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Like many people in here, I have struggled with my weight for a long time. I didn't get REALLY heavy until after I had my son. I only gained 25 pounds during pregnancy, but have put weight on non-stop since then .. My life just so totally changed. I went from living on a street that ended at the ocean, riding my bike along the beach, roller skating, going to the gym, to moving inland getting married, pregnant, and then doing home daycare for a few years. Now, I design websites from home... again causing me to mainly sit all day.
As the weight has poured on, so have the problems. Aches, pains, fibromyalgia ... the vicious circle of knowing I'd feel better if I worked out, but not having the strength, energy, or lack of pain to do so. I've been on every diet. I even got down to 125 on Jenny Craig about 14 years ago... did Atkins ... tried starving myself... they all work for a while and then I gain it back.
I had my son at 36. I am 50 now. I want to be around long enough to see him marry and have children. He is a budding "rock star". I want to be able to go with him wherever that journey takes him. I want to be a better wife instead of a constantly sick wife. I want to wear cute clothes ! I want my self-esteem back. I know I shouldn't feel like I'm less because I weigh more, and I don't necessarily, but I know I am judged.
I have been approved for the surgery through my insurance and will finish the 6 month required program this week. It is a bit scary, but I know this will be a positive move for me. I'm looking forward to joining the rest of you "on the bench" !
