miss_understood
It's been a while...
Mar 21, 2012
I'm back....so happy that I joined this website! It gives me an opportunity to read and reflect back on my pass to see where I came from and to count the many blessings that I have. I'm doing pretty good, although I had such a rough time...I must admit. This surgery wasn't an easy task for me what so ever. I had to go back and forth to the hospital even after my first year. I had to undergo another surgery for obstructed bowels and treatments for iron infussion for 8 weeks.
So much has changed in my life as well, such as I have been divorced (married 9 years) for over a year now (woohoo!
) Okay, I had to let that one out. I am becoming a "New Me" by the day! Soooo, I will try to log back in to catch everyone up, but as for now I wanted to share with you all my progress thus far.
Yes, you read that right HEALTHY.
I am so happy to share this! I work out now 2-3 hrs, 5 days a week. I eat pretty health, once a blue I dig into some treats and fatty foods. I must admit, I still need to concentrate on my water intake and my vitamins. But overall, things are pretty good. I am currently going through a little set back with dry mouth, jitters, sweaty palms and feet, a little fatigue and frequent urinating
. I am waiting for the doc to call me back to see what's going on. I believe I need to slow my self down and stopping moving around so much like an "energizer bunny". Who knows...I will keep you all posted.
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So much has changed in my life as well, such as I have been divorced (married 9 years) for over a year now (woohoo!
) Okay, I had to let that one out. I am becoming a "New Me" by the day! Soooo, I will try to log back in to catch everyone up, but as for now I wanted to share with you all my progress thus far.Yes, you read that right HEALTHY.
I am so happy to share this! I work out now 2-3 hrs, 5 days a week. I eat pretty health, once a blue I dig into some treats and fatty foods. I must admit, I still need to concentrate on my water intake and my vitamins. But overall, things are pretty good. I am currently going through a little set back with dry mouth, jitters, sweaty palms and feet, a little fatigue and frequent urinating
. I am waiting for the doc to call me back to see what's going on. I believe I need to slow my self down and stopping moving around so much like an "energizer bunny". Who knows...I will keep you all posted.
Wow!
Feb 15, 2010
Okay, I know it's been a while since I wrote an update. So here it goes....Saturday was my 4 month post op. I lost nearly 80lbs; totally amazing! I am now down to 230lbs. Yes, I can say my weight with no problem. I am proud of myself. I have no idea what size I wear, but I can't fit anything except for my "one day" clothes. You ladies know what I am talking about; the ones that you put aside and say that you are going to get back in them "one day". All the clothes that brought home thinking you were going to fit but then realize it's too small but you keep them saying, I am going to "one day" get in them. Well, now I can fit those "one day" clothing. Not only that, but I only have a few more months b4 I can even keep them b/c I have room in them. Bras are a "must go buy asap". Shoes are getting big. The sides of the bathtub don't touch me anymore. I am discovering body parts again! My body is more flexible again (more fun for the hubby and I
). I can cross my legs with ease (my favorite all day position).The kids are getting caught doing all kinds of things, not knowing when I am sneaking up on them (so funny). The family and I all eat more healthier now. We eat less processed foods. I removed the few people who were causing me stress out of my life. Things are coming together now for me. I am truly grateful for this blessing.
I just ordered a new treadmill tonight, I can't wait to start my new exercise program. It's a Pro Form Quick Fit treadmill with 16 preset workouts. This baby is loaded with everything one can think of. Delivery is within 7-14 days, I am so excited! I figured if I can't get to the gym then start bringing the gym to me.
Back to the clothes size I am guessing I maybe around a sz 18/20. My curves are "banging", seeing the old "brick house body" coming back again. Bra size maybe around 38dd who knows.
The only problem I am still having is just staying focus. I don't eat or drink as I should and sometimes lack on my vitamins (not good I know). My husband works out of town a lot. I have 5 little ones and I home-school. So I have a hard time staying focus on ME
. Which turns out for me to get really sick and have set backs. I need a lot of help in this area. I fear for death at times b/c I know I am not on point 
. Most ppl that do die from RNY comes from not doing what they are suppose to do. I try to use the kids as motivation but it's still not working. I have to purchase a new car so I haven't been to my support groups or last month's follow up appt. So, there U have it the good and the bad. I need everyone's support . Advice is truly welcomed.
