HELLO ALL......WELL IT HAS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I HAVE UPDATED MY PROFILE, BUT NOW I FEEL IT IS TIME. THERE HAS BEEN SO MUCH GOING ON WITH MY BODY AND HEALTH THAT I NEED TO SHARE IT.
FIRST LET ME SAY, THAT I AM STILL HAPPY THAT I HAD THE WLS, BUT THESE LAST 6 WEEKS HAVE BEEN PURE HELL.
I HAVE BEEN MAINTAINING MY WEIGHT AS OF ABOUT 12 WEEKS AGO.....I NOTICED THAT I STARTED LOOSING SOME WEIGHT, WELL ENOUGH TO BE WORRIED ABOUT....SO AS ANY NORMAL PERSON WOULD DO, I CONTACTED MY SURGEON......AND I DID.......
WELL, I WENT IN THINKING THAT THEY WOULD HELP ME, I NEEDED TO FIND OUT IF SOMETHING MAY BE WRONG WITH ME.....I WAS VERY WORRIED SINCE I HAD LOST MORE THAN I THOUGHT WAS NORMAL. MY DOCTOR DECIDED TO PUT ME IN THE HOSPITAL TO RUN SOME TESTS ON ME AND TO PUT ME ON A "FEEDING REGIMENT".....YEA WHATEVER.....THEY DID NOTHING...JUST SENT ME 3 MEALS A DAY...THEY WANTED TO CHECK TO SEE IF I HAD A "MALABSORPTION" PROBLEM, IF MY BODY WAS NOT KEEPING THE CALORIES, AND THEN THEY CHECKED FOR OTHER PROBLEMS AS WELL.......WELL.....ALL MY LABS CAME BACK JUST GREAT....SO NO BAD NEWS.....I WAS EATING IN THE HOSPITAL, UNTIL THE DID A SCOPE ON ME WHICH I FEEL WAS NEEDLESS.....BECAUSE I WAS SICK ALL DAY AFTER THAT....COULD NOT EAT OR DRINK AND I THREW UP ALL DAY AND NIGHT....AND HAD TO BEG THEM TO PUT AN I.V. IN ME BECAUSE I HAD DEHYDRATED....SO AFTER MIDNIGHT I GOT ONE.....I FEEL I SHOULD HAVE HAD ONE ALL ALONG.....BUT I DIDN'T.
SINCE ALL MY LABS WERE GREAT, THE THOUGHT IT WAS DEPRESSION, WHICH IS WAS AND IS NOT. I HAD A GREAT NEW JOB, AND HAD GONE BACK TO MY BOWLING LEAGUE ON WED. NIGHTS....I WAS SO VERY VERY HAPPY. I WAS JUST CONCERNED AS TO WHY I WAS LOOSING WEIGHT AGAIN..........SO LONG STORY SHORT, THEY WANTED ME TO DRINK HIGH CALORIE AND PROTEIN DRINKS....WELL THAT MADE ME SICK, BECAUSE I WAS EATING VERY WELL AND DRINKING WHAT I NEEDED TOO....SO.....THEN THEY HAD THIS BRIGHT IDEA TO PUT A FEEDING TUBE IN ME.......OH MY GOD....THAT WAS AND HAS BEEN THE DOWN FALL FOR ME.....THE PAST 4 WEEKS HAVE BEEN A LIVING HELL FOR ME.....MY BODY REJECTED THE TUBE, SINCE I WAS ALWAYS ABLE TO EAT BY MOUTH, WHEN I USED THE TUBE MY BODY WOULD "GO INTO SHOCK" BECAUSE I WAS GETTING "TOO MUCH" IN MY BODY........SO.....IT REJECTED IT.....I WOULD BECOME VIOLENTLY ILL...I MEAN SOOOOOOO SICK. I WOULD HAVE MASSIVE DIARAHA, AND WOULD BE SICK LIKE I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN, MY BODY WOULD CRAMP COMPLETLY UP, AND I COULD NOT FUNCTION AT ALL FOR HOURS. BUT I WAS DOING WHAT I WAS TOLD TO DO.....UNTIL I JUST COULD NOT TAKE IT ANYMORE AND WAS TOLD BY ANOTHER DOCTOR THAT I SHOULD HAVE NEVER HAD THE TUBE PUT IN TO BEGIN WITH....I HAVE BEEN IN AND OUT OF THE HOSPITAL, AND I AM SO SICK OF BEING SICK.......THE PAIN FROM THIS TUBE SOMETIMES IS UNBEARABLE, I WOULD NOT EVEN WISH THIS ON MY WORSE ENEMY.....IT IS THAT BAD.....SO I AM STUCK WITH A TUBE THAT I CAN'T USE AND IT HAS TO STAY IN ME FOR 6 WEEKS UNTIL IT CAN BE REMOVED. SO, I WILL BE GETTING IT OUT ON THE 29TH...THANK GOD.
