marenellie
I believe I was even overweight in the womb, so I guess I don't recall ever being thin. I was somewhat unhappy and embarrased as a child, being the fattest one in the class. I compensated by being nice to everyone, even the ones who didn't deserve it. I also learned to use humor to hide behind my hurt feelings. I do enjoy humor, though, and it has helped me through some really tough times, not all weight-related. I think I also tried to always see the bright side, so my childhood wasn't always miserable. I have been very overweight my adult life, gaining more weight with each pregnancy and not losing after. I did lose 90+ pounds two different times using herbal shakes, but you just can't live on those forever. As soon as I was tired of them, the pounds came back like gangbusters! (I sure hope the insurance company counts that as dieting, I have never been on a doctor monitored diet)
Now I find myself as heavy as ever, and starting to have some health issues. I need to get control over my obesity or it will start seriously affecting my health. I am too young to get those problems.
I am a sugar addict, and do major emotional eating, and I guess saying it here helps me accept the reality. I am excited about the Lapband, and love reading this forum. I am ready to join in, so here's "a kiss for luck and we're on our way..."
