Lisa R.

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I finally got restriction last week. It took 3 fills with the last one under fluoro.   In eight days I have lost 4 lbs!  Incredible.  And that is with eating out one a couple of nights.  I am so glad it's finally starting to work.   I'm really making an effort to keep my protein up there and limit my carbs.  And the band restricts the amount.  I'm about a half a pound away from Onderland.  Yay!!  I hope I never have to see that 2 in front of my weight again!

I'm doing so much better than I was just a few days ago.  It took a while for me to feel myself again.  Did not have much motivation to speak of, then starting week 4, I got a nasty cold.  But I'm on the mend again and today I joined a gym.  I'm really excited about it.  It seems really nice and my employer subsidizes the fees  so it's very afordable even for the entire family.  They have a pool, and hot tub (huge),  tanning beds, all the cardio equipment have LCD TV's with cable.  Also XM satalite radio.  Also racquet ball courts.  I'm excited about it and plan to go tomorrow.  As far as weight loss, I have lost 7lbs since surgery, most in the first two weeks, but that's okay, I lost two lbs this week and I finally feel motivated to control my eating some.  I've been eating lean cuisines and smart ones for lunch and they are about the right size.  Sometimes I miss drinking carbonated beverages (a nice pepsi sounds so good) but I do just fine with some crystal light peach tea.  I put on a black turtle neck today and could really see some difference in my shape.  As far as my surgery incicions and such, they are healing great.  I can sleep on my stomach which I haven't done in a long time.  I was kind of muddled before the surgery and immediately following but finally feel inspired.

Well I'm 9 days out.  I've lost a total of 13 lbs since starting my liquid diet.  Not bad I guess.  Still a little sore especially around the port site.  The gas is finally getting a little better.  I'm not as tired.  I admit the experience was not incredibly bad but it was harder than I thought it would be, not sure why, maybe I'm just not as young as I used to be.  I'm glad it's over and I'm starting to feel like doing things again.  I'll be glad to get rid of these da#% shakes.  I guess I'll never entirely be rid of them but I need to become more creative with regards to protein intake.    Thats all I have for now.

It's Monday night, I have surgery scheduled for Thursday Morning.  Less than 56 hours and I'll be banded.  Hard to believe.  I now know there is nothing magical about being banded.  It's just a tool and I still have a lot of work to do.  Nothing much will change right away, I'll still be on my liquid diet for 2 more weeks... It's tough, not so much that you're hungry because I am not, it's just seeing other people eat.  At least maybe I can eat some potato soup, I have been avoiding carbs like the plague.  I know I will need to continue to do so but maybe I'll at least have a few more options.. Trying to think of all the stuff I can eat on the liquid portion of the diet.  Doesn't seem very promising but hopfully I'll get creative. 

Just 13 days..  I've been shopping to get all the stuff for my liquid diet.. I like it all but I'm sure I'll get tired of it.  It still doesn't seem real.  Maybe when I am a week out, it'll feel real  I wish I could feel more joy about it right now.  But I'm so anxious to get it done and get the weight off that I'm not enjoying much of anything right now.  I know that is not the most productive way to think.. I'm always like that.  If I have a goal in front of me, I can't relax or be happy with life until it's completed.  I need to really try to change that because I always have some goal to reach and if I never allow myself to be happy until it's reached, then I'll seldom be happy.  I guess that's what the old saying is about.. Life is a journey, not a destination. 

Well  I now have 20 days until my surgery.  It still seems like forever!  Still have a few hoops to jump through at work before I can take off with a clear conscience.  I am doing somethings to try to ease the transition.  I've dropped to one coke a day and tommorrow will go to no cokes a day.  Next week I'll start walking a little to get up my strength to walk after surgery.  Then the next week I start my liquid diet... just 10 days!! Yikes!I have my pre-op visit with my surgeon in 5 days.  I'm terrified he'll change his mind and want more test!  That's all for today..

I am so busy at work,  you'd think I wouldn't have a minute to think about it, but it's like I'm in a time lock.  It feels like I'm going to be working this hard forever and it feels like I will never get to my surgery date.. I wish I could just slap myself out of this.

29 days to go..

This waiting is so hard..  I have so much going on at work right now and really need to concentrate and I am, but I would really rather be day dreaming about my future body, my future clothes, tans, activities etc. etc..  30 days to goooo.......

Well I'm on my way after waiting for what seemed like an eternity to get my band.  I'm scheduled for November 6th.  34 days to go..  I'm not nervous about the surgery but I am nervous about the reality of not being able to eat much.. I've read a lot about "Head Hunger" and it describes me exactly.  I'm definitely going to have to go to the support groups and work on another form of stress relief other than eating.  I have a  friend who is going on the pre-op liquid diet with me just for support.   What a woman!  At first I wanted my band as soon as I could possibly have the surgery but now I think I'm glad I have a month to get ready for it mentally.. I'll write more when I go on the liquid diet.