Makingithappen
A little down.
Dec 04, 2011
Hello folks,
So this evening while working two younger gilrs came into out "Juniors" department. They began to laugh and giggle and I said to myself "Breath in, you were young like that once." Then the one girl comes up to me(not knowing that I work there) and says to me "Do you like the clothing in here?" I responded " I guess they are nice, but I don;t know that they are for me." So the other girls says " No girls like you belong over there" while pointing at our plus size department. They walked away laughing and talking about how bad the dissed me. Now it is not what they said that upset me but rather the fact of I am so sick of having to shop in the "Plus size department." Why do designers think that all heavey people want to wear ugly flora print clothing. We don't. Then I thought to myself, in a few months after this process really gets going, I will feel that comfort. Knowing that I am changing for the better. It is just a shame that parents raise their children like that.
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So this evening while working two younger gilrs came into out "Juniors" department. They began to laugh and giggle and I said to myself "Breath in, you were young like that once." Then the one girl comes up to me(not knowing that I work there) and says to me "Do you like the clothing in here?" I responded " I guess they are nice, but I don;t know that they are for me." So the other girls says " No girls like you belong over there" while pointing at our plus size department. They walked away laughing and talking about how bad the dissed me. Now it is not what they said that upset me but rather the fact of I am so sick of having to shop in the "Plus size department." Why do designers think that all heavey people want to wear ugly flora print clothing. We don't. Then I thought to myself, in a few months after this process really gets going, I will feel that comfort. Knowing that I am changing for the better. It is just a shame that parents raise their children like that.
Wondering
Dec 01, 2011
So I have been looking at photos of peoples before and afters and I have to wonder, what will I look like? I see some of these people and they look just amazing. Like something from a magazine,and I wonder will I still like the way I look. I don't like so much my body, but I think I have a pretty face. So I wonder, what happens when the one thing that I like about myself changes? Will I end up liking it or will it stress me out. Will people understand the choice that I have made for myself, and all of my future endeavors. I am worried about who I will become. Will I still be me? For so long I have been made fun of and never been a part of anyones group. I have friends, but you know what they say, all skinny girls have to have a fat friend. So will the relationships change? I love the friends that I have. They have been with me through the worst part of my life. So will I loose this weight, and them to? Does the changing of your looks affect the person that you have been all your life? Is it all of a sudden you look better, so you have to be better than everyone? I guess I am overthing a lot of this, and maybe I shouldn't. This is just never something that I thought I would allow myself to do. But with the backing of my husband and the two friends that know, I guess we will all take this plunge together. I just hope that there is something waiting to catch me below.
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