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So I haven't weighed in since Monday. Obviously I set a very aggressive goal for week two and didn't make it. I am however satisfied with loosing the one pound and I just may have to change my view on how I loose. Each day I will make sure that I eat foods that are good for me and if I slip only eat smalll amounts of the "bad" foods. And pick right up at the next meal. I will excersise daily. Losing 2-3 pounds per week would be great but I've decided to celebrate every single pound lost. Weigh in is on Monday again. I did go over calories on Christmas but not as bad as I could have. Just moving on with the whole thing. Will post again on Monday but for now I have to finish my online homework

Have mercy! I've been doing so well with staying under my calories and doing workouts that actually count for something. One minor mistake. I haven't been drinking any fluids, hence I'm having a bit of water retention. I started drinking and boy oh boy I must say I'm impressed by how fast it worked.

I've started on my protein shakes and I like it I just ordered the large size. I really do feel full. I was so excited to try the flavors that I drank it too early in the day just to taste but for the next few days I'm certainly going to try the protein shakes only. I have to check my supply to see how much I actually have.

Wish me luck. Hoping for 176 by next Monday but hopefully below 181 will keep me quiet.

Just a random thought. The reason that I don't notice when I get bigger is because with this whole digital camera and phone and the instant ability to pose until your photo looks flattering. By the time it's upload and your waist and but are tilted in just the right position, I look at that photo every day and think that's exactly how I look.

Today was my Monday weigh in and I lost five pounds. That's great. I exceeded my goal which was 189lbs. Before I get into a long winded thought process let me just set my goal for next Monday. In a perfect world I would wake up at my ideal weight, but since I'm living in the world where food is sooo delicious. I'll be realistic, yet still push the envelop. My goal for next Monday is 181. There I said it! Now the rant! ;-)

So that was for my realistic goal (put still pushing) HOWEVER! I do have the actual goal that I will be working towards which is 176 which is double what I wrote...How will I get this done? you might be asking. Well, if it's simple math I will just work out twice a day instead of once. and maybe instead of working out for a half and hour I can actually push myself to one hour.

I don't have a scheduled job that I have to actually get to at a particular time. Since this isn't the norm for me I may as well take advantage of this opportuinity of free time. Certainly I haven't done well with this extra time I've had on my hands. Really, i've just gained a lot of weight. At first it felt comfortable to lay around and do absolutely nothing and eat whenever and whatever I wanted. I good sign that your health and eating is going down the tube is when you become too lazy to even feed yourself (Every meal is fast food and delivered) YUP, that's exactly what I did.

It has just been this past week that I decided to give it up. Actually it was decided for me, when my kids got sick with the flu and it was passed on to me. I didn't have an appitite for 3 days (I still ate) but then I realized that even though I was sick it felt kinda good not falling asleep with food in my mouth and waking up with the thought of what should I eat next.

Not ashamed of that though. It's simply something that I went through and fully aware of. I can't say I enjoyed it either. I just slipped back in to that place where doing nothing was the norm. I was never active, infact I never learned to ride a bike and simple things that most everyone can do. I was more taught to be responsible and be adult like....Well sad for me, there weren't any great adults to look up to and they all pretty much just ate and sat still as well. So it's very easy to get back to that place without feeling like anything at all is wrong.

So next weigh in goal is 181

Well this past Monday I started a weight lose challenge with some men and ladies (online). It's the ladies against the men. I'm not exactly sure how that's going to work considering there only seems to be 3 men in the group and about 100 women. I'm looking at it more like a motivating factor. Do I really care if the men or the women win? NO, not in the least bit. Since I've traveled down this weight lose road before, my sense is that my old (good) habits will come back to me. Slowly they are, especially when I read the motivating stories on the site. My goal truely is to loose the most about each week, so by default I'm hoping to put the women at a lead but the group winning is not why I'm in this. I'm in this so that I can win. Not so much to look sexy in a swimsuit- let's face it, that's never happened but I do want to feel healthy and energetic and I once did during the time of my initial weight lose.

I am the queen of excuses and I buy my own excuses all the time. I'm pretty easy to convince why I SHOULD eat another slice of pizza or why it feels better to lay in bed than to work out. It's interesting to me that although I know all the things that I should do, I have all the time and resources to do it and I don't. I'm trying to look ahead but I'm frustrated with myself that I didn't do this sooner.

Last week I weighed in at 197lb during the middle of the week I kind of cheated and weighed the scale moves to 191. I'm assuming that it's water weight. I tend to loose the first pounds very quickly then stop the diet...Hence the yoyo diet.

When I look over the ten year span of how my weight has fluctuated and the reasons why I still think "not bad for a WL patient" but the fact of the matter is I should just understand that it's time to inherit good eat behaviors and physical activity. One of the hardest thing is to stop considering myself "my surgery" That's a recipe for allowing yourself to gain weight because the people around you and even you will convince yourself no matter how much weight you gain "at least you're not as fluffy as you were before surgery" Granted, that may be true, but who's to say that next time you put on weight you will be fortunate enough to catch it before you spike up to 300lbs.

Back when I hate weight lose surgery in 2002 in was the unstated rule of loosing as much as you can within the first year of surgery. I had surgery with several co-worker, 2 sisters, a friend and an in-law around the same time. We did all the things that we were suppose. We ate well excersised and went to group meeting. All this for the MAXIMUM affect of what would happen as that one year approached.

Im sure that at one for my follow up visits with the Dr. or Nutritionist or even those weight lose group meetings, someone must have mentioned that this is a lifestyle change, but all that seemed to stick with each and every one of us was that one year mark. For the most part, after that year it was over. Whatever you lost was all it would be and you worked at staying that size. Eventually we'd all become used to being "overweight" after all it was much better than still being in the "morbidly obese" category.

As I look at the more recent and knowledgable candidates for this surgery I know they will be successful. They won't take only the information that they want to experience. They will realize that it IS possible to reach your ideal weight even if it doesn't happen within 12 months.

Ten years after, and with no revision I'm going to show myself that it is very possible to lose just as much weight as I did within the first year of surgery.

First mini goal: 189

More later! 

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December 14, 2012

Wow! It's been so long since I've logged up to this site. I've do my best to fill you in between 2002 and today. In a nutshell. I lost 120lbs in 8 months,my starting weight was 278lbs. By my one year anniversary I was 147lbs. In 2005 I gained a bit and then maintained by weight around 175lbs. In 2006 I gained, going up to 216lbs after the birth of my son. Over the next few years I've just been an average joe slowly talking off the weight. Within 18 month I managed to get back down to 170 In 2010 I got tired of being 170 and decided to lift wieghts. I managed to get back down to 157 but that was short lived. I moved and became unemployed during that stressful time I didn't pay attention to my weight, the scale or the things I put in my mouth. I went back up to 197lb.

Would I say my weight lose surgery was a success? Absolutely! I still have this amazing tool. I still am only able to eat small portions however I made the decision to continue to graze and neglect my excersise.

I'm back here today hoping to become motivated from you all and get back in to the groove. Today I weigh 191 lbs and this is a new start. I'll do it as many times until I get it right. I'm not going to give up on myself.