mybestself
I turned 50 this year and hit the big 3-5-0. 
OMG! I can console myself that it was with my sneakers on, but close enough!! Not that I needed to see that to get motivated. Just getting in and out of my car, let alone trying to put on the seatbelt, among a thousand other things is motivation enough.
I'm still trying to get over the anger at myself for allowing my past success to slip between my fingers once again. In 2003 I lost 135 and felt GREAT! 
I got rid of all my fat clothes and felt I had finally done it. I not only could shop anywhere, I actually couldn't shop at LB, Catherine's or the Avenue, cause their clothes were too big. That felt great, but oddly unsettling.
I did this using Medifast which was great, but when I went back to food after building back slowly, I found myself with the same temptations and the same weaknesses. I was back on the roller coaster 
This spring my doctor yelled at me saying 'Stop trying to do it yourself! You can't. Get the GB.' My opinions of GB were formed by someone saying to me years ago 'Never get a GB, yadda yadda yadda...' and a friend who has severe malabsorption issues as a result. Also I was under a false impression that it was still for the rich and famous. But after the lecture by my doctor I did my research and went to some seminars. I had no idea it had become so common place and that people far less heavy than I were having this surgery. That did it.
Fast forward past months of job and insurance changes, and family health crises. With my husband and I destined to be insured by the same carrier for at least 6 months I figured, now's the time to go for it. The bottom line? I was approved in 24 hours!! My surgery is December 15, 2008. So the real ride begins...