MY DOCTOR'S HAVE NOT BEEN VERY NICE ABOUT THE WHOLE ORDEAL, BUT DID ADMIT THEY SHOULD NOT HAVE PUT THE TUBE IN......AND THEREFORE, I DID CONTACT AN ATTORNEY WHO HAS TAKEN "MY CASE".....SHE IS ALSO A RETIRED R.N. AND IS VERY FAMILIAR WITH THE WLS. I HAVE HAD 2 "UN NEEDED" SURGERIES DONE TO ME IN THE LAST 6 WEEKS.....AND I HAVE SUFFERED AND NOT BENEFITED FROM EITHER ONE OF THEM.....ACTUALLY I HAVE DONE WORSE SINCE.....I HAVE NOT BEEN THIS SICK SINCE I HAD THE WLS 17 MONTHS AGO...IT HAS BEEN PURE HELL!!!!
THEY WHOLE THING WAS,IS THAT I NEEDED TO GAIN SOME WEIGHT....ALL IT REALLY AMOUNTED TO IS THAT I WENT BACK TO WORK AND BOWLING, AND I WAS MORE ACTIVE THAN I HAD BEEN......THAT IS THE REASON I WAS LOOSING......THEY WANTED TO MAKE IT OUT TO BE MORE THAN IT WAS.....AND THEY ARE MAKING ALOT OF MONEY OFF ME AS WELL......MY DOCTOR ALSO HAD ME SO MENTALLY UNSTABLE AT ONE TIME, TELLING ME THAT I DO NOT EAT....AS IF SHE LIVED WITH ME....LIKE SHE KNEW.....AND ME AND MY FAMILY WOULD HAVE TO YELL AT HER TO "CONVINCE" HER THAT I DO EAT, AND EAT A LOT!! SHE ACTED LIKE I WAS DOING THIS TO MYSELF......AND ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS SEE WHAT WAS WRONG AND TRY TO PUT SOME POUNDS BACK ON.....
IT GOT SO BAD.....I WAS SOOOOOO DEPRESSED.....SUICIDE WAS IN MY MIND MANY TIMES, I COULD NOT HANDLE HOW I WAS BEING TREATED BY MY DOCTOR. SHE EVEN SAID I WAS ANOREXIC....BUT CALLED IT "BARIATRIC ANOREXIA"...( HOPE I AM SPELLING CORRECTLY) I KNOW I AM NOT ANOREXIC...I EAT AND LOVE TO.... I ALSO DO WANT TO PUT THE POUNDS ON......SO I KNOW I AM NOT......SHE WAS VERY HATEFUL ABOUT THE WHOLE THING...AND THAT DID NOT HELP ME MENTALLY AT ALL.......