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). I can cross my legs with ease (my favorite all day position).The kids are getting caught doing all kinds of things, not knowing when I am sneaking up on them (so funny). The family and I all eat more healthier now. We eat less processed foods. I removed the few people who were causing me stress out of my life. Things are coming together now for me. I am truly grateful for this blessing. I just ordered a new treadmill tonight, I can't wait to start my new exercise program. It's a Pro Form Quick Fit treadmill with 16 preset workouts. This baby is loaded with everything one can think of. Delivery is within 7-14 days, I am so excited! I figured if I can't get to the gym then start bringing the gym to me.
Back to the clothes size I am guessing I maybe around a sz 18/20. My curves are "banging", seeing the old "brick house body" coming back again. Bra size maybe around 38dd who knows.
The only problem I am still having is just staying focus. I don't eat or drink as I should and sometimes lack on my vitamins (not good I know). My husband works out of town a lot. I have 5 little ones and I home-school. So I have a hard time staying focus on ME
. Which turns out for me to get really sick and have set backs. I need a lot of help in this area. I fear for death at times b/c I know I am not on point . Most ppl that do die from RNY comes from not doing what they are suppose to do. I try to use the kids as motivation but it's still not working. I have to purchase a new car so I haven't been to my support groups or last month's follow up appt. So, there U have it the good and the bad. I need everyone's support . Advice is truly welcomed.
1 Month post-op...Phew!
Nov 15, 2009
Well, Friday made it one whole month post-op, and boy it was a rough one
. I am still having a bit of trouble with my fluids, not with being able to drink, just to remembering to drink. Well, eating too sometimes. Some days I can eat with no problem and other days I may not feel like eating, or a little scared to eat something new, and also not have a taste for what I gotten use too so far. I sometimes just want to eat the way I use to and just enjoy it (not the fatty stuff),just eat and not worry about eating too fast or eating right after drinking. I don't feel like I really get to enjoy my food any more. I also need new food ideas, especially ones with protein. So, if any of you guys have some ideas, please share them with me.
Vitamins... not a problem. Energy for me sucks on most days
, but I am working on it. I don't see too much of a difference from getting the B12 shot. Maybe that's because I don't eat enough? I don't know
.
However, when I got weighed in 3 weeks post-op I lost 37 lbs
. My children are so very excited and happy for me. They as well as others say they really can see a difference. I see it a little but not all like that. Yet, I can fit more comfortably in my clothes. I also can see more of my lap, it really looks like my legs grew long or something...lol. Bra fits loose (width),but I still keep wearing then and will do so until I can't anymore. Pants are having a little rough time staying up, this time it is not from my butt being to wide. Oh, physically...I can climb to my 3rd floor bedroom without feeling exhausted. I am beginning to really chase after my toddler (when I have energy), she can't believe that one. So, I am seeing some changes but not too much when I look in the mirror other than the tummy shrinking. Oh, wait, I did get out of the shower and notice that I can now see....drum-roll please...My Shoulder Bone
!
I have 2 more weeks doctor says before I can workout, so I really can't wait until then
. I sure hope I have it together more than now with my eating,drinking and energy. Well, that's it for now OH fam. Till next time!
Back in the Hospital again...
Oct 22, 2009
Well ,believe it or not I am typing this on my laptop from my hospital bed. Yupp, you read that right, the hospital. I was admitted yesturday for dehydration. I can't get nothing down, I feel so sick. However, they did just take me off of liquids and promoted me to pureed food, so I am happy about that. I have my tray right here, even if it take me all night to eat it I am going to try my best to do it. Well, I don't feel to well right now so I will check in again when I get home I guess. Until then, I hope all are doing well.
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I Did It!
Oct 17, 2009
3 years and I finally did it! I back home ya'll ! Getting around very well. Feeling a little weak though. Tummy is feeling gasy but great. I will update later , I am so happy I did it and with the help of God I made thus far. I have so many milestones to get by but I final jump a hurdle that I kept turning back from. 
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Somebody HELP!!!
Oct 08, 2009
It's been 3 days now on this Optifast and it is going pretty good except for around dinner time when the rest of the family are eating the delicious smelling food mmmmm. I cracked the first 2 days in tasting chicken one day and stuffed shrimp the next. Today I am trying out a diffrent plan, I sure hope it works. Just 5 more days until surgery, I have to get this right. Has everyone messed up on there fast before Op? Was it really a big deal that you cheated? Could the doctor tell that you cheated? I mean I would think that they to expect that we would mess up. Isn't that what why we are having the surgery in the 1st place? What are some things that help you all not to crack/cheat and stay strong? Oh food, how I miss food. 
