msloriann
Much, Much Later...
Apr 29, 2008
I woke up on the day of surgery at 285 lbs. On April 25- exactly one month out- I weighed 260. (!!!) A loss of 25 lbs! I was so very very happy. Today, April 29, I weigh 257. I am eating almost entirely protein, as my nutritionist has instructed me. I get really very tired of cottage cheese, yogurt, tuna and chicken but I don't care! I actually feel lighter, and my blood pressure (which has been problematic for 8 years or so) was 118/70! Cool. The aggravation, post-op pain, and anxiety were completely worth it. I haven't felt so good in years. I will try and write a separate blog just about my surgery day, hospital stay and immediate post-op experience.
I just feel so good!
Initial Appointment Today
Jun 11, 2007
Had my initial appt today with NEMC psychologist. Had to fill out a bunch of paperwork. Got registered for a 5 wk behavioral mod. lecture series. Got weighed on their scale. I weigh more on their scale than at my MD's. Oh well. Psychologist, Dr Kaplan, was very very nice. She did inform me that I scored SEVERE ( and then she said, no... REALLLY severe) in binge eating disorder. hmmmm. then she said because of that, I have to hook up with a therapist bi wkly or monthly to make sure that I am not going to go off the deep end without food. LOLOL yeah I am there already!!!!
They said looks like August or Sept for surg date if all goes well. They said approval will be no problem provided I go to all the appts and classes and lose some weight. I'm supposed to lose 30 lbs starting today, and I don't have the slightest idea where to start as I haven't seen the nutritionist yet. I am going to wing it the way I know how, low fat low cal lotsa water stay away from sugar and white flour. Right??? 
They say attitude is everything, and my gosh I am trying so hard. I have met some very cool people on this website, and the Yahoo groups GastricBypass and Smallbites. Smallbites is only for the patients in my program. I feel fortunate to have found all these people, I am not alone, I can DO this.
Waiting and wondering...
Jun 10, 2007
Here I am again. Waiting and wondering. I have my very first appointment tomorrow at New England Medical Center for a psychology study. And then on to the next round of appointments. Right now it seems like a very long process. I am still determined to do this. I'm kind of nervous about getting to this hospital, it's smack in the middle of Boston and I live in the suburbs. 
I've driven there before but I don't like it. So easy to get lost. I don't know if I am gaining or losing now. I haven't weighed because I don't have a scale; I am getting obsessed with the food thing again, as I always do when I start to diet. It really does drive me crazy, and probably everyone around me, too. One day at a time, Lori!
Right now John (my BF) and I are going out for the day, probably to walk the canal down the Cape, and to a flea market. Life goes on, I am depressed today, and this too shall pass. 
Well, here I am...
May 28, 2007
I knew I'd probably do this weight loss surgery someday, but it's been a long process to make up my mind. Now that I'm finally at that point, I want everything to happen at lightning speed, and it's not. I just tried taking a new pic of myself and uploading it... I can't even look at pictures of myself anymore. Ugh. Well, positive thinking. I am so excited about this whole process, and I am grateful I have the help. New England Medical Center is supposed to be one of the best places in the world for this. I am determined, and I can do it. I WILL do it.
