Pink Jedi
Recovering
Nov 18, 2009
So I had my surgery on Monday and I'm home from the hospital as of this morning... I'm doing ok.. but I'm really sore in my neck and back from the Anasthesia and my fibromyalgia... falling asleep is nice when I can but waking up I always feel like I got hit by a mac truck.. I dunno if that's because of my fibro or if it's normal or a little of both...I really couldn't say... I'm not drinking much except water and a few sips of protien drinks... I need to get on track with that so I don't get sick but today is day one home so I'm taking it easy... the worst part so far has been the air in my tummy causing pain the first day or so after surgery but a lot of unladylike belching and farting was required and I feel better for it... the pain meds really do work so I'm taking them... at this point I'm not really concerned with weight loss or food I just want to stop feeling like crap... I hope in the next day or so home I start to feel somewhat normal again.... my nurses were amazing, kind and patient.. my hospital stay was pleasent for what it was..I mean obviously I was in pain and no one likes being in the hospital but as far as hospital stays go I'd rate this one top notch as far as care and experience... anyways I'll try to keep this blog up to date..but I've never been good at that sorta thing... for now I'm going to rest a bit
~Lissa~
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SURGERY APPROVED!!!
Oct 06, 2009
Wow so this is my first Blog here.. I figured what better time to start than the day I get my surgery approval! It has been one HELL of a long and tough journey to get here... I guess let me start from where I came FROM at least from this standpoint lol... I'm a 27 year old Wife and Mother of a GORGEOUS and insanely brilliant 3 year old little girl (I know all parents say that but ZOMG she really is a genius for her age) Anyways.. I have been over weight my entire life from about first grade to current. I am currently weighing in at about 306lbs (last I checked but that was over a month ago since my primary and only scale was my Wii Fit and my daughter broke my Wii) but anyways.. I'm around there and possibly a little less... My heighest weight was 356lbs about a year ago.. I lost 50lbs due to A.D.D. medication that had seriously adverse side effects when it came to appetite. I had NONE. I know that sounds like a dream but honestly being repulsed by food and being vitamin deficient etc. is not good juju... Anyways I had always been a very active person.. when I was younger I road my mountain bike for miles and miles every day around the city just hanging out with friends, walked, played sports etc. into my adult years where I would walk just about 10 miles throughout the day because I didn't have a car and I was in college and working full time and really didn't like the bus... and eating fairly healthy all the while it never occured to me that I was still over 200lbs.. I thought maybe because I didn't work out (even though when I was 17 I had a personal trainer that I worked with 2 hours a day 6 days a week while doing weight watchers and still did not shed a pound) that maybe it was just my fault etc...I never gained large ammounts quickly I gained it slowly and perportionately till I'd notice it gradually when it was too late...then just after I had my daughter the nightmare really began (not her of course she was an angel LOL), I being packing on the pounds and FAST.. we're talking 2+ lbs in a DAY... by 6 months I had put on 100lbs.. I hadn't changed my diet, I'd limited my excersize but that was because I was learing to be a mom for the first time...and 100lbs in 6 months just doesn't add up... then my memory started going.. my short term memory got so bad that I was honestly scared... I started having all kinds of other weird problems too and then I had a HEEEAAVY period for 1 year and 7 month's straight which was like OMFG! so I decided to start seeing Dr's .. and find out what the heck...every one of them told me that it was because I was overweight... so I decide that I'm just tired of being miserable and I start the ball rolling for bariatric surgery... this surgeon's office basicly drops the ball on telling me what needs to happen and over a year goes by with nothing going on... then they finally submit and submit for the WRONG procudure.. by this point I'd finally been diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) and they had submitted me for a lapband when I wanted the Gastric Bypass and with PCOS a lap band wouldn't work anyways because I also had insulin resistance... so I'm like ok screw this mess if you don't now what procedure you're doing you're certainly not cutting me open!! So I switched to my current surgeon and after a few months of doing what I should have already been doing... My Surgery is Approved!!!!!!! In the course of those tests one of my Dr's and I were discussing what I'm most looking forward to about losing weight..and my answer was easy.. to be rid of the physical pain I'm in from carrying this weight...after some time and some questions the Dr. deduced that I have Fibromyalgia (I later got a 2nd and 3rd opinion confirming that) Fibromyalgia is a condition that causes your brain to fire off pain signals to your entire body 24/7... something else all the other Dr's chalked up to my size was my pain... so anyways needless to say I've been fighting this battle for approval, fighting through appointment after appointment and the waiting game of approval etc.... I've battled depression the most because I've been so sick for so long with no hope in sight... and finally there is a glimmer of hope that I'll have a real life again..... I mean let's set aside for a moment the fact that I'll be healthier and happier but I'll also not have to deal with people staring at me like I'm a thing, treating me badly because of my size, or having to doubt myself in certain situations just because I know that with this size comes limitations... like not getting to rid carnival rides with your family, or being stared at in clothing stores and restraunts like you shouldn't be allowed in them... I'm actually a very confident person I mean I have hot pink hair and I'm not concerned what others think of me...but that doesn't make the stares, sneers, and treatments hurt any less..I'm still human... though they don't tend to think so now and then...Anyways my surgery is going to be on the 26th of this month and I'm about to start a new journey!! I'm soooooooooooo excited... and honestly as long as it took.. it's happening at exactly the right time in my life.. I've learned SO MUCH about who I am and what I can do in the last 3 years that losing the weight and getting some of my health back will be the last puzzle piece needed to live my life exactly the way I want to!!! (I say some of my health back because Fibro unfortunately will be there still however I'm hoping to a lesser degree) Anyways I plan to blog during my journey the best I can so that I can help others going through this, and so I can look back on this some time from now sitting in whatever awesome outift my gorgeous body will be wearing LOL and reflect... here I come world!! watch out! hehe
~Lissa~
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