Oh, one more thing I am a cranky, angry individual
. The family is catching it pretty bad
. I really don't mean it but this is worst then PMS. Everything seems to irritate me. I hope they understand (which I don't). I still love them its just that I just ended a bad relationship(w/food). I feel like I just got a divorce. This is normal too, right?
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Oh, one more thing I am a cranky, angry individual. The family is catching it pretty bad. I really don't mean it but this is worst then PMS. Everything seems to irritate me. I hope they understand (which I don't). I still love them its just that I just ended a bad relationship(w/food). I feel like I just got a divorce. This is normal too, right?This letter is SO cute...
Oct 05, 2009
This letter is SO very cute it is a "Dear John" letter that another OH Buddy wrote, I thought I share it with you all too. She says everything exactly the way I feel in this letter(except replace Big Mac with a mouth-watering, steamy-hot chicken cheese steak mmmm). Anyway please read it is SO cute.
Dear food,
Oh where do i begin with you. You and i have had a relationship that has lasted my entire life!!!! Who was there for me when i am sad...you...you little chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. What you pizza....you've comforted me at my worst times and my greatest time...you are truely my bestie. i promise you guys it's not you it's me!!! I just can't continue down this road with you. You understand i hope, it's not good for me or my body! Dr. Pepper you will always be my #1 in heart that is. I hope you don't take this too bad i know i've kept you around faithfully for 26 yrs. This is going to be the hardest thing i've ever had to do. See i love my husband and my children, and finally i'm learning to love myself and that's why i must...i must do this!!!! In the future, we may see eachother again, and i will really appreciate that time that we share. but it will never be the same as before. OH Mr. Big Mac I've dreaded having to say it but your a BADDDDD boy, and that's why i've loved you sooo. i just can't do it anymore! Please bacon....don't be mad that i am now close with turkey bacon, it sucks their just better for me. How many times Taco Bell have i tried to justify how healthy you are to myself and everyone? It will be so hard to visit you Olive garden and not eat your delicious breadsticks and eat your enormous pasta dish (i love you all) then to spend time with your rasberry cheesecake, it's like heaven when i visit you. It will be a long time before i visit you again, i really am sorry.
Good bye to all of you i know you guys ment well and i thank you for the support. Sometimes you were there for me better than my friends and family. You understood me, you never judged me! I will always remember you for that. But I've grown up and i'm going to graduate college now and it's just time for a change!!!
Will miss you dearly,
Jacqueline J. Williams
1 Week to Go!
Oct 05, 2009
It's really countdown at this point! My surgery was APPROVED last Monday 
. I started my liquids today, although I believe the nutritionist made a mistake on my start date of that, I think it was suppose to have started yesterday. I am suppose to take the Optifast diet for 7 days. The fact that I am starting today would make my 7Th day fall on the day of my surgery
. I am going to have to give her a call today. The strawberry shake I had this morning was really good and the tomato garden soup was pretty good too. My only concern is wether or not I get tired of it . I also have chicken broth, chocolate and vanilla shakes, and chocolate bars for a snack. I can't have anything else other than non-calorie beverages (not bad). I have to now make preparation for my children during and a few days after the surgery. I have to also see who is going to stick around to help me out at home,too. I pray that I have a swift recovery and get back into the swing of things. I have to make sure I have all of my vitamins and whey protein shakes. I need to finish going food shopping just for me. I just went food shopping for everyone else Saturday for the whole month. I finally have my children switched to the home-school program that I like (www.K12.com )
, so I have to make sure that whom ever they stay with will continue logging them in daily. I want to buy the Bullet blender/food processor and a few other cool gadgets but I think I am going take my time with that. I am cleaning out the housefrom top to bottom (walls and base boards included), rearranging furniture , decluttering, washing every particle of clothing, storing summer clothes, pulling out fall clothes, giving small clothing (kids) to charity, making sure the children are up to date with all of their appointments, and the list goes on
.I am so grateful that I have been able to complete these things. The weight loss that I had so far must really been giving me a little boost. I can't wait to see what my energy will be like when I lose some real weight. Everything is happening so fast, but the good news is that I am keeping up with the race. Yet, the closer the day is getting the more afraid I am becoming
.......... However, I am not going to let fear stop me from moving ahead so thats the good part.
Good News!
