lynze01
I was 27 when I had surgery and it was hard for me to accept that I no longer had control of my body, and needed help. I never struggled with my weight growing up. I gained the normal 10-15 pounds in college, but that was something I dealt with after graduation. Then came the most devastating time in my life. I was pregnant with my first child and was put on bed rest about half way through. Being stuck at home not really able to do anything really had the pounds adding up. When it was time for my little girl to come into the world, she was born with out a hearbeat. While at the hospital my husband left me for his assistant. I went from having everything I ever wanted, to having nothing at all. I fell into a deep depression, and gained over 50 pounds on top of the pregnancy weight.
When I finally got up and going, I turned to alcohol and gained even more weight. I have been fighting my weight ever since. I remarried in March of 2010. About 10 months later I stopped seeing weight loss no matter what I was doing, then my husband and I found out we were pregnant, so it made since I wasn't losing weight. Then I miscarried, and the sad emotional eating habbits came back. I gained 30 pounds in 3 months. Thats when I told myself I had to get control again, and if I couldn't do alone, then I needed to get help.
Now that I am on my road to a heathy person again, my dreams of having chirldren are getting close. My big picture goal is not a number on a scale that I can measure down to, it's being healthy enough to take any extra risks out of being pregnant.
