marion6366
I grew up thin - well, I don't know about thin, but not heavy. In high school I was 5'6" and weighed about 125 lbs no matter what I ate. I could eat ANYTHING. Then as soon as I got out of college and got a desk job - BAM! It hit me and I ballooned. I got married and then divorced 13 months later. I was sick of myself so at that time I started Phen-fen (back in the day when it was legal) and I was amazed as the lbs just dropped off me without even trying! Well, 6 months into t he Phen-fen (down to 140lbs) I got pregnant so I immediately stopped. As I went on with the pregnancy and another marriage my weight just kept going up and up and up. After my second daughter it just got worse. Nothing I tried worked. I tried every fad diet in the book, WW, you name it. It's to the point now where I don't like to go out because I don't feel comfortable with my own body and I don't want other people to see me. When I think of myself, I still see the thin me from college. So every time I look in a mirror or see a photo it's a total shock. It's like - that CAN'T be me!!
I'm hoping that my insurance approves me. I should find out in a week or two. I have a low BMI, so I'm worried. But I do have the co-morbidities that you need to have if you have a BMI lower than 40 (according to my insurance co). So now I'm just keeping my fingers crossed. I know it will totally change my life and how I eat, but in the end it will totally be worth it! There is no food in the world that is worth as much to me, as what feeling better will feel!
