Amy D.
My Story well I guess that its like alot of others. I was heavy as a child and i had alot of ups and downs. I had been on my first serious assisted diet the summer before my 5th grade year. I had lost alot of weight. As adults we know that others are cruel, alot of times children to children acts are the most hurtful and last for years to come. On my first day back at school I felt so good I was thin and I was happy and excited. Til the students started asking questions. They never believed that I had lost weight, so my 5th grade nickname was Girdle. Needless to say cause they thought I was wearing one, GOD did that hurt. To go through so much over the summer and feel like I wasn't aloud to eat anything ( all in the name of happiness) just to be unhappy and made fun of and hurt more than before. That was horrible. I remember lying on the reading rug and one of the boys was behind me and he said to me jeez your hips are bigger than mine. At the time I thought that was so horrible, cause he was the tallest boy in class. Anyhow, I gained it all back and then some. So the summer before my 6th grade year they did it all over again and it just didn't change in 6th grade same kids same jokes(ME). So off to junior high school I went I had quite a few friends had I known then they were the wrong crowd maybe just maybe we wouldn't have been friends ( that's a joke, they were like family to me made me feel welcome). I began doing all the wrong things. So, those years were bad. In high school in my first year I was very active sports friends school. It was a new beginning even in a different city. I had a great year til I meet a boy, then I started slipping. anyway I had to move back to my old city and that was my 2nd year of high school I started out OK. having old and new influences in my life. I just always felt the other shoe was going to drop so I basically threw it out the window first. I turned left when I should have gone right and I just kept making the wrong decisions. I never got as bad as when I was younger but I should have still done some thing. Any how so by then I was weighing at least 200 and I am kind of sort of tall so it never looked like i was as heavy as i was. I went to prom and my date was the complete opposite so his friends called us Kermit and miss piggy not because he was a stick but because I made him look that way.
Moving on a few years I got pregnant with my first child I was over weight to begin with so it wasn't necessarily the best way to start. I couldn't hold anything down not even water. To this day because of that time I can still make my self puke from a glass of water. Any way it wasn't the best time and things were very had I wound up losing almost 100lbs. with that pregnancy. So after I had the child, I was thin, I wasn't the healthiest but I was thin. Every thing still made me sick. So, I just choose not to eat. I lived on Mt. Dew cause I'm hypoglycemic and I would get real low. As I'm sure you all know that just makes things worse. When I would eat I would 90% of the time throw it up not on purpose just cause it came up. Well, I met some one new and he didn't like the way I was living was worried about my not really eating so he would beg me t o take just one bite. Just one for me turned in to 2 - 4 - 6- 8 and so one. So I proceeded to gain weight.
After 4 years of being together I got a call from the doctor and found that my pap results came back and they were bad. God that was scary I wanted him to leave cause I thought I couldn't give him children of his own. He wouldn't go which was great for me. Hes still here. So, we got threw that, the bad areas were removed. And I was clean they wanted me to come in every 3 months for a followup pap. So about 2 months in I found out I was pregnant. Things started GREAT. Then around 18 weeks I started feeling very ill like I had all day sickness(morning sickness). I was told that I even looked ill. I just thought how can this be I'm too far along for this to start.
So I went to my doctor, Immediately she checked my stomach and she was positive that I had problem with my gall bladder. So, we went in for the ultra sound I was 19 weeks and 6 days along. They said I was full of them and that I needed to see a surgeon. So we went to a surgeon and I chose to try the gallbladder diet first. Cause I wanted to wait so I wouldn't harm the baby. So I tried that well it didn't work for me. I wound up having surgery when I was 22 weeks maybe 21 and 1/2. Anyway that was horrible but when my pain and all the worries went away for the baby, and I was better I felt GREAT again. I could eat pretty much anything man I thought I was in heaven I hadn't been able to eat good for ?6 years? (counting while I was pregnant with my first). So my gall bladder was diseased and had over 200 stones the surgeon said. I still get nausea's and there are things I shouldn't eat cause I have no GB but some times that doesn't stop me and now I'm over 300 lbs and I have pain every where and I cant do the things with my kids or fiancee' that I want to I hate trying on clothes cause they never fit let alone right. And that leaves me at my first post; beginning to talk about it, I had a bad pap and the story goes on.
