mammaof2
I started gaining weight when I was 14 years old. I had already been molested twice. I had two baby brothers die before I turned 5. We moved around a lot, my dad worked hard for us, he was a hired hand on farms and we were very poor. I remember my dad working from sunup to sundown for $12.00 a week. I remember living in places with no bathroom, no running water - my mom would have to carry buckets to a spring and carry water back to our two room house. I started going wild when I turned 12 years old. I have had numerous relationships with very bad results in the end. I never felt like I fit in as a child at all anywhere. I always felt different. I was always so lonely. My childhood pictures always looked like I had lost my best friend. Out of six siblings, there is only my brother and me left in our family, with both parent being dead. My current husband is in prison and will not be coming home when he gets out. I have two beautiful sons that are adopted, they are now 6 & 8. I have had them since they were 5 months & 2 years old. My other adopted son, (whom I had since he was 6 weeks old) died in 1994 at the age of 9 1/2 years of age. I have turned to food for emotional support (and I just really LOVE food) I am the heaviest I have ever been in my life, now weighing 265 pounds and I am only 5'2". Have developed diabetes, high blood pressure, and a whole host of other "heavy" diseases (sleep apnea, etc.). I want to get this fat off me and feel good for a change. I started school this year to become a nurse. I am now 54 years of age and feel like I am just starting my life. BLessings to all!!
