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I wish I was a few months out of surgery again!  It was so much easier then.  I like support group, but we need a support group that addresses the challenges after being years out.  I feel like all we talk about is preparing for surgery and helping those who are feeling anxiety about surgery.  I am all for helping others, but I need for support group to be focused on more than one phase of this journey. 

Well it has been a long time since I posted.  I have learned a valuable lesson.  Never underestimate the value of a support network.  It is so easy to fall back into bad habits.  However, I am still maintaining somewhere around 120 lbs lost, but would like to move beyong here.  I would like to lose about 40 more pounds.  I just feeling like I am failing daily.  Support needed!  Thanks!

Friday will be 6 months since surgery.  I cannot believe it has been 6 months already.  I have had some ups and downs in this process, but I would do it all again if I had to.  I realized that my scale at home and my scale at the doctor's office were not in agreement.  I found the trick to using my scale at home.  Finally, last weekend, I made 100 lbs. lost.  I am amazed at the transformation.  If I could just get my brain to not be "fat", that would be great.  At any rate, I wear about an 18W which is a far cry from 32W-34W six months ago.  Many people have their opinions about surgery, but they have no idea what it is like to carry so much weight around on our bodies.  We must do what is best for us.  I am learning what my style is and that is the most fun in this process.  I visit Dr. Moe tomorrow.  I will update to see if our scales agree.  Peace!

It is hard to believe that this time last year, surgery was something that I was hoping for.  All of the anxiousness is passed and now it is really an event that has already taken place.  I feel like there is life before 7/30/08 and life after 7/30/08.  I like the life afterwards so much better. Maybe that was my new year!  There are still challenges, but they are nothing like the challenges that I had.  I am so thankful to God for this surgery.  I am not implying that I could not have dieted and exercised.  I just know myself and I needed the help to get this done.  I always tell people who are considering it or who are against it; one must know himself and what is for him and what is not.  I am thankful that I love myself so much more now and I can love others so much better without apprehension and fear.  If they do not recieve it, then I pray for them and I no longer allow their negativity to be placed on my shoulders as though it is my fault.  This surgery has allowed me to see the world with brand new eyes.  I am just so thankful.  My husband is so enjoying a wife that he has never seen before and that is really exciting! I feel like I am an example to so many others who are struggling with their weight.  Not that surgery may be for them, but more that there are options if you have tried for years like I did to lose the weight.  Furthermore, there is no shame in making a concious decision that will save your life and the quality of it.  To God be the glory for the great things that He has done.  Keep praying for me please.  Happy New Year.

Hey all,
      Time is moving so quickly.  I cannot believe that I am three months out of surgery already.  I have had some good and bad days, but the good has outweighed the bad.  Bad days are usually because I did not follow directions.  So I learn the lesson and keep on moving.  I am down almost 75 pounds.  It is amazing.  I do a lot of walking.  Sometimes, I ride bikes at the gym or some weight training.  One of the biggest lessons that I am learning is that you cannot worry about what people think.  They are always thinking of something.  However, you and I must know that we did what we needed to do for ourselves.  I am learning to love myself and it is amazing.  I feel like I am being transformed from the inside out and the outside in.  I am now excited about shopping (though I still use the second hand stores) because now I can wear some of the trendy outfits that are out now.  I pray for so many people who are where I was.  It is so easy to judge, but we must pray that others will be free from the pain, weight, and prison of obesity.  I do not know how I made it so long.  It must have been the Lord carrying me like the poem Footsteps says.  I am so thankful for this second chance at life.  I hope that this message inspires someone because after all that I have been through, I want someone else to benefit from the steps that you and I have taken to make life sweeter for ourselves.  Never doubt, we deserve it!!!!

Well, here I am at almost 3 months post op.  It has been interesting to say the least.  I am loving life again.  I am taking risks with outfits and hair that I never would have taken before.  There is a little difficulty with the protien, but I am getting there.  I hate the taste of the shakes and drinks, but I gotta do what I gotta do!  I will upload pictures soon.  Dr. Moe is the best!

I am pinching myself all day long.  Everytime I get up to do something and my feet do not hurt, I am overwhelmed.  I think of all the things that I went through before surgery just to stay on my feet daily.  But now at 65 pounds gone, I must tell you that I would do it again in a heartbeat.  People comment about my countenance more than my size.  They enjoy talking to me now and I laugh all the time.  It has not been all easy, but it has been worth it.  I plan to post some pictures soon.

it has been 3 weeks since surgery.  I feel great.   I am learning how to take it easy and get the proper rest.  It is so important in the recovery process.  I am having some difficulty getting all of the protein in, but I plan to master it.  My clothes are way too big now.  Of course because of the weight loss, but also because I have always allowed my clothes to fit a little loose anyway.  I am going to shop, but minimally.  I do not want to waste money.  Anyway, I am enjoying this transformation.  Whatever the kinks are, the weight loss is worth it!!!!!!!!

I am feeling really good.  I am learning to be a little more patient with myself.  I am so glad to be past the full liquid stage.  Just needed to chew something.   I am watching parts of my body shrink.  It is really cool.  Some shoes fit differently now that a lot of the fluid has left my body.  I am down about 28 pounds.  I can't believe it. 

I just cannot beleive that I am on the losing side now.  After the years of debating, wondering, questioning, fighting, and consulting, here I am.  Wow.  Surgery was eventful, but I made it through.  Dr. Moein is the best!  He is so genuinely concerned that even when things were rocky, I had faith that he would take good care of me and make good decisions for me.  So far I have lost 18 pounds and I know that I made the best decision for myself.  Thanks everybody for all of youf prayers and support.  I can't wait to update with some pictures and stuff.  I am so excited that I really do not know where to start.  See you soon..........