't gone up and I really need to try and get my butt to the gym. I need to tone! I still want to hit 145 pounds... but I think to get there I really have to work... I keep saying that I am going to, but I'm lazy... That is the bottom line... but I'm going to work on it.
3/27/2008: Well, this was rather an intense week... I've met his daughters, his mother, and the ex all in the last week. It was crazy. I guess it is good and it needed to be done eventually. I really think that this will be going some where so I am excited... I'm totally crazy about his daughters... They are the cutest things in the world. And they like me just as much... The mom part was really akward... but I think it will get better. And the ex wasn't by choice but more by circumstance... At least it is out of the way... No hard feelings toward her... just indifferent... but I'm so excited for what is happening right now.
The scale said 163... up again... I really need to be careful and get it back down again... Although it is normal for me to fluctuate around five pounds up and down... but I don't want it to stay up... I like when it is down!
February 2008
Feb 11, 2008
02/11/2008: Well, it has been a crazy month. I am finally back to work. Which is a good thing for me. Having all that time off was not so good for my mental well being... Way too much time to think... At least when I am at work I have something to keep my mind occupied.
Good thing... I got on the scale this moring and it said 161 pounds... Yes... A few more and I will be at my goal. I still think I want to shoot for 145. For the first time in my life I want to be considered thin. I know when people read this they are going to think I'm crazy... but if you don't know what it's like to be so heavy and then have an opportunity like this... I just can't explain it. Why not be the best I can be. Although... I am realizing that even being thin doesn't fix all our problems. Even being the size I am I still can't make someone love me... And I'm still alone. Which is crazy... It then makes me start to wonder what the heck is wrong with me? See I used to think I was single because I was too fat... now I'm not and still no one is really interested in me... Is my personality really that bad? Seriously... This has been my mental battle for the last few months... I didn't realize that it would eat at me like it does. It really bugs me. IF I have to change something then can someone please tell me what... Cause I am on the slow train and I just don't know what the problem with me is. HELP! Maybe the problem is that I am just not happy with myself... I don't know. I don't know how to fix it... but I do know that I don't want to end up an old maid and I'm not getting any youger... What is a girl to do?
Okay, enough about that stuff. It just gives me a headache to think about it. URG!
2/19/2008: Well... Quite excited today... I got on the scale and it said.... DRUM ROLL PLEASE>>> 159.................... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I broke the 200 pound mark. I have lost 201 pounds... Oh my freakin' gosh! Oh the joy I have right now... Seriously I have only 14 more pounds to go to get to my ultimate goal of 145 pounds... Rock star... I'm hot... status. Thank God... Very Very close... Now I need to just work on getting my head fixed... Mentally and spiritually... :o)
January 2008
Jan 01, 2008
01/4/2008: Okay... So I'm home and ready to update. I ended up spending the night in the hospital. Dr. said he made a mistake in telling me I would be coming home the same day. But you know, I'm glad that I stayed because I felt so much better... At least I got to see them empty my drains a felt a lot better than just sending me home. My mom actually came to town to help me. It feels weird to have everyone fussing over me. I'm so independant so it is a little hard for me...
I finally got to take a shower today and got a chance to look at my incision and my tummy seems so flat... I know I still have some swelling but I think it is going to look so much better than my gross pouch. I still can't believe all this has happened. I just don't believe it. I also got on the scale but I still have so much fluids in me that the scale said I still weighed 172 pounds. Dr. Taylor said he took off about five pounds of skin. YUCK!!!!! We'll see.
01/21/2008: Well, it has been a few weeks since surgery... I'm feeling much better. I've finally put on regular pants... but the incision is still a little tender. I feel good. The scale says 164 pounds, Which is great! I still want to lose another 10-15 pounds... but we will see. I can't wait to be able to get back to the gym. So I can tone my tummy and I can run again... now with out the yucky bouncy flab... Yippie!
December 2007
Dec 13, 2007
The scale this morning said 170... I want try and drop another 5-10 pounds by then but I know that is probably not going to happen. Hopefully at least 5 pounds to get me back down to 165... But we will see...
Oh, I'm not looking forward to the pain part... but I know after it is all said and done... it is going to be worth it... :o)
November 2007
Nov 15, 2007
Anyway... Other BIG news... I went to the consultation with Kaiser for the plastics... OMG! I left there on cloud nine... For one... HE was Dr. McDreamy... Seriously! Like absolutely gorgeous! In fact while I was talking with him... The only thought going through my mmind was... "Great this gorgeous Dr. is going to be looking at my disgusting tummy soon." It was hillarious! But anyway, two, They are going to do a full tummy tuck... That was my biggest fear... I didn't want just the pannelectomy... If I was going to do... Then I want it done right... Dr. said that whe I walk out of his office my tummy is going to look the best it can... YES! Third, I asked Dr. what the fight was going to be to get the insurance to cover... He loked at me and said," All I have to do is turn in your paperwork, and you'll go on a waiting list, they call you to schedule, the first appt. will be for paper work and the next appt will be the surgery. There is no fight!" I wanted to kiss him. I was so excited! So... Then... I got a call three days later to schedule... THREE DAYS! They wanted to schedule for the following week... I was like whoa, that is tooo soon... So then they said Dec. 3rd... I almost jumped on it, but then I realized thast I was still in class and I didn't want to drop all the work I've done for my two classes so I have to wait until January. So, inside I want to get it done and over with, but I guess patience is a virtue... So I'm gonna wait it out... But it will only be a little over a month away... I can handle it.
So that is my update... Big news, right. Then there is other news... Just not ready to share that stuff, yet. Don't want to jinx it.
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