*Malena* M.

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I just realized that is has been a very long time since I have updated my page.  I am currently 2.5 years out of surgery and in my 12th week of being pregnant :)  Yup, I am actually able to get pregnant.  I swore I couldn't have kids, but I guess maybe it was just my weight.  My boyfriend and I are expecting our first child around October 7th and are extremely excited.  All has been good in the weight loss department, except that now I am gaining baby weight.  Let me tell you it isn't easy!  I have been slowly making a pile of clothes that don't fit and it is a bit depressing.  I just have to keep reminding myself that the weight is for a good cause.  That of course puts a huge smile on my face.  My first doctors appointment for the baby I was 6 weeks along and weighed in at 158 lbs.  6 weeks later I am 12 lbs heavier.  WOAH!!!  I am actually quite surprised my doctor didn't say anything about that.  I try to be careful about what I eat, but I think the thing that gets me is that I am hungry all of the time.  If I do not eat every 2 hours or so then I get pretty sick.  It isn't fun.  Then it is torture trying to eat.  So, I try to keep up with healthy snacks.

I just realized it is time to go home so I will have to write more later!

Next week I have my two year check-up.  I cannot freaking believe that it has almost been two years.  I look back and wonder how my life would be right now if I would have never gone through with the surgery.  I just can't imagine.  I have been through a lot over the past two years, and for the most part I do not regret any of the decisions I have made.  I went through a divorce that was final right before my 1 year anniversary, I was in a year long relationship that never should have happened, I had an upper arm lift, I have met a few amazing people that I am excited to have in my life, I started back at school, and I could not be happier.  Sure, I have had my ups and downs, as we all do.  I was on anti-depressants for well over a year because there was a lot going on that I just had a hard time coping with.  However, I am happy to say that I am no longer taking them and I couldn't feel any better.  Just a warning for all of you out there that are reading this...PAXIL IS EVIL!  People say that Prozac is bad, I am beginning to think that Paxil is way worse than Prozac, although I have never been on Prozac before.  The side affects of Paxil are terrible and the side affects that you get from going off of it can be even worse.  My main reason for going off of it was weight gain.  I did this surgery for a reason and I will be damned if I am going to let a drug that is supposed to help me, make me gain weight and be unhealthy again.  Instead, I have been working out more, eating healthier than I have in the past and am going to start yoga tomorrow to help relieve any additional stress that I may endure.  I have learned that just by eating more fruits and vegetables I feel better already.  It is amazing.  I have been in to juicing lately and getting more protein in from eating apples and peanut butter or making a protein shake and I can feel the difference.  I originally gained 10 pounds over the last 3 months from my Paxil and since I stopped taking it almost a week ago and have been changing my lifestyle I have already dropped 1.5 pounds of that.  Hopefully I can keep it up and not have to go back on any more pills.  I have made a lot of changes in my life that I think were causing a lot of my depression (my ex-boyfriend was my major reason so he is no longer in the picture), so I believe I can be happier and healthier with these changes.  
I have had a few people contact me lately asking for more pictures, or wanting to ask questions or to just become friends.  I welcome all of that!  It is so nice to share my experience and touch so many peoples lives with my story and the obstacles that I have been through.  So, please feel free to keep the questions, requests or conversations coming.  It is always nice to meet new friends that have been through the same thing as I have.  A lot of people who have never been over weight or who have never been around individuals that have had gastric bypass surgery have a hard time understanding the mental and physical changes that we go through.
                             -MMM-

DATE	WEIGHT	LBS LOST	TOTAL LBS LOST	BMI
8/5/2005	329	0	0	53.2	Super Obese
8/18/2005	309	20	20	49.8	Extremely Obese
9/7/2005	301	8	28	48.5
10/11/2005	285	16	44	46
11/7/2005	270	15	59	43.5
12/10/2005	255	15	74	41.1
1/9/2006	239	16	90	38.5	Officially OBESE
2/8/2006	230	9	99	37.1
3/7/2006	215	15	114	34.7
4/8/2006	203	12	126	32.6
5/8/2006	194	9	135	31.3	Almost to Overweight!!
6/8/2006	185	9	144	29.8	OVERWEIGHT!!
7/8/2006	180	5	149	28.7
8/8/2006	173	7	156	27.9
9/8/2006	165	8	164	26.6
5/13/2007	148	17	181	maintaining between 146-151

I am still trying to get used to this new format.  I am not quite sure if I like it or not.  But it's all good.  It has been a while since I have posted anything on this site.  I really need to get back in to the swing of things.  I am currently 1-2 lbs from my doctors goal, and below my personal goal.  I go back and forth between 151 and 152 lbs, depending on the day I suppose.  My personal goal was 160lbs so I would have to say that I did pretty good.  I am wearing a size 8/10 and enjoying it very much!  I bought a few cute little dresses and some cute dress clothes for my new job I started a month ago.  I am working for the commercial side of the company I have been with for a few years and I absolutely love it.  I start architectural classes in January.  My boss is wanting me to be an assistant project manager in the next 6 months to a year.  That would be freaking awesome.  I still have not been working out a whole lot.  I had my back surgery in August and all went well.  I have 12 screws.  One vertebrae has been pretty sore the last few days, not sure as to why.  I do still hike on the weekends but that is the extent of my exercise for right now.  I am too tired when I get home from work.  Hell, I fall asleep at work.  I had to go take a nap in my car today.  I actually went and bought some vitamins as well, some new ones.  I am hoping that will help with my tiredness because it is getting super old.  Aight, time to go home.  Have a lovely day.