LLinderman
I had the RNY proximal done in July 2001; on the date of surgery I weighed 265 lbs. I never made it to my personal goal of 145 lbs, although I did get down to 159 lbs (briefly). My weight hovered in 160's for several years and I felt and looked great. I was only working part-time then and exercised faithfully every day.
After 2005 my work increased to full time and I had less time to exercise. I no longer "dumped" and old habits crept back in. Problems in my marriage added to the situation. In 2006 my dad died after a traumatic period of suffering. We were very close and the grief overwhelmed me.
For the past 3 years I have battled severe depression, work 10 hour days 6 days a week, and have stopped exercising. I am the sole support of my family. Lost my retirement security when the banks fell and am under constant stress from a husband who spends much too freely. Having always been a stress eater, my eating is out of control. As of today I weigh 199 lbs and am so disappointed in myself.
I am sorry if my story offens anyone. I stopped posting in 2005 because I got nasty feedback about being "negative". That hurt because I thought this was supposed to be a place where you could share your feelings and get help. Life is never all roses and happiness.
There are many bright days, however. My grandchildren now number three and they are the lights of my life. Alex is now 7, Vincent is 5, and Riley just turned 2 (what a handful). They remain an inspiration to motivate me to get "back on track".