McLisa
1ST THANKSGIVING
Nov 29, 2007
Before, it was snacking all day, a huge meal, several different desserts, and more eating the rest of the day.
This time, I didn't snack, because I knew I'd fill up before the meal. At dinner, I put a spoonful of each item around my plate, and my husband and kids laughed when they saw it! I tasted a little of everything, and felt STUFFED! It was the same way I used to feel after eating all day! Then, I tasted a little pumpkin pie, but didn't eat any other dessert for fear of "dumping" (See my previous posting about eating cake - it definitely keeps me away from sweets!)
Overall it was a successful Thanksgiving, but I have to say it was a little sad not to be able to eat all I wanted. I felt like I was missing out on something, or that I lost something. Does that sound weird? Maybe a liitle bit of mourning for what used to be?
Oh well, I'm sure not sad when I slip on those little jeans!
STUCK
Nov 12, 2007
I need to add some pics cuz I'm looking alot different now. It's funny to see my old pictures! Soon...
I've been feeling really good lately - physically as well as emotionally. I've noticed the past couple of weeks I need more sleep. I can't figure out what that's all about yet. I've been taking my vitamins like a good girl. Maybe just the overtime I've been doing?
Thanksgiving is coming up - my first since the surgery. I hope I don't make myself sick! Good luck everyone with your eating during the holidays!
I fit in my daughter's jeans! NO MORE OLD LADY JEANS!
Sep 25, 2007
I know I'm feeling more self confident now. I don't know if it's my increased self confidence or the actual weight loss, but I've noticed a definite diference in how people look at me now. I have actually felt a little self conscious because more people - men and women - are looking me in the eye and keeping my gaze. It's kind of awkward, because for so long people have been kinda dismissing me ( as a nobody?)
Here's an example of differences in treatment I've experienced: When I was thin I used to try to avoid looking directly at men because they would take it as an invitation to try to get to know me. I would actually have guys offer to pump my gas at gas stations! If I had a flat tire someone always stopped to help. After I got fat, I was changing my tire on the side of the road during rush hour, and no one stopped to help until I was almost finished doing it myself. Forget any offers for pumping gas!
Today at work there was a regular customer (male) who commented on how I was new there. I've worked there for 7 years! My coworker said he probably didn't recognize me because of all the weight I've lost . I think it's more like he never noticed me in the first place because I was fat. What do you think?
Lots of hair on the floor!
Jul 31, 2007
Any birds out there need hair to build a nest? I have enough for a birdy mansion! Come and get it!
Losing weight too fast!
Jul 19, 2007
So get this - Kevin tells me my weight loss has to slow down or else they'll want me to eat more calories. Hmmm.... I've never heard that at a doctor's office before! "Lisa, you need to eat peanut butter or put cheese in your eggs to increase your caloric intake." "Oh gee, doctor, do I have to eat something yummy and fattening? Please say it ain't so!" HA!
Two weeks ago I had made a goal to lose 3 pounds before my weigh-in so I'd be at an even 60 lbs, but the minute I made the goal, I started on an eating frenzy. It was like I was going to suffer without food, so I had to eat more! I actually GAINED weight! Now, since the doctor's visit, I'm not so obsessed with losing so fast, and I finally lost a couple of pounds.
My next entry will be about my hair loss and weird nail growth... da da da dum.......
I'm Overweight!
Jul 03, 2007
Soon (maybe this weekend) I'll post some pictures. One of my problems is not having any BEFORE pics because I was so paranoid about having my picture taken. I'll see what I can dig up. I cringe when I see myself just 6 months ago!
This surgery has really been a miracle for me. I can't even explain how much healthier I feel. I stand all day at my job, and by the end of the day I was hurting all over, especially my feet and knees. I was in physical therapy for my foot pain. I told the doctor it was because of the weight and it wouldn't go away until the weight did. I took medicine every day for headaches and depression. Now, I don't have to take any medications!
I'm wearing a size 12 comfortably and in a size 10 tightly. I haven't worn a size 10 in about 7 years. And keep in mind I'm only 5'2", so a size 10 isn't small for me. I would love to be in a size 4 eventually, but would settle for a size 6. I'll be there soon!!
DUMPING Sucks!
Jun 20, 2007
I swore it wouldn't happen to me cuz' I was goin to follow all the rules and stay away from all sweets - yeah, right! I ate a piece of cake last night and guess what happened? - Everything I have ever read or heard about!I started feeling whoosy. Then I broke out in a cold sweat and started to get really nauseous. I had to sneak to the bathroom because I didn't want my husband to know how sick I was feeling. I threw up 3 times and still didn't feel well. I was doing anything to feel better. I drank water trying to dilute the effects. Then I put a cold compress on the back of my neck and forehead. It took about an hour before it completely passed. I just sat up in bed mentally kicking myself for being so stupid!
I have to say that this is one of the reasons I picked RNY surgery over the Lapband. My doctor recommended the lapband for me, but I knew I'd get sneaky eventually and eat something I shouldn't. It only took me a little over 3 months to cheat!
Well, hopefully someone will read this and take heed: follow doctor's order's and stay away from sugars! Apparently, I had to learn for myself.
I felt like the 18 month old who touches the hot burner after Mom says no!
***52 pounds gone!***
Jun 19, 2007
I finally passed my half century mark!
At least the crackhead's not FAT!
Jun 09, 2007
I was reading someone else's blog and she was reciting some of the fat comments she's received in her life ( you have such a pretty face, you're such a big girl, etc.) and it made me think of the comments I've heard. One of the worst things I heard wasn't even about me, but it shows how some people think of fat people:
I was involved in a conversation with several family members and we were talking about a distant cousin who is always in trouble with the law. His latest problem was with his new girlfriend who is a hooker and a addicted to crack. My little brother says, "Well, if she's a crackhead then at least you know she's not FAT!"
HUH? He thinks it's better to have a crackhead girlfriend than a FAT girlfriend? I guess that's how disgusting some people think we are. We are worse than drug addicted prostitutes.
I didn't even have words to reply to his comment, I was so stunned. Even now I wince just thinking of it.
Almost to the 50 lb. mark!
Jun 05, 2007
A couple more pounds and I'll pass the half century mark! I'm starting to eat better - not as much grazing. I would sit down with too much food and eat for 2 hours trying to finish it. (I guess old habits do die hard.) My husband, Donnie, mentioned that he noticed I've been pushing away my plate as soon as I feel full, instead of picking at it.
Yesterday, we went to McDonald's for lunch. We have been eating Healthy Choice lunches, but we had to go pick up a prescription, so we only had 15 minutes left on our lunch break. Of course Micky-D's was right next door, so guess where we went? I thought I was being good by only ordering a 6 piece chicken McNugget with sweet and sour sauce. It's been so long since I've eaten McDonald's that I think my brain reverted to my old gorging days. Needless to say, 5 McNuggets later and I was feeling like I'd just finished Thanksgiving dinner! I won't be doing that again anytime soon!
See you after I reach 50...
