Lisaf
I was 16 when I met my ex. Everything was great for about four years. When I was 21 I had my daughter 25 my son. I was in a relationship where there was a lot of manipulation and mental abuse. I put on some weight with my children but I found food to be my comfort. I went from a 100 pound happy vibrant ballet dancer that was full of life to a 220 pound miserable mean angry beast.
Food was a crutch for me. I would eat when I was angry, sad, mad, just because. I would hear coments from family like aren't you unhappy the way you are? Don't you want to outlive your children? Don't you remember being skinny? Don't you want to be happy again? I guess my turning point was this past may when my sister got marrier. I had to go to a maturnity store to buy a dress to wear. It was the worst feeling I had ever had in my life.
I have a 5-year-old son and he said to me mama are you Santa? I said why honny? and he said because Santa is chubby like you!!!!! I knew then I had to change for my children. Children are the most honnest things at that age and what comes out of their mouth is generally true.
So here I am now ready for a change and moving forward with my plans to get healthy!!!!!!!!