Sep 25, 2009
All thanks and praise to the Most Merciful, I now have my insurance back! I am very happy and grateful. Everything is still as scheduled. I am waiting for my last and final appointments, if God is willing. On Wednesday is the upper endoscopy @ 11:15am and my PCP appointment for my surgical clearance on Thursday @ 1pm. After that, it's countdown till the big day, October13Th. The nurse is ready to call the insurance on Monday for approval. I am soooooooo nervous now
. I feel like this is really my turning point, there is no turning back. Well, of course I can turn back... but I'M NOT! Thoughts are racing all over the place, "gotta do this, gotta do that", "gotta get this, gotta get that", "maybe I should rearrange the furniture", "declutter the house", "which gym do I want to join?", "am I ready for throwing up all the time?","will I be successful?", am I going to be a dumper?" and on and on
. Is this normal stage I am going through or is this just me?
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. I feel like this is really my turning point, there is no turning back. Well, of course I can turn back... but I'M NOT! Thoughts are racing all over the place, "gotta do this, gotta do that", "gotta get this, gotta get that", "maybe I should rearrange the furniture", "declutter the house", "which gym do I want to join?", "am I ready for throwing up all the time?","will I be successful?", am I going to be a dumper?" and on and on. Is this normal stage I am going through or is this just me?Getting Closer
Sep 22, 2009
Well, it's been a little while since I posted anything but I have been pretty busy trying to get things done. Since I last posted, I have completed many appointments. I just recently signed my permit paper work which basically is giving my permission in having the surgery done. Usually this is the last step before getting the surgery. However, my insurance has to be reinstated (they cut me off). So, I wasn't able to have my upper endoscopy which was last Wednesday. Now, it is rescheduled for the 30Th of September. I pray to the Most High that I have my insurance way before then (not much time left) or the surgeon is going to have to push my surgery date back
. I also completed my last mandatory nutrition class and support group yesterday.
Even though I have been having issues with the insurance this month, I still didn't let that get in my way. I started paying for things out of pocket and kept on chucking (this girl is on fire!
). I am so happy that I am not letting anything get in my way, where I usually would take things like this as a sign that it isn't meant for me. I am realizing that if you really want something you have to just get up and go after it regardless of the hurdles you may have to jump over to get there
. I realize that you do can do anything that you want to do in life, you just have to believe. You might even have to take a different approach or route other than how you thought you were going to get there, but you can get there.
I have lost now about 16-18 lbs. now in the last 2 months on my own. My BMI has gotten lower and I am still getting in gear. I couldn't believe yesterday's scale. I called everybody to let them know. It also felt so good to have the surgeon walk in and congratulate me
. A lot of people kept telling my that I was "looking good","coming down",and "loosing weight" but I really couldn't see it. I still can't but, I think I was feeling it slowly but for sure. Getting up stairs to my bedroom (3rd floor of house) is a lot easier. Cleaning a room without sitting down every few minutes is getting easier too. So I can only but imagine what will be happening after the surgery (if god wills). Everyone in the doctor office believe that I am going to do well post-op and that is a really good feeling too. They really seem sincere while saying it too. It didn't feel like they were just saying a usual punch line. One of the nurses even stated that she is going to come and see me while I am in recovery. Another said they will be with me the whole time on the day of surgery. I can't wait to see! I have about 3 weeks more weeks to go.
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. I also completed my last mandatory nutrition class and support group yesterday. Even though I have been having issues with the insurance this month, I still didn't let that get in my way. I started paying for things out of pocket and kept on chucking (this girl is on fire!
). I am so happy that I am not letting anything get in my way, where I usually would take things like this as a sign that it isn't meant for me. I am realizing that if you really want something you have to just get up and go after it regardless of the hurdles you may have to jump over to get there. I realize that you do can do anything that you want to do in life, you just have to believe. You might even have to take a different approach or route other than how you thought you were going to get there, but you can get there. I have lost now about 16-18 lbs. now in the last 2 months on my own. My BMI has gotten lower and I am still getting in gear. I couldn't believe yesterday's scale. I called everybody to let them know. It also felt so good to have the surgeon walk in and congratulate me
. A lot of people kept telling my that I was "looking good","coming down",and "loosing weight" but I really couldn't see it. I still can't but, I think I was feeling it slowly but for sure. Getting up stairs to my bedroom (3rd floor of house) is a lot easier. Cleaning a room without sitting down every few minutes is getting easier too. So I can only but imagine what will be happening after the surgery (if god wills). Everyone in the doctor office believe that I am going to do well post-op and that is a really good feeling too. They really seem sincere while saying it too. It didn't feel like they were just saying a usual punch line. One of the nurses even stated that she is going to come and see me while I am in recovery. Another said they will be with me the whole time on the day of surgery. I can't wait to see! I have about 3 weeks more weeks to go.
