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I feel like I can't focus on anything.  I am forgetting the little things and big things.  Everything feels like it is piling up on me.  I don't know if this is a deficiency or hormones but I wish I had an answer.  I am lucky I am at a job were they are very understanding.  But I don't know how much longer I can do this.  I feel like I am ready to come unglued.  Does anyone else have this problem or have a solution.  Help!!

I am so excited finally have adage for my RNY.. wootwoot

Well today is the day.  I am meeting with my surgeon today to determine what the next step is.  He wants to start out by removing my band then doing the RNY.  I want him to do it all in one surgery.  I prefer not to have to go through so many surgeries.  I just want to get my life started with the RNY and get my life back.  I am limited in so many ways now.  I still have a fear of the surgery but I am not terrified anymore.  I have done a lot of research and basically come to terms with the fact that if I want to be a normal size this is what I have to do.  I can't wait to see the skinny self I have buried inside me under all the blubber.

I had a Lap Band for 4 years and for some reason did not comprehead the concept of Head Hunger.   After reading on here recently about someonelses struggle with Head Hunger, I now see that in my everyday food struggle.  This will probably be one of my biggest struggles.  I don't think that I often ate over what my stomach could hold but I know that I had many moments that I could not figure out what I might be hungry for at the time.  This may have been one of my down falls.  I have to make this work this time.  I am going to use this as my restart on life.  I have a great family that is going to be very supportive.  My greatest enemy will be myself.  Now that I have made the decision to get the surgery I am ready to get it over with.  I will need to plan ahead at work when I can take off.  I just need to talk with my surgeon to determine what dates he has available.   Let's get this thing done.!!!

I know this sound weird but I am deathly afraid for the Gastric Bypass.  I know it is my only option at this point but that doesn't mean I have to like it.  My reasons for getting WLS in the first place are still valid.  I want to be able to move around like a normal person.  I want to be able get down on the floor with my grandchildren and be able to get back up again.  I want to be able to see them grow up and have children of their own.  At the weight I am at now that will not be a possiblity.  I am already 20 years ahead of my mother with all my health complications.  That is scary on its own.  I know if I do not do something I may not make it many more years.  I had the Lapband and it just did not work for me.  I am sure some of it was my fault, I accept that.  If I do not suck up my fear and quite neveling like a baby I will never have the life I want for my retirement years.  I am not that old only 51 but I am not getting any younger.  I am getting drippy just writing this. Drip Drip.  But I will do it wheather I want to or not.  I have talked with my family and they all support my decision and told me they will be on me like white on rice if I do not do what I am suppose to this time.  I am already approved by my insurance company I just need to set the date now.  I see my surgeon on 9/13 for a consult.  We will see what that brings.  "Through all things he will strengthen me. . ."