Dedra Ellis

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Well I only have 5 more days so today after I went to the movies I went to Walmart and picked up all of my pre surgery meds. Well almost everything I didn't get the bowel prep yet because I need one not two and it was really expensive for two so I am going to go to Walgreeen's to see if I can get it cheaper.

Still haven't told too many people and I plan to keep it that way. If they aks me have I lost weight I am just going to ask "do you think I have?" Some people think this is the easy way out but I know that his is going to require alot of dedication, will power, and control.

Not much else is going on. I am not feeling anything right now. I am just in a peaceful state of mind. I am just so thankful to be having the surgery and getting ready to become a healthy, beautiful individual.

Thank you God....

Dedra

Well I only have 6 more days before I join all of the other losers. I met with "The Roc" yesterday for my orders appointment but did not make it to my interview at the hospital so I am going to have to reschedule that.

I am trying to stay calm this week and invite only good karma into my life. I think it is very important for me to go into this surgery as calm as I can be. I believe thats a crucial part of healing.

I am going to go shopping this week for things I need for when I come home from the hospital as well as some new pj's and stuff. 

I think that I am at a point now where I can officially set some goals for myself and what I expect as I begin my journey. Here are some things that I want to do that I haven't been able to do for a long time:

1. Lose 10 pounds (Done)
2. Lose 25 pounds (Done)
3. Lose 40 pounds (Done)
4. Lose 45 pounds (Done)
5. Lose 50 pounds (Done)
6. Wear a size 20 (Done)
7. Wear a size 18 (Skipped this size totally)
8. Wear a size 16 (Done)
9. Cross my legs (Done)
10. Tuck in my shirt
11. Wear thongs again (Done)
12. Climb stairs without being about to pass out (Done)
13. Ride the rides at Carowinds
14. Shop with my daughters (Done)
15. Feel good about myself (Still working on this one))
16. Shop in a regular department instead of plus size (Done)
17. Exercise more (Done)
18. Have people take a second look at me because I look good and not because I am fat (Done)
19. Not have the title "big" in front of my name or have it associated with my name (Done)
20. Wear heels (Haven't tried but looking forward to it)

That's just a start and I am sure that I will add to my list as time goes by. 

Dedra

Well...this Friday I will see Dr. Bauman for my 2 week pre op visit. I am also going to register at the hospital and do everything that I need to do.

I can't believe that I am this close yet so far away. I am beginnning to feel a little anxious. I am under stress on my job which I am hoping to change soon but I need this insurance to pay for my surgery first. I want to go into nursing full time but that's a year and a half away. I did take my CNA test on Saturday and I passed that so now I can do that for awhile. Someone is always looking for a CNA and I hear some places pay fairly well so if anyone reading this post knows of a great place to work with good pay please send me an email.

Well I just wanted to check in. It's been a long weekend and I am tired. See you later....

Dedra

MY SURGERY WILL BE JUNE 22, 2007 AT 12:00 P.M. AT NEMC.

STAY TUNED.....

I don't know what to say other than Thank you God!! I was in my room cleaning and going through some old mail. My daughter had gotten the mail and I thought that I had read it all and then I see this letter from BCBSNC. It said "We have approved your request for surgery for morbid obesity." I am so excited right now. I can't wait until Monday to call the office so I can get a date. I am going to start working harder on exercising and watching everything that I eat to prepare myself for surgery.

I will post more on Monday after I call and get a date!!!

Dedra

Well...here I am still playing the waiting game which is the hardest thing to do. I guess anything worth having is worth waiting for.

I do know that my information has been submitted to my insurance company. I keep calling Dr. Bauman's office to speak with Kim and all I get is a recording telling me to leave a message and she will call me back 2-3 business days. Sometimes when I call his office I never speak with a person. All of this automated stuff----blah!

I had shoulder surgery on May 3 and I have recouperated from that okay. It still gets really stiff in the mornings and late at night. I saw my doctor on Thursday and he explained to me that he had to do decompression and remove a bone spur. I feel so much better but still just have limited range of motion.

I hope the next time that I post that I will at least have an approval.

Well , this weekend I received a letter from my doctor's office informing me that my Vitamin D is abnormal so they put me on 50,000 IU of Vitamin D twice a week (which i have taken for the week) for 4 weeks and then 1 time a week as needed.

I am getting a little impatient because I am not further along as I would like to be. I know that everything is in God's timing and He knows whats best for me. I know that He knew that I was going to get to this point in my life before I got here and I also know that He has prepared a way for me so I just have to relax.

I can't believe that I am finally doing something for me. I still haven't told alot of people and I am not. There's is one person in my life to whom I owe alot to and that's my boyfriend Rick. He has been very supportive and gone with me to appointments even though he has worked third shift and my appointment is at 8:00 in the morning. He stays on me about what I am eating now. He reminds me how important it is not to gain any weight. He understands how important this is to me and is always offering encouragement. He wants me to be happy but he has also told me that he loves me and will love me no matter what. 

Well I had better go to bed. It's been a long weekend. I hope I have some good news to share with everyone this week. Hopefully they will get everything this week and send it to the insurance company so I can get a date.

I am waiting for Dr. Bauman to receive my results, sign off, and send it to my insurance company. I can't believe that this is happening so fast. I think that it has been a total of 3 week and now I am so close to surgery and living a normal life.

I am now waiting on all of my test results. So far I have had all of my labs drawn, my Upper GI, my mammogram, clearance from Dr. Lester Brown who by the way is the best PCP that anyone could ask for, and I have my pschy eval scheduled as well as my NUT appointment. Hopefully everything will come back okay and I can move closer to the prize. 

Dr. Bauman wants me to start shrinking my liver by not eating out, eating lean meats, and exercising more. I really trust him but not as much as I am trusting God to see me through all of this.

My children although they are older are now asking me why do I want to do this. My son who goes to college said to me "You would feel better if you did this on your own and not had surgery." He is 6'6, 274 which happens to be all muscle and he plays football so he needs what he has. 

I haven't told alot of people that I am planning to have the surgery. I just want to see the look of surprise on their faces when I am a LOSER! Is this bad of me to keep such a secret such as this? Nope I don't think so. If it would be them I am sure that they wouldn't tell.

Tune in, pray for me, and wish me luck.

MARCH 30 - MET WITH DR. BAUMAN AGAIN
                       GET CLEARANCE LETTER FROM DR. BROWN
                       ALL LABS DRAWN

SCHEDULED APPOINTMENT

APRIL 18 - PSCHY EVAL


I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO HAVE SURGERY MID MAY. STILL UNDECIDED ABOUT WHICH TYPE