SO, THAT IS WHERE I STAND.....I HAVE TAKEN A "FMLA" FROM WORK......THANK GOD THAT I HAVE SUCH A GREAT JOB AND THEY HAVE BEEN BESIDE ME THRU IT ALL.....I WAS SO SCARED I WOULD LOOSE IT. BUT THEY ARE WANTING ME HEALTHY AND READY FOR ME TO COME BACK WHEN I CAN.......I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO RETURN UNTIL DEC.6TH....AND THAT MAKES ME SO MAD, THIS TUBE HAS BEEN LIKE THE DEVIL PUT IN MY BODY......I MEAN IT....IT HAS BEEN HELL.....THE PAIN, THE BLEEDING, LEAKING, THE THING WAS NOT EVEN TO BE PUT IN ME.....I DID NOT EVEN FIT THE CRITERIA TO HAVE ONE TO BEGIN WITH.......SO, I DID CONTACT AN ATTORNEY, WHO DID "TAKE MY CASE" AS TO MALPRACTICE ON THAT PART. MY HUSBAND IS A BASKET CASE, HE IS SO DAMN SICK OF SOMETHING ALWAYS BEING WRONG, BUT THIS HAS REALLY DONE HIM IN, TO THE POINT WE FIGHT ALL THE TIME.....IF I AM NOT CRYING AND HURTING, WE ARE FIGHTING, HE TOLD ME NOT TO HAVE THIS DONE....
NO ONE KNOWS WHAT I AM GOING THRU, MY FAMILY WILL BE QUICK TO VOICE THEIR OPINION, BUT THEY HAVE NO CLUE AS TO WHAT I AM GOING THRU....THIS IS ABOUT ME.....NOT THEM.......IT HAS BEEN SO HARD.......JUST IN THESE LAST 6 WEEKS.....IT WAS JUST NOW THAT I REGRET THE WLS....I HAVE BEEN SO HAPPY.....SOME OF YOU KNOW.....AND NOW, I AM NOT EVEN MYSELF.....I CAN'T DO TOO MANY THINGS WITHOUT HURTING. I HAVEN'T EVEN DRIVEN ANYWHERE BY MYSELF, BECAUSE JODY IS SCARED SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN......
I HOPE I HAVE CLEARED UP AS TO WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON.......I KNOW I AM LEAVING SOMETHINGS OUT, BUT THAT IS WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON IN MY LIFE.
I HOPE THAT I CAN STILL HELP ANYONE OUT, IF NEEDED. I WILL BE CHANGING DOCTORS....BUT I CAN'T DO THAT UNTIL THE TUBE IS OUT....
THANK YOU ALL FOR ALL THE PRAYERS.....IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME TO HAVE THE TMB AND OH TO TURN TOO....
SOME OF YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME.....AND I APPRECIATE ALL THE EMAILS AND I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU FOR THINKING OF ME AND PRAYING.....I ASK THAT YOU CONTINUE TO DO SO UNTIL I AM BACK WORKING....
I KNOW ONCE THIS TUBE IS OUT, I WILL FEEL BETTER. JUST THE THOUGHT OF IT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER.
I AM DOING SOME RESEARCH ON THE "ANOREXIA" SHE IS SAYING I HAVE.....THERE IS NOT ALOT THERE TO READ, AND I AM NOT AT ALL SURE IT IS FOR REAL....BUT WHEN I HAVE MORE FACTS ON IT, I WILL BE POSTING IT.....
THANK YOU AGAIN......
I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST, TO ALL NEW POST OPS, I CONGRATULATE YOU AND WISH YOU ALL THE BEST.....
TO ALL PRE OPS....I ALSO CONGRATULATE YOU AND WISH YOU ALL THE BEST, I AM HERE IF YOU EVER NEED ME!!!!!
I LOVE YOU ALL......I HOPE I HAVE UPDATED THIS SO THAT YOU CAN UNDERSTAND....I AM A LITTLE MEDICATED NOW, AND TRYING TO MAKE SURE I DON'T LEAVE ANYTHING OUT.
IF I DID, I WILL UPDATE AGAIN......
AGAIN, THANK YOU, AND I SEND MUCH LOVE AND HUGS TO ALL!